The Universe is Flat

This post is in response to an old post on symbology in Tibetan art for a holographic reality.
For aeons philosophers and scientists have debated what the physical shape of the universe is. Just recently on Universetoday a journalist reported that researchers and scientists have finally declared that the Universe is flat. Say what?

Various universe evolution scenarios. A universe with too much density collapses in on itself, a critical density universe stays static, while a universe with not enough density keeps expanding at a steady (coasting) rate. However, today's cosmology puts emphasis upon the cosmological constant, which gives an accelerating expansion. Does this mean that density is irrelevant? Credit: NASA.

Tibetan mandala depicting "Mount Meru" the object that in Tibetan mythology said to have created the universe.

"A remarkable finding of the early 21st century, that kind of sits alongside the Nobel prize winning discovery of the universe’s accelerating expansion, is the finding that the universe is geometrically flat. This is a remarkable and unexpected feature of a universe that is expanding – let alone one that is expanding at an accelerated rate – and like the accelerating expansion, it is a key feature of our current standard model of the universe.

It may be that the flatness is just a consequence of the accelerating expansion – but to date this cannot be stated conclusively."

Source: http://www.universetoday.com/89912/astronomy-without-a-telescope-flat-universe/


Metaphysics teaches us that all things that contain an electromagnetic field or magnetic field will be torodial in shape. This applies to the human, the earth and they teach also the universe...

So if the universe is flat, that must mean its obviously not torodial, and obviously not electromagnetic/mechanical as the physicists have always thought it must be. But... how can 3 dimensional objects exist in a geometrically flat universe?

The above image is taken from The Scientific Indian blog. The author, Selva, posted how he was questioned about the connectedness of this world through synchronicity. He connected how the Belousov-Zhabontinsky reaction looked like a CMB picture of the universe. Explain that! BZ reactions are typically known for their formations of archimedes spirals which are said to be waves of information rather than mechanical.

 Do we live in a universe that communicates more through information transmissions/transactions than through mechanical motions?

Bad drama is bad

(for those who aren't aware of EVP and RS this may seem confusing and this post is in general for my purposes only)

I'm gonna stop research for awhile.
I was in a really bad internet drama over the weekend and its made me rethink some things.
I was officially banned from the EVP and RS forum because of posting a prediction of the future done by Aleister Crowley and mentioning Aleister Crowley. WHO is a philosopher by the way and not a satanist. The church declared him one... he may have dabbled in black arts, but he was more of a philosopher than anything else.

I posted the following:

“In the Aeon of Horus the dualistic approach to religion will be transcended through the abolition of the present notion of a God external to oneself. The two will be united. “Man will no longer worship God as an external factor, as in Paganism, or as an internal state of consciousness, as in Christianity, but will realize his identity with God.” The new Aeon of Horus, based on the union of the male and female polarities, will involve the magical use of semen and ecstasy, culminating in an apotheosis of matter – “in the realization of the old Gnostic notion that matter is not dual but one with the Spirit” — symbolized by the androgynous Baphomet of the Templars and the Illuminati.”

Basically with RS and EVP they claim that they know what's happening behind the veil (yes in the spirit world). So they believe they are basically speaking to spirits, and such who give them information based on the current situation on earth, and why we are here, etc. and that this information comes from the Universal Mind/God. They basically would take a current event, reverse it and analyze it. I have done a fair share of RSing and do respect its ideals and how its used. And its also been scientifically documented as a true phenomena as well (they don't say that its from the Universal Mind/God but they do state that RS is a legitimate phenomena of speech, that when we reversed recorded speech there will be phrases and recognizable things that we do not hear in forward speech).

And they claim that the apocalypse will be an apotheosis which will reunite man with god as one entity, making man apart of god.

However, the way the forum was administered pissed me off.

First, I'd post lots of work regarding my reversals, mixing some mysticism, and my own interpretations in them. And then I wouldn't get any responses for days on end on my posts from the community and the community would get upset because I just wanted a little feedback/acknowledgement for the work I did, otherwise the way I saw it, why bother doing it if no one is appreciating it??

Secondly, I don't care whether something appears good or evil as I don't personally believe that good and evil exist. I upset a lot of members when I said the Reptillians, the ones who've been causing much of the war and pain here on earth, I said that the Reptillians weren't evil.. because I don't believe in good and evil because in order to be "united" you need Dualism... yes I did just contradict myself, but that's Dualism in action... Its just my way of accepting similarities and differences. Most of the members disagreed with me... they said they were the Epitome of Evil. That they should express hate towards them. I said that in order to heal and move on we should accept the Reptillians for what they've done and forgive them. Sure they've tortured us and done everything they could possibly think of to make our lives terrible and a nightmare to live in. But... producing hate, and expressing it towards any entity doesn't do anything or anyone good. It won't help us heal at all.

That was the first time I think I really affected my reputation there...

In general the mod that banned me said that I was bringing up old drama and BS that they covered a long time ago... well I'm sorry, I don't have time to read the 500 page + archive. Please point me in the right direction where those Reversals are listed, I'll be happy to read them. They never did.

They also said that I appeared "lonely and unstable" in my posts and that my posts made a lot of the members uncomfortable. I apparently also brought stress and other unnecessary behind-the-scene drama that they apparently didn't want to deal with anymore.

I apparently offended the mod who banned me so much that she continued to make assumptions about how I spoke to her in emails.

I may have cussed twice at her because I was upset.
I may have not used proper grammar because I was upset.
And through this she assumed that I:
-Smoked (I don't, I have respiratory problems)
-Took medication (I dont)
and assumed a lot of other things that I obviously don't do just because I didn't use proper grammar and posted BS about our so-called ancient past and such and that I didn't seem to take a hint (well if I'm making a mistake perhaps you should tell me?).

I had only been there for three-four months and that's a relatively new member... to that forum at least

I don't have access to the messages anymore but the way she wrote and treated me in her messages was absolutely disgusting.

I had never been hurt so much by someone from the internet. I usually don't CARE if I get into internet drama. But if it gets personal like this one did, then it starts to hurt.

Because my research is relatively close to me and its something I enjoy doing when I have the time.

That's why I came to EVP and RS because it reflected my research really well.
Well, I guess this is an end of an era... a very short era. I probably won't be doing much RSing now, just because I don't have a community that will look at the work that I've done. But now I do have their insight about the physical world and our purpose here. That's something to take away, definitely.


In my opinion, I have done nothing wrong. The actions of the administrator was unjust and made me completely loose faith in RS and EVP (or at least the information that was being offered, not the phenomena itself).

It just saddens me that it had to end like this.

But its made me rethink my research a bit.
It seems lately, all I've been doing is offending people.
Which isn't getting anywhere with my mission in trying to enlighten people.
I understand that truth is often denied first before it is accepted. But this is getting ridiculous.

I'm pretty much over it now. But a lot of the hurt I think I've been experiencing is from shock.

I was watching Mulan last night and I realized how similar that story line is to my life. I have been a bit down lately because I'm realizing that I don't really have a place yet. I know I'm just finishing up college, but I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. Tonight I was watching the interview Google conducted of Lady Gaga and she is so inspiring. She's four years older than I am and has accomplished so much. Clearly she knows Music and Visual Art.. but what am I to do? Graphic Design comes to me so naturally that I don't see it as a talent... sure I may be good at what I do, but its comes from years of paying attention to visual details and playing around with graphics since age 11. I got all the beginner stage stuff out of my system then, and since then progressed since then. I like graphic design, but I feel like its not going to be what I want to do for the rest of my life. I feel like its something to support me, not to define me as an artist.

I'm still struggling to find that spot, that defines me as an artist.

I have played flute since the 3rd grade and stopped my freshman year of college because I felt I wasn't up to par with the music department here and felt that music was more of a hobby than what I wanted to do with my life. I took up the harp Sophomore year because it was an instrument rarely played and thought it would define me more as musician.

Because of my disability any other test-orientated subject was beyond my abilities and motivation. I didn't want to spend my college days studying and being cooped up in my room or the library which would have been the case in order to pass anything. I wanted to enjoy college which is why I went with graphic design (even though graphic design coops me up too, I hope you get the point...).

I just feel like in my second to last semester of college I should be more defined as an artist. I know that I do like science, spirituality and its influences on art... but how am I supposed to use that? How am I suppose to illuminate and enlighten the world in that combination when those two things together are extremely controversial?

And controversy confuses the shit out of people, and while life is meant to be confusing, its not something I want when people view my work.

Then the other person I am inspired by is Doe Deere , whom I have met... She is another person who puts on a persona just like Gaga as Mother Monster. Maybe that's what I'm ought to do, is to build a persona?

But again that very idea of building a persona confuses people because it shows that you're trying to hide your own identity as if you are afraid of it, but in Gaga's case, she makes her "monster" persona apart of herself, its her 24/7. Whereas maybe Doe Deere appears to only show her persona when she updates... i don't know, when I met her she was a different person than when she is now...

I have always dreamed of building fantasy worlds in an open warehouse, I suppose set design would be the ideal term, and Lori Nix is a favorite inspiration for that... but that tends to get expensive.

I suppose everything will come in Time..

If my parents ask me what I want as a graduation present, I think I may suggest this:

Desert Elephant Project from £675 (2 weeks)
Namib Desert, NamibiaRef: AV039
The Desert Elephant project takes volunteers out to the north west region of the Namib Desert, Damaraland, one of the most scenic wilderness areas of Namibia which runs parallel to the Skeleton Coast National Park and is home to a small population of desert elephants. The project started in 2001 in response to increased competition between the desert elephants and the human inhabitants of the region for the natural resources of water and grazing. A depletion in the natural water table and increased human use has led to less water being available for the elephants. Water points have been created close to river beds and as farms are generally located close to these water sources, much damage has been done to buildings, livestock and even humans by the elephants in their search for fresh water. Volunteers help to address the conflict between these rural communities and the desert elephant with solutions that allow them to coexist peacefully. The long term welfare of these fantastic animals is addressed through safeguarding farmers water supplies, building new water points for the elephants, educating the local community and valuable elephant herd research. Volunteers will spend their time getting close to nature in stunning surroundings camping out under the stars. A very popular project appealing to volunteers wanting a truly wilderness adventure - and early booking is recommended.

Sourcel

Elephants are my absolute favorite animal. I feel like its about time to spend quality time with them :-)

President Obama's logo and the Egyptian Connection

The right is a hieroglyph found in an Egyptian pyramid representing 2012 - change for the greater good. The left is the famous obama logo.



The above image is Atum the Jesus/Lord/Sun/Son beams Aton-like rays of light... Qabbalah says that Atum is,

The atom symbol formed by Thoth is another Egyptian god called Atum. Atum … spelled A T U M … was called the complete one. The finisher of the earth. Atum was the one who returned to the watery chaos at the end of the creative cycle. Remember this characteristic about Atum. He’s the one who returns to watery chaos at the end of the creative cycle.

"That looks like me, look at those ears!" - President Obama. Obama in an Egyptian Hieroglyph found in one of the pyramids.



Some people believe that President Obama is the reincarnation of King Akhenaton.

Akhenaten (often alt: Akhnaten, or rarely Ikhnaton) meaning 'Effective spirit of Aten', first known as Amenhotep IV (sometimes read as Amenophis IV and meaning 'Amun is Satisfied') before his first year (died 1336 BC or 1334 BC), was a Pharaoh of the Eighteenth dynasty of Egypt. He is especially noted for attempting to compel the Egyptian population in the monotheistic worship of Aten, although there are doubts as to how successful he was at this.

And of course Michelle Obama is King Akhenaten's Queen, Nefertiti.

Holographic Reality and the World is Flat

In 1982 Alain Aspect and his team discovered that no matter how far two particles are apart, they always knew what the other was doing. David Bohm explains that this is because the particles aren't sending communication signals back and forth but instead they are energetically connected. Being energetically connected would correlate to the fifth element known in ancient philosophies and "pagan" religions.

To understand why Bohm makes this startling assertion, one must first understand a little about holograms. A hologram is a three- dimensional photograph made with the aid of a laser.

To make a hologram, the object to be photographed is first bathed in the light of a laser beam. Then a second laser beam is bounced off the reflected light of the first and the resulting interference pattern (the area where the two laser beams commingle) is captured on film.

When the film is developed, it looks like a meaningless swirl of light and dark lines. But as soon as the developed film is illuminated by another laser beam, a three-dimensional image of the original object appears.

Qabbalah states that the Son of God, RA, or RAY, who is Jesus, the Light of the World. One night I had a bit of an epiphany and realized that Jesus may literally be the physical universe itself. The body of Christ, c(h)rystallized matter.


Genesis and Evolution of Solar System, Rosicrucian Cosmo-Conception;

To the Rosicrucians, as to any occult school, there is no such thing as empty or void space. To them space is Spirit in its attenuated form; while matter is crystallized space or Spirit. Spirit in manifestation is dual; that which we see as Form is the negative manifestation of Spirit – crystallized and inert. The positive pole of Spirit manifests as Life, galvanizing the negative Form into action, but both Life and Form originated in Spirit, Space, Chaos!

Since there needed to be film to create the physical world I wondered if there is any ancient references to something that describes film. It dawned on me that film is flat, and the ancients referred to the world as being flat. What if their perception of the world went way beyond the physical plane of reality, in a realm of perfection and transcendence?

Scientific American August 2003

...An astonishing theory called the holographic principle holds that the universe is like a hologram: just as a trick of light allows a fully three-dimensional image to be recorded on a flat piece of film, our seemingly three-dimensional universe could be completely equivalent to alternative quantum fields and physical laws "painted" on a distant, vast surface.

After mulling over my mythology notes I came upon Tibetan buddhism and Mount Meru;

In the mythology of Tibetan Buddhism, Mount Meru is a place which simultaneously represents the center of the universe and the single-pointedness of mind sought by adepts. Thousands of miles in height, Meru is located somewhere beyond the physical plane of reality, in a realm of perfection and transcendence. Symbolic representations of Mount Meru are commonly found in Tibetan mandalas, contemplative diagrams designed to aid meditators in focusing.

I wondered if a Mt. Meru was an archetype for simply how the light was projected.



Artistic perspective drawing


I was immediately blown away by the similarities between the Tibetan mandala (second image) and the holographic project below:





Here is another Mt. Meru mandala. Take a look at that summit projecting!!

You know when the world is ending when...

...when there is a high chance of a Government Shutdown! And its supposed to be tomorrow!
April 8th! When I'm in NYC, one of the most sinister places... can my life be any more co-incidental?! Also interesting to know 8 is the qabbalistic number of total control.

As a result, the government closed 368 National Park Service sites, along with national museums and monuments, according to a Congressional Research Service report.

MOMA isn't national is it? I don't think so.

As Stewie Griffin tweeted, "Good News, #Weed is automatically legal."

Other speculations are on the rise from Hp fans, "#ifgovernmentshutsdown, Ministry of Magic will take over the Muggle world.”

Second Earthquake in Japan aligning with the United States Government shutdown interesting timing, don't you think?

A second tsunami came ashore in the city of Sendai in Miyagi prefecture, close to the epicenter of the massive 8.9 quake that hit the area on Friday.

Oh you know what else is interesting? The royal wedding also happens on a Friday:

The Royal wedding is fast approaching when Prince William and Kate Middleton will celebrate their wedding on Friday 29th April, 11a.m. at Westminster Abbey

Just realized that my sororities formal is also on Friday 29th...

FRIDAY, WE WE WE SO EXCITED. BECAME VIRAL ON FRIDAY APRIL 1st.

David Wilcock, someone who I have been following for a while now to get the latest info on what really is happening in the world states this...

The final 'endgame' plan of the insiders, as I understand it, is to hit the US with a massive earthquake along the New Madrid fault line during the same approximate time that the government goes into shutdown.

The New Madrid line is the line that is closest to New England, its the beginning of Central united states but can affect New York and Boston through after shocks.



Although in our area, Pennsylvania, New York, Boston is the Rampo fault. Its been speculated that Nikola Tesla has experimented with Earthquake machines and that when he died, the United Sates government came and raided his laboratory.

Telegram, July 11, 1935 -

Nikola Tesla revealed that an earthquake which drew police and ambulances to the region of his laboratory at 48 E. Houston St., New York, in 1898, was the result of a little machine he was experimenting with at the time which "you could put in your overcoat pocket."

The bewildered newspapermen pounced upon this as at least one thing they could understand and "the father of modern electricity" told what had happened as follows:

"I was experimenting with vibrations. I had one of my machines going and I wanted to see if I could get it in tune with the vibration of the building. I put it up notch after notch. There was a peculiar cracking sound.

"I asked my assistants where did the sound come from. They did not know. I put the machine up a few more notches. There was a louder cracking sound. I knew I was approaching the vibration of the steel building. I pushed the machine a little higher. "Suddenly all the heavy machinery in the place was flying around. I grabbed a hammer and broke the machine. The building would have been about our ears in another few minutes. Outside in the street there was pandemonium.

"The police and ambulances arrived. I told my assistants to say nothing. We told the police it must have been an earthquake. That's all they ever knew about it."

Some shrewd reporter asked Dr. Tesla at this point what he would need to destroy the Empire State Building and the doctor replied: "Vibration will do anything. It would only be necessary to step up the vibrations of the machine to fit the natural vibration of the building and the building would come crashing down. That's why soldiers break step crossing a bridge."

And now its known that HAARP (High Frequency Active Auroral Research Program) that they have these technologies and have been targeting places like Japan, Haiti, etc for "research".



From UFO-Blogger, here is a pretty good article on HAARP.

Geocentric Galaxy

Pyramid on Mars


Mainstream archeologists say that the Egyptian pyramids were tombs. But contrary to that belief the Order of the Rosae Croix, a mystery school that was created by the Pharaohs of Egypt state that the Pyramids were created by Thought, or the Egyptian God Thoth. Thought is the Egyptian god THOTH, the creator of almost every activity known to man. Thought is spelled T H O T H. This god is responsible for the alphabet, writing, speaking, the sciences, religion, … you name it, and Thoth is responsible for it. Thoth's priests claimed Thoth was the Demi-Urge who created everything from sound. According to the Freemasons the Pyramids were tools of creation. What if we propose that the pyramids were responsible for the galaxy?


Research has been done investigating that the Egyptian pyramids were some kind of power plant.... thus illustrated as above. Though what came to mind about the angle of the beam was the angle of a beam coming out of a black hole:

Situations, I'm tired of 'em

The theme for this whole semester is "SITUATIONS".
I am tired of 'em. But my cards reveal that there will be another one next month that I should be paying attention to.

I drew the four of coins, ace of coins and four of cups. Relatively good cards, a new business project that should show itself and a union (expressed in the four of cups). The four of coins expresses a situation in which either myself or someone else will turn their back on it. Not good necessarily. There's not enough information available to decipher anything as of yet...

January was the situation with our resident whore... in which the members of our suite decided to take action, and then she eventually blamed the whole situation on myself and Amy (the people who lived next to her).

February was the situation with the honors posters, and Ren. One of the honors students gave me a hissy fit about them having to pick up their own posters and THEN complained that I showed Anne our conversation we had on the honors students' wall on Facebook (this was public btw). Seriously. -sigh-

March was the situation where my would-be-little decided to not join Gamma Sigma Sigma the last minute. After I had spent hours making her shirt and her plaque she just decided to not join and then one of my other littles was oh-so-worried about what I was going to do with the stuff I made my would-be-little. That situation was totally a wheel of fortune upside down in which I interpreted as, "life seems to be great (life being the wheel) and then the axle breaks down (the querant)." That night was very hard to be at because a lot of the activities we did had to do with our littles and mine was suddenly not there...

Then we have April, and the would be situation, we'll see what it brings. There's not enough in the air right now to really tell what its' pointing to.

Perhaps its pointing to the new business project or the union, or both. We'll see.

Gog and Magog

The Legend of the Gog and Magog have been on my mind a bit lately, I don't know why so I decided to do a bit of research and see what peoples' thoughts are and possibly the connection to today's world, and this is what I have found. Did George W Bush invade Iraq because of Gog and Magog?

"I come from the great abyss!" Rev, a Magog, from the Andromeda TV series.




The Legend of Gog and Magog according to the Qur'ran states:

But there is a ban on a town which We have destroyed: that they (the people of the town) shall not return. Until the Gog and Magog are let through (their barrier), and they spread out from every direction.(Qur'an 21:96–97)

According to Islamic tradition (in Saḥīḥ al-Bukhāri), Gog and Magog are "Sons of Adam", i.e. human beings, who would be released when a people return to a town which was destroyed and from which they were banned.



As told in one Sumerian legend of Enoch, Hiburu is Sumerian for Hebrew, therefore the Jewish tradition is told by the Sumerian perspective.


"Woe to thee, land of Gog and Magog, situated in the midst of Aethiopian rivers" -- Sib. Or. III, 393-4


These hideous creatures appear to be based off the 'biblical' character Gog of the Magog homeland...



If the real Gog and Magog are anything like the Tolkien's Lord of the Rings Orc I am not surprised then, that they called it the War on Terror!

Something else to consider the Al-Qaeda. Al-Qaeda (pronounced /ælˈkaɪdə/ al-KY-də or /ælˈkeɪdə/ al-KAY-də; Arabic: القاعدة‎, al-qāʿidah, "the base"), alternatively spelled al-Qaida and sometimes al-Qa'ida, is a militant Islamist group founded sometime between August 1988 and late 1989. It operates as a network comprising both a multinational, stateless army and a radical Sunni Muslim movement calling for global Jihad. We haven't found them, yet we hear about them all the time. They are a big part of the War on Terror:

Further studies have identified the overall current region named Baluchistan as the old Magog/Gitya, and it is actually divided today between three countries: Iran, Pakistan and Afghanistan. In western Pakistan, there’s also a province names Baluchistan, next to the Iranian Baluchistan. They have also concluded that Gog, is not from Magog, but that Gog and Magog are 2 different nations, and that there will be a war between the 2 of them.

***It looks like Gog is from Turkey and Magog is from Iran/Pakistan/Afganistan. There may be a battle still between Sunni and Shiite Muslims or regions over whose leader will be their final Mahdi. The winner takes the territory over. There is a passage in Daniel 7 where it describes the “little horn” taking over 3 regions. Maybe if there is a battle between Gog and Magog, it is related to the battle waged by the little horn. If so, then the players (Gog and Magog) will be better identified.

Gog is the president of one of the nations, whom Rabbenu Saadia Gaon compared to the Moslem Caliph in his days, because Gog will also rule many peoples. Gogana used to be the name of a port city on the Persian Gulf, which is today called Bandar-e Kangan, in Iran. Therefore Gog, in this view, represents Iran, and Magog represents the Baluchistan regions of Iran, Pakistan and Afghanistan. Magog, in this viewpoint, covers the territory that al Qaeda occupies.

In the Book of Ezekiel (Ezekiel 38:2–3) Gog appears as a foreign prince and Magog as his land (the phrase "son of man" refers to Ezekiel):

Son of man, direct your face towards Gog, of the land of Magog, the prince, leader of Meshech and Tubal, and prophesy concerning him. Say: Thus said the Lord: Behold, I am against you, Gog, the prince, leader[7] of Meshech and Tubal.[8]

From the Andromeda Wiki:

The Magog is a name given to a race of bipedal, furred sentient beings by members of the Systems Commonwealth. Thus, it is an exonym, the race calls themselves "Harvengers of the Abyss."

While the Magog did not themselves destroy the Commonwealth, they certainly gorged themselves in feasting on its remains. Since their catastrophic attacks in the waning days of the Nietzschean uprising, the Magog have roamed through the Known Worlds nearly unchecked, launching devastating raids against populated worlds only to retreat again, leaving devastation in their wake. Thus far, no political or military entity has been strong enough to check their depredations, though the worlds of the Than Hegemony and more powerful Nietzschean Prides stay relatively safe. But despite causing widespread death and destruction, the Magog have not expanded their former range in a concerted fashion, aside from turning a handful of former Commonwealth territories such as Double Happiness, Dyhedra, and Zinn's World into breeding worlds. For their own mysterious reasons, the Magog largely prefer to live on their own planets in the former Quarantine Zone. The other significant change since the Commonwealth's fall has been the conversion of some Magog, namely Reverend Behemeial Fartraveler(aka Rev Bem) to the new religion of Wayism (see People of the Way). Unfortunately, Wayism's tenets of peace and cooperation have only appealed to a tiny minority of Magog, while vast majority remain as violent and bloodthirsty as ever. Over a billion Magog on the breeding world of Dyhedra were recently killed when their solar system was nova bombed by their former victims, a group of child warriors living on a nearby abandoned High Guard space station. The station has since become a protectorate of the restored Systems Commonwealth, with the governments of Xinti and Castalia helping rehabilitate the station and its inhabitants. http://andromeda.wikia.com/wiki/Magog

Reference: http://heavenawaits.wordpress.com/how-does-gog-and-magog-relate-to-armageddon/

Blahh

I know I already wrote a post, but I need to get some more stuff off.

I am so tired of school.. SO tired of it.
I was deemed capable of being a graphic designer in sophomore year.
Junior year has taught me that I am even more capable.

Second semester of junior year, I'm sitting here thinking...

Otayyyy can I haz job nao?

I saw a job available at the MFA for a Research Associate in Egyptian art, I know enough about Egyptology to be majoring in it. I wish Moravian had Egyptology. I want to apply, bad.

I am so bored. Of everything.
I do the research I do because I'm bored.

I need to be entertained and not the mindless entertaining by playing video games, watching movies, having house parties, that kinda normal stuff bored college students do.

Pfft.

But I feel so restricted.

The way I see it, I don't think my parents understand what it means to be a creative person.

To have ideas flowing through your head ALL THE TIME.

ALL THE TIME.

I want to make stuff all the time.

I want to push my ideas forward, but I'm too damn laid back to do anything about it.

I can't just sit here and not do anything. I have potential, just don't know where to release it.

And of course battling the never ending inner battles of being an extrovert/introvert.

#suchislife

@_@

Hooray for spring break! I can finally make a post.

hectic week..

Finishing up honors poster project, getting payment info together and stuff, was busy with that for most the week, making sure everything is O.K.

Saw Mirko Ilic on Wednesday. He was interesting, though I already saw the pepsi logo lecture over christmas break. Was gonna send it Anne actually, but totally slipped my mind.

The esoteric influence of the golden spiral, gravity, etc on the logo was interesting I thought, since it's kind related to what I see in design. As a 'mystic' I enjoy the mystical and esoteric side of things.

The thing he left out though was that Pepsi was trying to portray the Pepsi franchise, the Pepsi Universe, and therefore that's why they used the golden spiral, gravity, etc.

I was really happy to hear that people need to just sit and think creatively. Really, that's what I do, I sit and think. I research what comes to mind. I research my wonderings and I wonder a lot.

A lot.
How can you be an artist and not wonder.
Wondering how nature builds herself through chemistry, particle physics, quantum physics, electrodynamics physics, etc. hyper-dimensional physics...
Wondering how we can dissect this splendidly detailed hologram we swim in.
Wondering how we can penetrate this splendidly detailed hologram we swim in.

Bruce Nauman, a 3d artist of Neon signs stated, "The True Artist Helps the World by Revealing Mystic Truths."

I agree.