Suit of Pentacles - the Design Process

To me, the suit of pentacles represents the design industry to the fullest. You have....
the ace of pentacles
which is the sprout of a new idea for the design, got the job

two of pentacles
is a critique via the professor (or client) about your ideas on paper, the design is young, a balance of thought is exchanged that will materialize (on paper) into the design

three of pentacles
represents the transition from ideas on paper to the computer.

Four of pentacles
represents a solid foundation of the design - not necessarily finished but a good start, its secure, you've got all the basics covered, go for it.

Five of Pentacles
represents advice given to you but you may not be necessarily open to it, I see creativity a divine force and in the five a pentacles there is usually two figures avoiding a church - so perhaps this may also mean avoidance of creativity? Not using it? Lack of Inspiration?

Six of pentacles
represents moving on, finally getting ideas worked out an materialized on the computer you may have a comp (prototype) done. You have the ideas down, a good foundation, you took the advice finally, saw the "light" got inspiration.

Seven of pentacles
you are stepping back, admiring your work, you may have one final individual critique from the professor

the eight of pentacles
is getting the details, emerging yourself in the work figuring out the details, the presentation, being OCD about the design, praying you won't mess it up... that one more hurdle before you move on to.... THERE IS a design (pentagram) on the pentacles and we see a craftman working dilgently on it.

the nine of pentacles
where you can finally say "AHA! I am done!" this may indicate a project being done early where you may feel "bored" and "Laxed" about it and you can finally sigh with relief. I see a waiting period with this card.

The ten of pentacles
is a transition from the journey of the numeric suit to the court cards. You may be taking the design to the final critique or to the client.

Page of Pentacles
Represents you in the final critique. You are the designer who emerged from the numeric suit. This page is all about concentration of communication, he reminds me of the ace of pentacles, but instead of sprouting a new idea, he may take advice from the client. He is the page which the knight "picks" on. In medieval times, I believe pages are the figures that help knights prepare for battle. You've been through a tough journey already but you emerged a designer with a project ready to be handed to the client ...

Knight of Pentacles
After the final critique you are back at working, head first into the design making the changes the client wanted - they may even have set a date. You are now battling and fighting the changes, it is a slow process. I see this night being slower getting all the details straightened out and fought rushing against the time frame.

Queen of Pentacles
Win! You completed the design. You handed it in. You presented yourself well, you may have gotten your cheque already - or you may have gotten samples of the product. But since queens are usually seen as a secondary in the royal hierarchy the queen may represent you, since in the design industry its all about what the client wants (king of pentacles).

King of Pentacles
The client got what he wanted, He has your design, He may have reproduced it in 3d form (posters, packaging, etc).

Death - Ghost Rider

Lately I've been doing tarot studies regarding various events that's happened since the start of the semester. And I just want to say that when the Death card came up in my readings I couldn't get the image of Ghost Rider out of my mind. It just seemed a too perfect archetype for the events.

I saw this movie on a date in High School and completely forgot about it until now. Ghost Rider is "based on the Marvel character, stunt motorcyclist Johnny Blaze gives up his soul to become a hellblazing vigilante, to fight against power hungry Blackheart, the son of the devil himself" (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0259324/). I suppose the image of the skeleton on the Medieval Scapini card triggered the image of Ghost Rider since he is riding a skeleton of some animal whatever it may have been. Looks snake like.. anyway, during the reading there was absolutely NO way for me to have really understood what this card was trying to tell me. Because the divinary meaning of this card is the End of a Cycle, not necessarily death itself. Its been known to predict spiritual transformations. Though, that doesn't mean that the mundane meaning of the card should not be forgotten. Its just very RARE that tarot cards are literal. Tarot is the language of the mind, the archetypal mind and the reason why they work as a divinary system is that we all wonder through life via our consciousness and subconsciousness, so archetypal events and images are bound to make an appearance. Its been said that everything we experience that we consider to be the Manifest world is actually an illusion, something that our minds conjure up. In hypnosis studies its been said that we appear to have a collective agreement to be here in this physical world So everything that happens in life as mere events is part of the subconscious and is a reflection of it.

Receiving Money in Dream

So before I went to sleep last night I told myself I'd remember my dreams (I usually don't) and upon waking I remembered my dream! Anyway, in this dream I was at a bus stop (it felt like a bus stop in Bethlehem, PA) and this middle aged lady came up to me with a square salmon colored box and said, "This is for you". Inside was a fortune cookie sized piece of paper that said, $11,1111 (yes it was written like this not $11,111). Then this lady and I went inside a building to discuss what to do with it. I decided to invest 2k and put the rest into a separate bank account.

According to Qabbalah, 11 is the number of Death, but that doesn't necessarily mean physical death. In tarot the Death card usually indicates the end/beginning of some kind of change, or transition. If I took 11,111 and translated it into binary it would look something like this; "01101111" which in an alphabet>binary code translator would be the letter "O". From Qabbalah "The letter O is the All Seeing Eye concept".

The Salmon color is a cousin of the primary color orange

salmon

Primary dream symbol: orange
The color orange can represent:

• Bold, outgoing, assertive, invigorated
• Autumn, or the "winding down" of a phase or cycle

Source: http://www.thecuriousdreamer.com/dreamdictionary/symbol_alt/5004/

Squares often represent a point of rest, a time needing to be spent alone. In tarot, the number 4 is often represented as this. 4 would be the number to mathematically construct a square. Since the box is a material item, I would associate the salmon color box with the 4/Pentacles tarot card.

4/Pents represents the following in a reading:

• 4P shows a woman shutting herself inside her home because she needs to be alone and sheltered
• means to "hold tight", or stay in a holding pattern- not to take precipitate action.

Source: http://www.tarotforum.net/library/8/2003-04/4-of-pentacles-20030414.shtml

• "Hold on to your dreams, but be open and flexible and give them the energy they need to develop". 
• One interpretation I really like is this:
• Sacred Space
  Sometimes I think of the 4 of Coins as a Cathedral, instead of a castle/prison. When I was a student (in a previous century), I took a course in "Geography" (it was more like anthropology). We read Mircea Eliade, and learned about the symbolism of human structures. If I recall anything through the dingy, cobwebbed recesses of memory, -- in ancient societies, the four walls necessarily created "sacred" space. Outside the four walls, was chaos, wilderness. Within the four walls was a place for God. Source: http://www.tarotforum.net/library/8/2004-01/four-of-pentacles-20040127.shtml 

The sacred space interpretation seems to really fit with the whole box thing containing the message, $11,1111. Even the dollar sign on the keyboard is the number 4. Especially if the $11,111 translates to 01101111 to mean "O" or the all-seeing eye God concept. Its' almost as if I am being handed the all seeing eye...

The middle aged lady if I remember right had an emerald green jacket and thin, short curly strawberry blonde hair. Although these details are fuzzy, so they aren't too important. Sometimes in dreams middle aged women may be a reflection of the dreamer in a 'future' state. As in the Maiden, Mother and Crone? Perhaps some future state of myself I will be receiving the all-seeing eye, becoming enlightened? Or perhaps I won't be fully enlightened until I am a mother or middle aged?

Money doesn't necessarily mean money in dreams, especially since I wasn't handed actual cash or a check. The money that was discussed was almost illusory because no actual check or cash was presented. This may be a stretch but 2,000 may be the number of years it took for my spirit to become enlightened? If we're implying that the illusory money given to me is spiritual enlightenment, investing 2k could be considered that my soul has invest 2,000 'dollars' of this spiritual dough. And since I put that 2k in the bank, I've got $9k to go or 9,1111 years to go. Perhaps though originally since I interpreted 11,1111 as a binary code; 9,1111 may be also another code. You know, if you take a closer look at 9,1111 it is 9/11/11. Which would be September 11, 2011, last year. Or if you add the elevens in such a way that you get number 4 (again, 1+1+1+1). Who knows! The later of this may be a bit abstract for this though, the spiritual dough seems to apply to this better than the numerology presented at the end.

Heck, I certainly hope it won't take 9,1111 more years for my soul to develop!

I decided to google the number "9.1111" and this came up as the first entry:

9/1111 Gold Coast Highway, Palm Beach, Qld 4221

Interesting that the street of the address is "Gold Coast"? As gold has often been associated with spiritual enlightenment.

Revisiting Reading

I apologize for not being interesting or posting a lot lately. The semester is winding down and pretty much coming to a close, which means art finals are coming up soon as well as regular finals. I've had no motivation to do anything and it seems as if the semester is catching up to me.

Since I didn't get my internship, I need to figure out my schedule. I also had a couple of days last week where I did not feel like doing much at all, and simply did not, so now I am behind in my work.

Yesterday I went to Baltimore with the art department and spent about 10 hours of walking around the city on no sleep. Never again! I was so tired, I slept whenever we were on the bus. It was bad...

Anyway, one of the things I do usually at the beginning and end of the semester is do a reading comparisons seeing and reviewing the semester to see if the reading I did at the beginning of it came true.


Reading Analysis:
    Seven of Coins, indicated the card of crossroads. Boy was this card true! This card I believe spoke to my internship. I was definitely at cross roads in october, waiting nervously and patiently to hear from disney. I also came across some scheduling problems where I found myself to be 1.25 units short from graduating early. Since one of my summer classes didn't transfer over. I didn't know where and what to do for next semester and didn't know for a long time until just this past week.
   Four of Swords, indicated the card of rest. So true! After last year, I guess this card is/was referring to all the drama that happened last year. Also I am taking some time off of some of my duties that I have during the school year to really focus on my school work and to make sure I have a kick-ass portfolio by graduation.
   Ten of Coins, indicated the Card of Permanence. This happened to be true as well. I had a lot of good business progression regarding design projects. I had quite a lot of them too. Occupy Bethlehem, Manuscript Poster, a website and I know I'm forgetting one... so yes I've been getting paid for them too and that's nice. :)

You can find the reading for this semester, here.

My personality astrologically

Pluto in Scorpio:(1983-84 to 1995) it's all or nothing -period.

Mars in Sagittarius: active faith, traveler, adventurer.

Uranus in Capricorn:(1988 to 1995-96) These people find new ways to govern or organize.

Mercury in Capricorn: practical, factual mind, organized.

Neptune in Capricorn:(1984 to 1998) These people are addicted to control and order.

Moon in Capricorn: needs to achieve or progress on a daily basis. Very ambitious.

Saturn in Capricorn: security through one's status or career.

Venus in Capricorn: frugal, reliable, faithful, and serious .

Sun in Aquarius Happy when different, unique, or controversial. Influential friend, reformer, humanitarian.

Jupiter in Cancer: good buisness sense, nurturing, overemotional.

Midheaven in Virgo: analytical ego, career in office work, clothing, food, and services.

http://www.librarising.com/astrology/fwa/pints.htm

Finalized Logo

So I added one last change to this logo and I think I got it. Those that had a problem with it said it was too blocky/structured and I think the change above fixes that! Yay!

Also there are lady bugs mysteriously in my suite. My dorm is very secure as it is new and I thought it was weird that there but I took it as a good sign. So I did a Rune reading and the two runes that I grabbed from the bag together was the Wunjo, which in the futhark script is written as a "P" and Isa, which is written as a "I" and so it spells, "PI" or as I read it, "Professional Internship", this was a question regarding my disney internship. Synchronistic much? Between the lady bugs and the rune reading, I'll be very surprised if I DON'T get the internship. 

I mean if they really didn't want me, they'd probably tell me pretty early, right? 

Trying to stay neutral, but so many positive "signs" that its hard not to. 

You can probably tell I'm dying from anxiety right? So anxious to hear from them! :)

Wunjo: (W or V: Joy.) Joy, comfort, pleasure. Fellowship, harmony, prosperity. Ecstasy, glory, spiritual reward, but also the possibility of going "over the top". If restrained, the meaning is general success and recognition of worth. Wunjo Reversed or Merkstave: Stultification, sorrow, strife, alienation. Delirium, intoxication, possession by higher forces, impractical enthusiasm. Raging frenzy, berzerker.

Isa: (I: Ice.) A challenge or frustration. Psychological blocks to thought or activity, including grievances. Standstill, or a time to turn inward and wait for what is to come, or to seek clarity. This rune reinforces runes around it. Isa Merkstave (Isa cannot be reversed, but may lie in opposition): Ego-mania, dullness, blindness, dissipation. Treachery, illusion, deceit, betrayal, guile, stealth, ambush, plots.

Third Eye Opening

At the risk of sounding nuts-o I've been meaning to post about this throbbing sensation I have been feeling frequently since the summer of 09' after my spiritual awakening. Yesterday I decided to do some research, some people believe the throbbing or pulsating sensation is the third eye sending waves of energy out and is beginning to slowly awaken.

I have suspected it has been the third eye. I actually hear this pulsating noise. Its like a heart beat but inside your head, so I'm hoping you can see why I am afraid to speak about this to anyone, cause they would definitely look at me weirdly.

Since then I've come completely out of my shell so-to-speak. I'm interested in subjects I never saw myself getting into in high school. My clairvoyance has been spiking. The end products to projects have been coming at me at the speed of light, faster than I can write down the ideas. I design based on an end product that I see in my 'third-eye area' and use that as a concept and apply it to my project.

Sleep is difficult. Especially near the full moon as I've mentioned before. The moon's energy seems to affect my hyperactivity/creativity. Philosophical and mystical ideas flow out right before I go to sleep to the point where I've started writing a journal to get these ideas down.

I have feel like I've been free from a lot of the things in my past and was able to just shed them away. Some ghosts are still there, but most of it I can put behind me.

I'm more aware/careful of what I put into my mouth and hardly overdose on any kind of drug; Tylenol, etc. My time of month has been extremely light to pretty much non-existent.

I'm excited to see where this will take me. I hope it continues to open.

The Concept of Images

So I shouldn't be writing because I have a mild form of tendonitis in my left wrist. The pain isn't excruciating it is more of a painful throb. It even made me feel a bit nauseous at one point (weird I know). I currently have it wrapped up in ice.

I haven't even been doing a lot of wrist work... but I use my wrists a lot in my every day and weekly activities... piano, harp, laptop... plus my joints/wrists are weak in general.

Anyway, I was contemplating about Images and their purpose in our society, through the views of a mystic I find them to be extremely fascinating.

The entrapment of the Rubidium 85 atom is the result of a three-year research project funded by the Foundation for Research, Science and Technology, and has already prompted world-wide interest in the new science which will flow from the breakthrough. The researchers then proved they could reliably and consistently produce individual trapped atoms - a major step towards using the atoms to build next-generation, ultra-fast quantum-logic computers, which harness the potency of atoms to perform complex information-processing tasks. Source: http://www.physorg.com/news205161948.html

In mysticism, the concept of an image is used to described our physical world. The scientists' 21st model of the Universe is a holographic universe. This just means our physical reality is essentially a grainy picture.  Above this paragraph is a photograph of a rubidium 85 atom trapped. This is the first time anyone has seen any kind of atom. If you look at the picture, it just contains particles of light.  According to scientists we are made up of a bunch of atoms similar to this.

I began thinking about the parallels in science and spirituality, and the concept of images really brings that link closer. ‎I was reading a Practical Kabbalistic guide this weekend and ran across this:

The Analogous Identity of the Divine Plane and the Material Universe, the second being created "in the image" of the first and remaining its reflection, inferior and imperfect; And enduring rapport between the two, a rapport flowing from the analogous identity, being able to be expressed at the same time as it is established, by a secondary science, called Symbolism. - Practical Kabbalah - R. Ambelain (19XX). trans. Piers A. Vaughan.

When I am meditating on the 'As above and so below' I am always reminded of this passage in the Book of Genesis from the Bible:

Genesis 1²⁶ Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals,^[a] and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”

I am also reminded that many things can be reversed, that's just how things are in this world. You can neither be on the 'black' side of the spectrum or the 'white' side of the spectrum.
Putting the "reverse" concept into practice I like taking this passage from the Book of Genesis :

^{Genesis 13} And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.

And rewrite it as, "And Light said, "Let there be God," and there was God.

The above rewritten statement is very kabbalistic and is essentially how this world was formed. The atoms are living entities, who think. According to Byran Kamilla of the It’s All In Our Mind – The LIGHT BRINGERS – Eliminating The Illuminators: 

The screen in front of you is empty … 

Now imagine the empty screen is the totality of everything that is … even though there’s no shape … no colour … and no sound. 

As you look at the screen in front of you … what do you see? You see nothing. As you look at the screen in front of you … what do you know? 

You know a lot. Even though you don’t see anything on the screen, you still know … and have locked up inside you, a vast storehouse of knowing. 

At this point in time, and in this scenario we’re contemplating, what you know may be correct, or it may be incorrect. It makes no difference. 

You still have an incredible amount of information recorded somewhere within you, even though you can’t see anything. Imagine again, that all that knowing you possess, has within it, the power and strength to exist forever. 

There’s no beginning and no end. You have the power and wisdom to be eternal. Imagine that you’re filled with this knowing and completely possessed with this eternal power and strength. This is about as powerful as anyone could hope to be. 

Let’s imagine that this knowing not only exists in you, but it exists in every person on the planet. It’s not something you have to go out and find, it’s just there, in you and in everyone that ever walked on the face of the earth. 

Now imagine that someone, or a group of individuals, with that same eternal power, also wanted to have your power, and my power. Imagine that this group wanted to take possession of all that is ours. 

However, they can’t take it from us by force, because it’s locked inside us, and it is who we are. Still, they desire to at least control it. 

This group wished for our power to work in unison with their power, and the enormity of that combined strength of power and knowing would make them greater than the greatest … the most massive force in existence… they would appear to be GOD…

Diffraction pattern of an icosahedral quasicrystal

Inspired by the growing numbers and varieties of quasiperiodic crystals, the International Union of Crystallography has redefined the term crystal to mean ``any solid having an essentially discrete diffraction diagram'', thereby shifting the essential attribute of crystallinity from position space to Fourier space. Within the family of crystals one distinguishes between periodic crystals, which are periodic on the atomic scale, and aperiodic crystals which are not. This broader definition reflects our current understanding that microscopic periodicity is a sufficient but not a necessary condition for crystallinity. In our research we deal with questions concerning the symmetry of crystals. We classify crystals according to their symmetry using an approach in Fourier space which treats periodic and quasiperiodic crystals on an equal footing. Source: http://www.lassp.cornell.edu/lifshitz/quasicrystals.html

The above photo is a diffraction pattern of a quasicrystal.

When writing this post, I remembered how the first image that was ever created was using the 'as above and so below' concept. This discovery was originally made by Aristotle:

Here is the kabbalistic image of the concept of "as above and so below":

The Universe is Flat

This post is in response to an old post on symbology in Tibetan art for a holographic reality.
For aeons philosophers and scientists have debated what the physical shape of the universe is. Just recently on Universetoday a journalist reported that researchers and scientists have finally declared that the Universe is flat. Say what?

Various universe evolution scenarios. A universe with too much density collapses in on itself, a critical density universe stays static, while a universe with not enough density keeps expanding at a steady (coasting) rate. However, today's cosmology puts emphasis upon the cosmological constant, which gives an accelerating expansion. Does this mean that density is irrelevant? Credit: NASA.

Tibetan mandala depicting "Mount Meru" the object that in Tibetan mythology said to have created the universe.

"A remarkable finding of the early 21st century, that kind of sits alongside the Nobel prize winning discovery of the universe’s accelerating expansion, is the finding that the universe is geometrically flat. This is a remarkable and unexpected feature of a universe that is expanding – let alone one that is expanding at an accelerated rate – and like the accelerating expansion, it is a key feature of our current standard model of the universe.

It may be that the flatness is just a consequence of the accelerating expansion – but to date this cannot be stated conclusively."

Source: http://www.universetoday.com/89912/astronomy-without-a-telescope-flat-universe/


Metaphysics teaches us that all things that contain an electromagnetic field or magnetic field will be torodial in shape. This applies to the human, the earth and they teach also the universe...

So if the universe is flat, that must mean its obviously not torodial, and obviously not electromagnetic/mechanical as the physicists have always thought it must be. But... how can 3 dimensional objects exist in a geometrically flat universe?

The above image is taken from The Scientific Indian blog. The author, Selva, posted how he was questioned about the connectedness of this world through synchronicity. He connected how the Belousov-Zhabontinsky reaction looked like a CMB picture of the universe. Explain that! BZ reactions are typically known for their formations of archimedes spirals which are said to be waves of information rather than mechanical.

 Do we live in a universe that communicates more through information transmissions/transactions than through mechanical motions?

The Beginning of the End

Last night, I got an hour of sleep. Mostly because my mind wouldn't shut up and I blame it on the full moon. More often than not, the full moon makes me hyper active and makes me think of far-fetched ideas and my creativity skyrockets. I either sleep a lot, or sleep a little.

Last night I was hit with a revelation. Something I never thought of before and it relates to 2012.

Its quite simple, actually.
Throughout our ancient past there are a group of beings that are often described as snake-like. The East calls them the Nagas.

They are described as being highly intelligent and having direct contact with the human races on earth. The Eastern documents describes specific places where they may have underground civilizations. In reverse speech (the phenomena that when speech is reversed it becomes a language of the Universal Mind) it describes a snake-like race that has complete control over humanity. As God is the epitome of Good, this snake-like race is the epitome of Evil. Unfortunately for humanity, the Nagas are inter-dimensional beings. Humans can neither see, hear, feel, taste or smell them... "See no evil, hear no evil and speak no evil, etc". Man's greatest enemy is one he cannot detect with his own senses. Just because the human cannot detect something doesn't mean it isn't there.

These Nagas have been found in all of the cultures of the world, from Quetzalcoatl to the ancient chinese. All cultures worship an evil that is usually described as snake-like. 

Genesis 3 

1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?” 

2 The woman said to the serpent, “We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden,

3 but God did say, ‘You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.’”

4 “You will not certainly die,” the serpent said to the woman. 5 “For God knows that when you eat from it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”

However the truth about these beings have been kept from humanity for all these years. The serpent beings are in fact the ones who have jump started our modern society, they are the ones who have helped the Ancient Mayans and the Ancient Chinese. Our modern society ARE those ancient cultures, but instead of being in the same spot, in the ruins, we are where the cities are today. I bet you, that all our world leaders were chosen carefully because of ancestral linage.

The revelation was, since the Nagas helped all our ancient cultures, they foresaw their socities' end and that end is next year. There is no coincidence that all major calendars are ending; mayan, hebrew, hindu... all those cultures were influenced by the Nagas. Our society was built to be destroyed... why? To keep hidden simple facts from humanity... who we really are, why are we here... who created us?

The above is the correct, qabbalistic comparison of our gregorian calendar and the hebrew calendar. As you notice, the column that indicates dates that have been translated from the Hebrew calendar into the Gregorian calendar (without Gregory's changes) indicates that year 2011 is 1999 and that next year, 2012 - 2,000 correlates to the Y2k phenomena.

Our crappy society was built to keep the human mind pre-occupied and busy so that the individual does not have time to sit around and think. That is why there is so much confusion, so much emotional strain, so much stress...

And as 2012 approaches we will begin the beginning of the end, the end of an era. The end of the Naga world domination.

Reading for Early Graduation

With so many obstacles and bumps in the road for my early graduation approval, I decided to do a tarot reading to gain insight/guidance about what is to come and what I may have to overcome.

(I really shouldn't be blogging right now since its way past my bed time, but I had the urge to do the reading now, and when that happens, its usually the right time for such things)

Q: Will I graduate early? (I realize this question may be kind of vague for this kind of spread but I wanted to see my results first and then do a more in depth spread if I have to)


1. Six of Swords

According to Psychic Revelation

Generally the 6 shows at least a slight reduction in stress and strain. Things may not be perfect, but they are going to be better than they may have been in the recent past. Take this time to get your head above water and decide where you're going from here. Even a short break or change of scenery will be helpful. This doesn't have to cost money.

2. King of Wands reversed

According to Psychic Revelation

In general the King of Wands reversed is a positive card. People around you are likely to be kind, tolerant, and understanding. You should have more than enough energy to get what you need to do accomplished. Again, a light haired, older man may play an important and helpful role in your life.

3. King of Coins

According to Psychic Revelation

The King of Pentacles speaks of authority, tradition, and success in money matters. When he appears in a reading, it's a sign that now is not a time to be a maverick, now is a time to follow the establish way of doing things. When he stands in for a literal man in your life, it generally refers to a very masculine fellow with hair and eyes on the darker end of the spectrum.

Then I did a "finishing card". Usually when I do a "finishing card" its because the spread doesn't feel complete and something important needs to be shown and this is usually done intuitively.  


4. Finishing Card: The Lover's Reversed

According to Psychic Revelation

When this card appears in reverse, it’s very likely that you are feeling ambivalent about a relationship or situation in your life. You must pay attention to what your gut is telling you and to try to analyze and get clear about what this is and why. Your feelings and emotions are there for a reason. Don’t ignore them.

Even when reversed The Lovers is a powerfully positive omen, particularly of course for romantic relationships, but in truth, for all relationships in your life. The card is associated with the astrological sign of Gemini, "The Twins".

 At first glance I think the end result will be good. I will probably graduate on time and will get something done early. However, the King of Pentacles doesn't make sense but at the same time he does. I don't like the, "Now is a time to follow the established way of doing things" because that means I will have to may not graduate early. But at the same time, that card may be telling me to follow the necessary steps that are required to get my grade appealed and work around my problems with graduating early.

King of Wands made me laugh, its' obviously talking about one of the deans :) and the energy of this card is great too, it should mean that people will be willing to work with me and make sure I get this fight done and over with. The King of Wands could also be speaking about my Learning Services councilor... which would make more sense I guess since he's writing a letter to get my grade appealed, etc. and playing an important role.

First card, Six of Wands, is easy. Perhaps this may indicate when I'll find out if it'll be appealed. The only time I'll be traveling anytime soon will be Thanksgiving.

We'll see what happens!

iSad

Moments after news broke about Steve Jobs' death, a rainbow popped out of the Pixar campus (taken with my iPhone 4). Rest in peace, Steve, and thank you. SOURCE

Steve Jobs bought a small studio, "The Graphics Group" in 1986 and later renamed is "Pixar".

iSad. We Sad. World Sad.

"Apple has lost a visionary and creative genius, and the world has lost an amazing human being. Those of us who have been fortunate enough to know and work with Steve have lost a dear friend and an inspiring mentor. Steve leaves behind a company that only he could have built, and his spirit will forever be the foundation of Apple." - Apple.com/stevejobs 

As some of the readers of the blog may know, I am one who does not believe in coincidences. I honestly believe the rainbow above Pixar is a mystical occurrence, photographic evidence of someone achieving the Rainbow Body of Light taught in Buddhism. The timing of the rainbow is impeccable and instantly awakens the questioning mind. Interestingly an article was published today by CNN journaling Jobs' philosophy and spirituality:

The name of Jobs' company is said to be inspired by the Beatles' Apple Corps, which repeatedly sued the electronics maker for trademark infringement until signing an exclusive digital distribution deal with iTunes. Like the Beatles, Jobs took a spiritual retreat to India and regularly walked around his neighborhood and the office barefoot.  

Traversing India sparked Jobs' conversion to Buddhism. Kobun Chino, a monk, presided over his wedding to Laurene Powell, a Stanford University MBA. SOURCE

 Even Job's said himself that he doesn't believe in coincidences:

 "I believe life is an intelligent thing, that things aren't random," Jobs said in a 1997 interview with Time, providing a glimpse into his complicated belief system that extends well beyond the Buddhist teachings. SOURCE

According to an article published by The Red Dragon Shop,

The ultimate Great Completion culmination is the Rainbow or Body of Light attainment. This is widely recognized as a sign of extreme sanctity in Tibetan Buddhism and among the Bönpo.  [..] The Rainbow Body – The Body of Light is light without shadow; it is awareness without obscurations; it is omniscience; it is pure space. [...] The Body of Light represents a complete and total and radical transformation of one’s status of being, a rediscovery of what was primordially present, and this condition is permanent. It is Awareness itself and is dependent on nothing else.

Sogyal Rinpoche wrote,

In 1952 there was a famous instance of the rainbow body in the East of Tibet, witnessed by many people. The man who attained it, Sonam Namgyal, was the father of my tutor at the beginning of this book. He was a very simple, humble person, who made his way as an itinerant stone carver, carving mantras and sacred texts. Some say he had been a hunter in his youth, and had received a teaching from a great master. No one really knew he was a practitioner; he was truly called a "hidden yogin." . . . he then fell ill, or seemed to, but became strangely, increasingly happy. When he illness got worse, his family called in masters and doctors.

His son told him he should remember, 'Everything is illusion, but I am confident that all is well.' Just before his death at seventy-nine, he said "All I ask is that when I die, don't move my body for a week." When he died his family wrapped his body and invited Lamas and monks to come and practice for him. They placed the body in a small room in the house, and they could not help noticing that although he had been a tall person, they had no trouble getting it in, as if he were becoming smaller. At the same time, an extraodinary display of rainbow-coloured light was seen all around the house. When they looked into the room on the sixth day, they saw that the body was getting smaller and smaller. On the eight day after his death, the morning in which the funeral had been arranged, the undertakers arrived to collect the body. When they undid its coverings, they found nothing inside but his nails and hair.

Those who have mastered the trek-chod phase of Dzogchen in which pure and total presence is stabilized, are able to do to-gal. This is the final Dzogchen practice which enables the yogi at the time of death to dissolve his or her physical body into the essence of the elements.

The above photo was taken (on my cell phone so sorry for the quality) when I was traveling to Cancun, Mexico, which turned out to be one of the most mystical experiences I've had, in the most sublime way (everything ended up being related to the Orion constellation, I wrote about it here). 

While I was riding in the air plane, I kept noticing this rainbow bubble (mid picture to the right) that was following the direction of the plane. It only appeared when we were over a cloudy area. The sun was low on the other side of the airplane so it couldn't have been a reflection or light shining on a reflective spot on the plane. I have completely forgotten about it until now because it reminds me of the rainbow bodies of light illustrated in this picture!: 

It just occurred to me that the old apple logo was a rainbow:

Fundamental Thinking; Reality as a Design

While I take a break from my logo that is apparently due next wednesday not a week from next wednesday (ugh) I'm going to write some reflections based on my thoughts about the whole 2012 fiasco.

I'm not going to go into 'conspiracy theory' all too much but I am going to interpret this significant date according to what I have studied based on design theory and philosophy. Yes.

Its going to be so simple it'll blow your mind away...

All of these thoughts have been cooped up in my head since the release of the 2009 movie, 2012 (which I never saw). In my opinion all these theoretical physicists that talk about 2012 are only getting half of it right and most of it is just BS.

And so we begin ---

In my mind, this reality is a design. And to understand design we must define it. The definition of Design means to intensify an already existing message. If reality is a design, reality must have a message. Design, all types of design, contain a set group of principles that can be applied to -all- design disciplines. Principles such as; unity, contrast, balance, movement, proportion, emphasis, and finally space. But how can the designer apply these principles to Nature (the physical and spiritual)? Very Simply.

The designer must understand the timeless commandment, "And so above and so below and so below, as above." When this is completely accepted and understood it can be transformative. In order to understand the Universe, which I define as One Song (Uni = one, verse = song), we need to understand what it means to be ONE; to be unified, to be unified does not mean to be civilized. In order to be one, we must be divided, and in order to be divided we must be one.

"But that's contradictory," you say.

Exactly. The second principle of the universe (or design) is contrast, otherwise known as dualism. Like I said earlier; in order to be one, we must be divided, and in order to be divided we must be one. 1 cannot exist without 2 since 2 contains opposing (but sometimes attracting) polarities. These opposing polarities when attracted to each other they become a part of the whole. For example, in a work of art, there is often positive space and negative space that make up the whole composition and make it unified.

After reading about how there are only two emotions in existence: fear and love and reading about how energy is consistent and essentially all energy is the same, I had conjured up this equation:

[A+ B-] / [b- a+]

Where [A+ B-] refers to everything in the macro universe and [b- a+] refers to everything in the micro universe. The midsection indicated as ‘ / ’ is where everything commingles.  This equation can be applied to pretty much everything and thus got its name, “The Equation of Life”.

  

[A+ B-] / [b- a+]

can also be written as:

space-time [A+] time-space [B-] / time-space [b-] space-time [a+]

Dark [A+] Light [B-] / light [b-] dark [a+]

Space-time has these characteristics: positive, balls (particles), illusions, dark physicality

Time-space has these characteristics: negative, waves, light and consciousness (infinity).

The dark side [space-time] is visible, charming and appealing, just showing the beauty of the visible universe, only 4% of the universal mass.

The light side [time-space] is harmony. It conducts the nuclear dance of both visible and invisible universes; it is the only force that links them all. It is provoking an invisible alchemy.

So physical reality, the explosive world, would be characterized as [A+ B-]

The spiritual reality, the implosive world, would be characterized as [b- a+]

So let's consider this equation, that was written to help us visualize this world, and apply it to the end of the world scenario. 

First, before we continue, lets discuss movement as that is the next principle of design. The artistic definition of movement is; the arrangement of parts that draws the eye through the composition.

However, to better understand movement as a design principle lets put an addendum; Movement or motion creates the illusion of time and therefore change. The Law of Motion changes not, but all things change in motion. For motion is the force that holds events separate, each in its own proper place.

To put it simply; if we stop time... we end motion, which creates the illusion of time and thus we will propel ourselves into infinity and beyond...

British philosopher, Aleister Crowley stated clearly,  “Man will no longer worship God as an external factor, as in Paganism, or as an internal state of consciousness, as in Christianity, but will realize his identity with God.” Thusly, the end of the world scenario is the end of the dualistic approach to life. The end of the human frontier... because once we become ONE with 'God' we will be unified.

You exist, but at the same time you do not.
You're awake, but at the same time you are not.
God is man. While at the same time Man is God.

So what's the end of duality? The beginning of infinity, of unity, or a complete composition. Instead of a reality containing of harmonic proportions created by duality we will have a monochord, one vibration that will vibrate within all of us.

(to be continued)

Its been awhile since I last thought about this blog post, but almost a year later I had a similar conversation with a -- er colleague -- of mine who studies light, sound and form as well. While procrastinating packing my dorm room up, I ran across an alternative science database that I haven't found before and this article. The article focused on the age-old idea that the earth is flat. I have had written ideas before suggesting that the earth/universe could indeed be flat: Holographic Reality and the World is Flat and the Universe is Flat. Apparently there are a few people out there that still believe that the world is flat.

We got into an interesting discussion about the possibility of the Earth being flat and how it could possibly function as a flat surface.

I posted this link onto my colleague's facebook wall and the conversation began like this:

She commented jokingly, "All photographs of Earth from space are taken with FISH EYE LENSES to TRICK US!!!" 

In all seriousness, I then asked, "No, seriously have you thought about it though?"

She responded, "About a flat Earth? Not with my understanding of physics, which may or may not be faulty. But the Sun is visibly spherical, the moon is spherical, and the planets I've seen through a telescope also have the same light shading as a sphere rather than a disc. I wouldn't consider the Earth to be a special case.

Expanding Earth, that I've considered. "

"But isn't there always a dual option though in this world? What's the opposite of spherical? Flat. If everything is an illusion in this manifest world, things that would appear flat, would be spherical and vice versa, theoretically," I insisted.

She then replied, "I don't really believe the world operates on duality as much as a refracted spectrum of plurality. We could divide numbers as even or odds, but we could also differentiate by multiples of three or fives. I feel it has much more to do with perspective than duality. All illusions are equally false."

And then added, "Can we count a Mobius strip as being flat?"

"It looks like its technically a spiral, so yes," I answered.

Continuing, she said, "I don't know if there's physical evidence to support this, but I still think of the universe as expanding from a central point and collapsing back into itself when its expansion is no longer enough to overcome its gravity."

"Yes. I've seen that in Tibetan art," I said confidently. 

Then I asked, "what if our eyes are natural fish eye lenses?"

She answered, "That's still assuming physical matter is actual rather than perceptual. But we could also be light, shining onto inert information and perceiving it as experience..."

I then asked, "Light shining upon light equals what?"   

"Experience," she said simply.

Then she added, "We could equate light with attention, as we equate darkness with the unseen. There has to be an interaction of some sort for there to be anything to experience."   

"A world between worlds," I said.

 Then she asked, "If we perceive no opposition, interference, interaction, can we perceive otherness or plurality?"

"Are we built to do that? I don't think so, if we could, there would be no division," I responded.

"Light absorption," I then added.

 "That would be the point where illusion refracts as a distortion of reality. We can take a flat sheet of paper and pinch it somewhere, perceiving it as something other than paper, just because it has an apparent shape other than that which surrounds it. It's still the same thing though," she responded.

"Exactly," I said.

Then I added, "If we are beings of light, entering a world of light -- a different kind of light -- we would distort that reality because the present reality of who we are is already light ... the distorted reality is the reality we perceive to be real, as in the world we exist in now."

Continuing, she said, "Holographic apparitions rather than solid, actually separate entities. Perhaps this is why dimensions intersect each other at 90 degree angles. It's just us coming back on ourselves in new ways to experience multiplicity.

So particles are twists of space-time... "  

"Intersections of light. And! If absolute zero is no vibratory motion of any particle, it's because there is no interaction. It would be uninterrupted flatness," she added.

 "Ah ha! Flat," I exclaimed.

  

Then she asked, "We can extend on forever uninterrupted, but projecting requires an other to bounce off of. 0D as a source?" She laughed.

Laughing with her, I responded, "0D would be light though, it has to be."

Thinking out loud, I said, "but things can't bounce off if there is no density to it..."

"It's pretty awesome that we had the same thought train about interrupted light and projections," she said.

Then she asked, "But what -is- light? Consciousness? Beingness? That Which Is or the attention thereof? We seemingly innately equate it with positivity. So that which we see is light and that which we refuse to attend to is dark? I feel like the metaphor works in a literal way, I'm just not sure how."

"Oh shiny!!" I exclaimed.

"Actually, I think "oh shiny" may be the answer to your question," I added.

Pondering, she asked, "How does the light in a holograph work? Bounced off of a reflection?"

"What happens when physical light reflects off a metallic surface? It catches our attention, because  we somehow can relate to it, for whatever reason," I said.

Continuing, she said, "That is precisely why, as I've gotten older, I've become more interested in sparkly sorts of things. Every living thing flourishes with light, and many animals instinctively collect shinies."

Finishing the conversation, I said, "By the way... spirals as expressions of light intersecting with each other? perhaps why they appear -everywhere- in nature?" 

Bad drama is bad

(for those who aren't aware of EVP and RS this may seem confusing and this post is in general for my purposes only)

I'm gonna stop research for awhile.
I was in a really bad internet drama over the weekend and its made me rethink some things.
I was officially banned from the EVP and RS forum because of posting a prediction of the future done by Aleister Crowley and mentioning Aleister Crowley. WHO is a philosopher by the way and not a satanist. The church declared him one... he may have dabbled in black arts, but he was more of a philosopher than anything else.

I posted the following:

“In the Aeon of Horus the dualistic approach to religion will be transcended through the abolition of the present notion of a God external to oneself. The two will be united. “Man will no longer worship God as an external factor, as in Paganism, or as an internal state of consciousness, as in Christianity, but will realize his identity with God.” The new Aeon of Horus, based on the union of the male and female polarities, will involve the magical use of semen and ecstasy, culminating in an apotheosis of matter – “in the realization of the old Gnostic notion that matter is not dual but one with the Spirit” — symbolized by the androgynous Baphomet of the Templars and the Illuminati.”

Basically with RS and EVP they claim that they know what's happening behind the veil (yes in the spirit world). So they believe they are basically speaking to spirits, and such who give them information based on the current situation on earth, and why we are here, etc. and that this information comes from the Universal Mind/God. They basically would take a current event, reverse it and analyze it. I have done a fair share of RSing and do respect its ideals and how its used. And its also been scientifically documented as a true phenomena as well (they don't say that its from the Universal Mind/God but they do state that RS is a legitimate phenomena of speech, that when we reversed recorded speech there will be phrases and recognizable things that we do not hear in forward speech).

And they claim that the apocalypse will be an apotheosis which will reunite man with god as one entity, making man apart of god.

However, the way the forum was administered pissed me off.

First, I'd post lots of work regarding my reversals, mixing some mysticism, and my own interpretations in them. And then I wouldn't get any responses for days on end on my posts from the community and the community would get upset because I just wanted a little feedback/acknowledgement for the work I did, otherwise the way I saw it, why bother doing it if no one is appreciating it??

Secondly, I don't care whether something appears good or evil as I don't personally believe that good and evil exist. I upset a lot of members when I said the Reptillians, the ones who've been causing much of the war and pain here on earth, I said that the Reptillians weren't evil.. because I don't believe in good and evil because in order to be "united" you need Dualism... yes I did just contradict myself, but that's Dualism in action... Its just my way of accepting similarities and differences. Most of the members disagreed with me... they said they were the Epitome of Evil. That they should express hate towards them. I said that in order to heal and move on we should accept the Reptillians for what they've done and forgive them. Sure they've tortured us and done everything they could possibly think of to make our lives terrible and a nightmare to live in. But... producing hate, and expressing it towards any entity doesn't do anything or anyone good. It won't help us heal at all.

That was the first time I think I really affected my reputation there...

In general the mod that banned me said that I was bringing up old drama and BS that they covered a long time ago... well I'm sorry, I don't have time to read the 500 page + archive. Please point me in the right direction where those Reversals are listed, I'll be happy to read them. They never did.

They also said that I appeared "lonely and unstable" in my posts and that my posts made a lot of the members uncomfortable. I apparently also brought stress and other unnecessary behind-the-scene drama that they apparently didn't want to deal with anymore.

I apparently offended the mod who banned me so much that she continued to make assumptions about how I spoke to her in emails.

I may have cussed twice at her because I was upset.
I may have not used proper grammar because I was upset.
And through this she assumed that I:
-Smoked (I don't, I have respiratory problems)
-Took medication (I dont)
and assumed a lot of other things that I obviously don't do just because I didn't use proper grammar and posted BS about our so-called ancient past and such and that I didn't seem to take a hint (well if I'm making a mistake perhaps you should tell me?).

I had only been there for three-four months and that's a relatively new member... to that forum at least

I don't have access to the messages anymore but the way she wrote and treated me in her messages was absolutely disgusting.

I had never been hurt so much by someone from the internet. I usually don't CARE if I get into internet drama. But if it gets personal like this one did, then it starts to hurt.

Because my research is relatively close to me and its something I enjoy doing when I have the time.

That's why I came to EVP and RS because it reflected my research really well.
Well, I guess this is an end of an era... a very short era. I probably won't be doing much RSing now, just because I don't have a community that will look at the work that I've done. But now I do have their insight about the physical world and our purpose here. That's something to take away, definitely.


In my opinion, I have done nothing wrong. The actions of the administrator was unjust and made me completely loose faith in RS and EVP (or at least the information that was being offered, not the phenomena itself).

It just saddens me that it had to end like this.

But its made me rethink my research a bit.
It seems lately, all I've been doing is offending people.
Which isn't getting anywhere with my mission in trying to enlighten people.
I understand that truth is often denied first before it is accepted. But this is getting ridiculous.

I'm pretty much over it now. But a lot of the hurt I think I've been experiencing is from shock.

O, to become a Star

Every little girl (and boy) dreams of becoming a star. To be in the spotlight, to be famous and known for your talent(s) and to be recognized; to have fame and a huge fortune. This all sounds great, especially for life in the physical world. Has it occurred to anyone, however, that the famous are actually a 'top' secret club that is extremely sinister on the inside? Has it ever occurred to you that some of the humanitarian songs and activities that the celebrities do is just for show? To hide the REAL person? Duality is something that everyone should take seriously into consideration; you'll learn that when something SEEMS positive on the outside, may actually be extremely sinister on the inside. Its also called the concept of balance, the asymmetrical built of the Universe... and the best example of all of this is the Sirius constellation.

May 23, 2011 I wrote about the connection of the Sirius mystery to Human history. Which goes into detail about the symbolism regarding this star and its appearance in our society. The biggest piece of information to be learnt about this constellation is that it contains a companion star, Sirius Star A and Sirius Star B:

The triangle is a highly symbolic symbol in today's society and the Sirius Star located around it/in the middle may in fact be the origin of the "All-Seeing Eye" or the Eye of Horus:

On the US seal, the Eye is surrounded by the words Annuit Cœptis, meaning "He approves (or has approved) [our] undertakings", and Novus Ordo Seclorum, meaning "New Order of the Ages". The Eye is positioned above an unfinished pyramid with thirteen steps, representing the original thirteen states and the future growth of the country. The lowest level of the pyramid shows the year 1776 in Roman numerals. The combined implication is that the Eye, or God, favors the prosperity of the United States. Novus Ordo Seclorum is actually from a prophecy.

"Novus Ordo Seclorum is a quotation from the 4th Ecolque and was borrowed in turn by Virgil from the mystic Sibylline records." - Charles A.L. Totten ‎

"A mighty order of ages is born anew. Both the prophetic Virgin and Saturnian kingdoms now return. Now a new progeny is let down from the lofty heavens... The Boy soon to be born in whom the iron age shall come to an end, and the golden one shall arise again in the whole earth." ‎

"Whatso tracks remain of our old wickedness, once done away, shall free the earth from never-ceasing fear. He shall receive the life of gods, and see heroes with gods commingling, and himself be seen of them." 

"And with his father's worth reign o'er a world at peace."

The Age of Horus was predicted by Aleister Crowley, an occult practitioner, who had been extremely influential to the music industry:

the Aeon of Horus the dualistic approach to religion will be transcended through the abolition of the present notion of a God external to oneself. The two will be united. “Man will no longer worship God as an external factor, as in Paganism, or as an internal state of consciousness, as in Christianity, but will realize his identity with God.” The new Aeon of Horus, based on the union of the male and female polarities, will involve the magical use of semen and ecstasy, culminating in an apotheosis of matter – “in the realization of the old Gnostic notion that matter is not dual but one with the Spirit” — symbolized by the androgynous Baphomet of the Templars and the Illuminati.

My thoughts of the Illuminati and BS that's been going around: I understand why everything about them seems mysterious, wrong, and sinister. Just plain evil, etc. But how can we assume that they are? What if they created that image of themselves just to deceive us even more? You can't be certain that this group is evil... just because they are doing things out of the norm they aren't evil. What if they are preparing us for the BIG event that will happen in the future? What if they will become our teachers?

Just because the Illuminati make themselves appear evil because they are breaking down our society as we know it to form a One World Government...  doesn't mean they are. We are used to the current world and anyone going against it is deemed "evil"...

No one is certain that they are evil, and yes sometimes the imagery and symbolism may be evil, but like all Duality, whatever appears EVIL may actually be GOOD and whatever APPEARS to be GOOD may actually be EVIL.

Duality is huge in my life, my clairvoyance is based off of it... like whatever appears in my mind as the total and final outcome of something... it ends up as the complete opposite even if my gut and intuition says so...

Like for example, over the summer I was trying to take out the air conditioner at my summer house and it fell out of the window. I got injured pretty badly, and didn't even notice until I was outside. I was balling my eyes out and all I could think of was the air conditioner on the ground in pieces... but as soon as I turned around the corner, it wasn't. It was lying a on pile of dead leaves, protected.

Just because something goes through your mind and that you are absolutely sure of it, doesn't mean that it is true. Just because the symbolisms that we see in society may be evil, their Ultimate meanings may actually not be what we think they are.

“Had! The manifestation of Nuit.

The unveiling of the company of heaven.

Every man and woman is a star.

Every number is infinite; there is no difference.

Help me, o warrior lord of Thebes, in my unveiling before the Children of men!” 

 - The opening lines of the Book of the Law

I do beLIEve that evil exists but at the same time (a big surprise here) I don't. Because of the concept of Duality.... in order to be ONE you need TWO.

Jesus said in the Gospel of Thomas; "On the day when you were one, you became two. But when you become two, what will you do?" 


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