Artwork and Research of Kristi Beisecker

Skoolies

2012-03-10T00:12:00.000-05:00

Apparently there's a fad/hobby out there where people convert old school buses into RV homes. They call them "Skoolies". I've talked about converting an american trolley into a vardo like wagon in the past. And that's one of the main projects I'm going to work on once I graduate and finally get a job. I've been looking for a quiet place to place a studio but they are all too expensive for my use, especially if I don't use them all the time. If I converted something into a useable mobile studio I wouldn't have to bother with leases and I'll be able to take it anywhere in the world with me.

A typical artist's studio isn't suited for my needs either. Typically there's no internet and sometimes no electricity both crucial for my field.

I've seen trolley's being priced from anywhere between $20k-$30k that's much more affordable than say a $150k+ studio that I may only use 1/3 of the year. Plus the customization. I can customize accordingly to what I NEED rather than make do with what is given to me. This is my work place, and if you can't tell what kind of personality I have already, what I do is a big part of my life because I enjoy it. I don't consider it work.

I also plan on using recycled materials, which will cut the cost down. I've done woodworking before so I'm pretty comfortable sprucing up some used wood (IE wood from palettes).

We'll see what happens, but I really do want to start this project within 5 years after graduation.

Greenerprinter

2012-03-09T21:27:00.002-05:00

Well. I found my printer. I was reading the monthly package design magazine that I get and one of the articles in there talked about a food product that had completely edible packaging to help reduce waste. Once you eat the food product you can eat the packaging as well! I read that they used vegetable based inks and was intrigued by the idea.

I wanted to see if I could find a printer that would print in a traditional fashion but used recycled paper and vegetable inks instead. I found GreenerPrinter! I requested paper samples and I think I may eventually get my business cards from them as they do die cutting as well. I'm all for promoting sustainability in my design work so I'm more than willing to pay a little extra. Also if more people notice that its recycled paper + vegetable inks they may be more inclined to use them as well.

Here's their mission statement:

Greenerprinter's mission is to demonstrate that a manufacturing business can operate in harmony with the planet while providing a transparent and sustainable environment.
Our team believes in the triple bottom line: People, planet and profit. Profit is not the motive, but the means to the end. We recognize that we have responsibility to be a part of the solution to the many environmental challenges that we all face.
We see the road to sustainable manufacturing as a long journey with multiple permutations, but we will never deviate from our commitment to the environment, our employees, our customers and pursuit of a harmonious business model for others to follow.

You can read more about our ongoing efforts toward sustainability in our sustainability policy. Some of the specific steps that we are taking include:

Offering recycled paper. We stock only papers that contain a high percentage of recycled content. In fact, most are 100% recycled.
Using soy and vegetable-based inks, low in Volatile Organic Compounds.
Operating as a carbon-neutral business via carbon offsets of shipping emissions and investments of Renewable Energy Credits to offset emissions from operations.
Investing in state-of-the art equipment to minimize waste in the printing process.
Using technology to implement streamlined operations that optimize efficiency.
Minimizing chemical use in the platemaking and printing processes.
Doing all of our printing on-site, which enables us to maintain consistency and quality and closely monitor our environmental impact.
Supporting the green movement as a whole by partnering with organizations that promote the transition to a green economy, such as the Green Festivals, Bioneers, West Coast Green, and the Sustainable Industries Economic Forums.
We are also proud of the awards and recognition our green practices have earned us, such as Adobe's Customer Showcase and the Acterra Business Environmental Award. We are based in Berkeley, California and have more than 20 years experience.

Kirlian Photography

2012-03-01T23:29:00.002-05:00

For my Alternative Photography class I am doing Kirlian Photography which is essentially photograms made with electricity instead of the nuclear energy of the sun. The above is my absolutely favorite photo of the bunch that I did recently. The effect really should be done in color on a Polaroid but those are expensive and hard to find, so I used what I had which was traditional black and white. While at my station one day I realized that photograms are really no different than arranging text and images in a photoshop document. Instead of using text and images I am using life and light to design an image.

Honors Posters

2012-02-24T15:59:00.001-05:00

As part of project manager for studio south I had to make sure 20 something posters were printed and designed within a month. Last year we got about 27 posters in a span of five days and was so disorganized I didn't know anyone's skills so I had to do most of them to make sure the students' got them. This year we got a bit more organized and was a lot less stressful. It was rough at the end as one of the designers claimed they didn't get the schedule of dates for the project... and threw the poster together last minute. Above is the poster I did, sorry it the picture is a bit blurry I took it with my ipod. :-)

Zombie Crawl '10

2012-02-20T22:36:00.003-05:00

I love this picture and all of its sillyness. Zombie Crawl '10. Taken by Yours Truly.

Phew!

2012-02-19T22:26:00.001-05:00

Well I might be able to get some kind of a break soon. But considering I'm taking 2 photography classes, my available time is very limited these days. The epic honors poster project is over and completed with very little hassle this year. There was some drama but it has been put to rest. Phew!

In my historic photo processes 2 class (or as the department says, Alternative Photography 1) I am doing two processes. The kirlian process that uses high voltage to photograph the energetic pattern of an object and anthotypes that use the chlorophyll in plants to make an image. The anthotypes I might end up doing towards the end of the semester just because it needs live material to make it work and its winter right now.

My other photography class is just an intro to traditional black and white photography. Its been going well so far just been a bit frustrating getting the focus right.

I haven't really had all too much time to do a whole lot of new research but I have been conceptualizing about a huge project I've been dreaming about for months. This project I am serious about doing and hope to work on once I graduate in my free time. One of the things I loved about learning in college was learning the processes and thinking behind projects we do here. As a kid my projects never turned out the way I imagined because I never had a good process for them. I also love that I see Design principles in every day life. It makes it easy for me to connect what I am learning in college to things in every day life.

Last evening I was in the graphics lab finishing up honors and I was looking on my external hard drive for photos for my historic processes class and I found an old document on the Sumerian language stored on there. Don't ask me where I found this. Probably in on of my research expeditions. But, boy, is the Sumerian language complex. Every letter and vowel is an actual word or phrase in the language, differentiated by an accent to mean something else entirely! Yikes. But I learned how to say, "Hello my name is Kristi" in Sumerian. Silim, mu šè Kristi. Which really means, "Hello, Call me Kristi."

2012-02-13T12:32:00.002-05:00

John Legend is coming to school and I was asked to do a poster for the event. Kelsey King drew the illustration I colored and put the typography.

Death - Ghost Rider

2012-02-09T14:51:00.001-05:00

Lately I've been doing tarot studies regarding various events that's happened since the start of the semester. And I just want to say that when the Death card came up in my readings I couldn't get the image of Ghost Rider out of my mind. It just seemed a too perfect archetype for the events.

I saw this movie on a date in High School and completely forgot about it until now. Ghost Rider is "based on the Marvel character, stunt motorcyclist Johnny Blaze gives up his soul to become a hellblazing vigilante, to fight against power hungry Blackheart, the son of the devil himself" (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0259324/). I suppose the image of the skeleton on the Medieval Scapini card triggered the image of Ghost Rider since he is riding a skeleton of some animal whatever it may have been. Looks snake like.. anyway, during the reading there was absolutely NO way for me to have really understood what this card was trying to tell me. Because the divinary meaning of this card is the End of a Cycle, not necessarily death itself. Its been known to predict spiritual transformations. Though, that doesn't mean that the mundane meaning of the card should not be forgotten. Its just very RARE that tarot cards are literal. Tarot is the language of the mind, the archetypal mind and the reason why they work as a divinary system is that we all wonder through life via our consciousness and subconsciousness, so archetypal events and images are bound to make an appearance. Its been said that everything we experience that we consider to be the Manifest world is actually an illusion, something that our minds conjure up. In hypnosis studies its been said that we appear to have a collective agreement to be here in this physical world So everything that happens in life as mere events is part of the subconscious and is a reflection of it.

Sad Week

2012-02-03T00:16:00.001-05:00

For some reason the events of last weekend have struck me differently than I think I expected. They have reactivated some of the days during high school when whenever the vice principle announced the death of a fellow student due to suicide. One day, once a year in high school we learned about a death of a fellow student. Those memories came back and hit me like a brick when I heard about Kirsli's tragedy. The feelings of being shocked and the sadness; feelings of confusion and feeling a bit lost.

Its the same kind of emotions I think. While a fatal accident is not the same as a suicide, the emotions created from such an sudden event are the same I think. While I never was friends with any of the people who committed suicide, it affected the people around me.

One kind of lives in a bubble and they go through life thinking that how can anything puncture that perfect bubble that they have built around themselves. And then something so sudden such as a suicide or fatal accident pops that bubble and shakes and shatters the very foundation of your life. I know, I've seen it; several times before. Its not pretty and its very difficult.

Student Union Internship

2012-01-30T11:41:00.000-05:00

So because the academic administration messed up my senior year, I was forced to do an on campus internship. I live six hours away from school and I don't have a car on campus cause it costs like $230 a year for a parking pass. I wasn't planning on coming back senior spring semester so I didn't buy a parking pass. Now I'm back, and really don't mind being back, but at the same time I could be doing an off campus internship somewhere.

Anyway, I decided to do an on campus internship because A) I needed courses to be considered a full time student and since I basically took everything I'm doing this internship and 2 photo classes. B) To brush up my skills even more...

So one of the things I'm working on is doing graphics for an event that the Student Union here is putting on. This year is its' 50th anniversary. They are celebrating by having a 60's themed event since it was built in the 60's. I was like, "Oh great. 60's so over done..." so since its in March I decided to go with the flower power kind of theme.

I'm hoping to do a more fulfilling internship during the summer somewhere if I don't get a job right away.

Yay new semester!

2012-01-22T23:48:00.001-05:00

So, its a new semester and lots has happened since jan 10!

I took my French CLEP exam and missed it by 4 points so I have ended up signing up for French III which I haven't been too happy about as I've got my senior art stuff to focus on.

I'm still fighting to get the credit transferred and there's a big possibility that my Umass professor may just up the grade so it will get transferred over.

And so now I am having my hypothyroid medication adjusted and they doubled it. So I'm like wired without having caffeine. Its a weird feeling. Anyway, also been experiencing a bit of a second spiritual awakening (lol) as everything I thought was normal with me has been a slow on coming symptom of low hypothyroidism and who knows how long this has been going on for. As long as I've been alive possibly.

Stupid low hypothyroid messing up my childhood ... heh...

Anyway, perhaps I'll lead a relatively normal adult life now that I've got energy and my brain back. It causes mental dullness/confusion so it may or may not have caused my supposed mental disability (!) I don't know.... I don't know anything anymore about myself...

I'm excited to switch my focus a bit more to my photography classes though it seems that I have a nice balance of photography and graphic design stuff to do this semester. I'm excited especially with this new found energy...

I also figured out a way to make that visual language I had in mind. Just gotta figure out how to do it.

Tattwas - Sanskrit language of shapes and designs

2012-01-10T17:59:00.000-05:00

My current inspiration is the Tattwas:

Tattwaare geometric images from India. they are symbols that can be usedin mandala. One of the most traditional symbol sets and oneconsideredto have innate power to effect realization is by using Tattwa.Thesesimple geometric symbols can be used in meditation.

Tattwa is a Sanskrit word meaning energy.Tattwasare fivegeometric symbols which represent the five universal energies. EachTattwas symbolizes unique energies with specific properties, potentialsand frequencies. In varying combinations, these five energies make upthesum totality of everything in our physical and spiritual universe.Thesefive basic symbols are combined to create symbols of many differentkinds.
The tattwa symbols are the ovoid, thetriangle, the half-moon, the circle,and the square. These definitions are minimal and in no way represent thetotalityof the symbol. Source: http://pjentoft.com/on-Tattwa.html

These would make an interesting language. For example the Circle represents air, and we could have all words associated with the element of air. The prominent shape in the mandala would represent the main theme of what is being expressed. So if we are talking about miscommunication, we would probably have a large circle, in orange. As that is the complimentary color of blue (opposite). So a plain orange circle would mean no communication.

If we were talking about something about selling something like a house, the prominent shape would be yellow square it is represents Earth. Earth is all things materialistic. It would be paired with a smaller blue circle since blue circles represent thought and communication, etc.

They [the shapes] would be layered on top of each other above to create a geometrical story...

Receiving Money in Dream

2012-01-02T21:32:00.002-05:00

So before I went to sleep last night I told myself I'd remember my dreams (I usually don't) and upon waking I remembered my dream! Anyway, in this dream I was at a bus stop (it felt like a bus stop in Bethlehem, PA) and this middle aged lady came up to me with a square salmon colored box and said, "This is for you". Inside was a fortune cookie sized piece of paper that said, $11,1111 (yes it was written like this not $11,111). Then this lady and I went inside a building to discuss what to do with it. I decided to invest 2k and put the rest into a separate bank account.

According to Qabbalah, 11 is the number of Death, but that doesn't necessarily mean physical death. In tarot the Death card usually indicates the end/beginning of some kind of change, or transition. If I took 11,111 and translated it into binary it would look something like this; "01101111" which in an alphabet>binary code translator would be the letter "O". From Qabbalah "The letter O is the All Seeing Eye concept".

The Salmon color is a cousin of the primary color orange

salmon

Primary dream symbol: orange
The color orange can represent:

Bold, outgoing, assertive, invigorated
Autumn, or the "winding down" of a phase or cycle

Source: http://www.thecuriousdreamer.com/dreamdictionary/symbol_alt/5004/

Squares often represent a point of rest, a time needing to be spent alone. In tarot, the number 4 is often represented as this. 4 would be the number to mathematically construct a square. Since the box is a material item, I would associate the salmon color box with the 4/Pentacles tarot card.

4/Pents represents the following in a reading:

4P shows a woman shutting herself inside her home because she needs to be alone and sheltered
means to "hold tight", or stay in a holding pattern- not to take precipitate action.

Source: http://www.tarotforum.net/library/8/2003-04/4-of-pentacles-20030414.shtml

"Hold on to your dreams, but be open and flexible and give them the energy they need to develop".
One interpretation I really like is this:

Sacred Space
Sometimes I think of the 4 of Coins as a Cathedral, instead of a castle/prison. When I was a student (in a previous century), I took a course in "Geography" (it was more like anthropology). We read Mircea Eliade, and learned about the symbolism of human structures. If I recall anything through the dingy, cobwebbed recesses of memory, -- in ancient societies, the four walls necessarily created "sacred" space. Outside the four walls, was chaos, wilderness. Within the four walls was a place for God. Source: http://www.tarotforum.net/library/8/2004-01/four-of-pentacles-20040127.shtml

The sacred space interpretation seems to really fit with the whole box thing containing the message, $11,1111. Even the dollar sign on the keyboard is the number 4. Especially if the $11,111 translates to 01101111 to mean "O" or the all-seeing eye God concept. Its' almost as if I am being handed the all seeing eye...

The middle aged lady if I remember right had an emerald green jacket and thin, short curly strawberry blonde hair. Although these details are fuzzy, so they aren't too important. Sometimes in dreams middle aged women may be a reflection of the dreamer in a 'future' state. As in the Maiden, Mother and Crone? Perhaps some future state of myself I will be receiving the all-seeing eye, becoming enlightened? Or perhaps I won't be fully enlightened until I am a mother or middle aged?

Money doesn't necessarily mean money in dreams, especially since I wasn't handed actual cash or a check. The money that was discussed was almost illusory because no actual check or cash was presented. This may be a stretch but 2,000 may be the number of years it took for my spirit to become enlightened? If we're implying that the illusory money given to me is spiritual enlightenment, investing 2k could be considered that my soul has invest 2,000 'dollars' of this spiritual dough. And since I put that 2k in the bank, I've got $9k to go or 9,1111 years to go. Perhaps though originally since I interpreted 11,1111 as a binary code; 9,1111 may be also another code. You know, if you take a closer look at 9,1111 it is 9/11/11. Which would be September 11, 2011, last year. Or if you add the elevens in such a way that you get number 4 (again, 1+1+1+1). Who knows! The later of this may be a bit abstract for this though, the spiritual dough seems to apply to this better than the numerology presented at the end.

Heck, I certainly hope it won't take 9,1111 more years for my soul to develop!

I decided to google the number "9.1111" and this came up as the first entry:

9/1111 Gold Coast Highway, Palm Beach, Qld 4221

Interesting that the street of the address is "Gold Coast"? As gold has often been associated with spiritual enlightenment.

Finally!!

2011-12-27T16:58:00.002-05:00

So I have finally time to sit down and write a decent post. Been awhile.
What's happened this month? A LOT.

The week after thanksgiving I began to feel sick. Loss of appetite, extreme weakness and fatigue. I had it for the entire week and went to the health center by Friday. They tell me that I have Viral syndrome basically a virus that hasn't manifested yet and told me to sleep and rest over the weekend. Well I did that, and kind of got better, but it didn't really go away. While I was at the health center I made an appointment with the doctor for Monday. Monday I go see him and he tells me its anxiety and then tells me I should go to the hospital Tuesday morning to get an AKG, heart monitor and bloodwork done. I flipped out since this was now during the final week of classes and for me, all of my art finals happened in about a span of a week.

I broke down at the health center cause I could not deal with something like that. I don't know the area of Bethlehem all too well, since I don't have a car, my travel distance is kind of limited to the campus distance. I had a whole bunch of projects to do in a span of five days since that monday and it wasn't that I didn't feel like I could not do them, it was my sickness stressing me out even more because I had no strength to work on them. Bad day that monday? Yes.

My portfolio seminar class was supposed to go and have a book making workshop that afternoon but thankfully it got moved. But I couldn't make any decisions myself since I had pretty much lost my mind. I went to my prof for that class and got a bit of an extension and found out that our final critique time wasn't until Tuesday of finals week. Phew, I've got the weekend to work on the book.

I decided not to go to most of my classes that week, since I had no strength whatsoever. I ended up not going to the hospital since I couldn't think straight and really didn't have the time during an already crunched schedule, so I waited until I got home.

I finished my art finals and studied for my sociology final which I got a B- on. But then I was handed back a book review and was accused of plagiarizing that paper!! FOR REAL. As a hobby researcher I should know better than NOT to plagiarize! I got an F for the assignment but not a Zero, but anyway, I didn't get another F because it was combined with a presentation that my group got an A on. I SWEAR my professor had something against me. He was one of the most arrogant professors I have EVER had. UGH. But thankfully I passed sociology. After the final, I broke down again in my room about the accusation and I couldn't do anything about it. I had spoken to my prof right after the final since he was going on Sabbatical and he said to me, "There's nothing you can do about it now". I emailed the deans and they couldn't do anything about it either since my prof didn't file charges for it. So he won either way. FUCK HIM.

And no, I didn't plagiarize. I wrote those 5 fucking pages myself, granted there were a few things that were incorrect fact and grammar wise, but it probably felt disjointed because I wrote it while under severe anxiety.... sigh.

So. I finish the semester with a straight B+ average except for sociology which I got C-.
I go home and do the bloodwork and they tell me that I have an inactive hypothyroid, so now I am being medicated for it for the rest of my life. Yay for getting my energy and life back??

Cape House Ornament

2011-12-26T02:29:00.002-05:00

I had made quite a few of my gifts this year. I got a print of one of my photos for dad, made a necklace for my grandma, and one for my mom. I also busted my ass off this ornament.. its the cape house. My dad and I decided that she needed one so he helped me cut it out of wood and I painted it and decorated it.

On the tree :)
Just a bit disappointed that she never actually said she "loved it". She was really happy with it and was pleased by it.

Maybe I expect too much from her.....
sometimes I feel like she takes things I make for her for granted, which usually makes me not want to make anything at all..she seemed to like this starfish bowl I got her more. Sigh.

2011-12-24T01:56:00.002-05:00

dealing with a lot right now... update soon.

But, Merry Christmas! and Happy New Year!

Truth Movement propaganda brochure

2011-12-10T00:41:00.001-05:00

This project was confusing it said to do a brochure on propaganda on a conflict/war... so a brochure on the war/movement itself or just on propaganda FROM the conflict/war?

This was our project description:

"Do a presentation on propaganda. Prepare a presentation of any type including visuals, audio, or life performance. You can do a demonstration or give a Power Point/Keynote presentation. You may also do a scrapbook, brochure, or newsletter, which does not require a presentation. A bibliography must be submitted with this project. Due to the size of the class, presentations must be limited to 5-7 minutes."

Yeah...

EDIT: She graded it right away and I got an A :) guess I was overthinking again :P

2011-12-09T00:57:00.001-05:00

Busy with finals.
I probably won't have much time to update all next week, so sorry for the lack of posts recently.

I went to the doctors on monday and they told me I had symptoms of anxiety and wanted me in the hospital tuesday morning.

At the time of monday morning, I had a bunch of work still to do but didn't know that my portfolio was move to critique time which is next tuesday.

Last week I had to make sure I get 2 5 page papers done and turned in, a half hour presentation, 3 design projects, a presentation/design project on war on propaganda and a 15 piece portfolio book printed and bounded. all this done in about a week.

Yeah. Thankfully I got extensions but I just couldn't handle it...

New Self Portrait

2011-12-05T02:55:00.001-05:00

I took this awhile ago and decided I liked it as I was going through old photos of mine for a design project I'm working on right now.

I have roughly an hour or so to complete it...

But this is obviously a reflection.

My face isn't that proportionate so one side of my face looks completely different at a different angle which I find to be a bit of an eye sore and causes me to not be photogenic at all. But, artistically it can create cool effects like this.

Myself as two people, almost.

Amnesty International Poster

2011-11-29T21:36:00.001-05:00

Oh my. This was a poster for a competition that we were required to submit to for Amnesty International for my Artists as Activists class. We were supposed to have done this as a group project, but two sorority girls (who have no design experience what-so-ever) took over and didn't really want to work with anyone who had experience. They had their mind set on one design, and you can't create an effective poster based off one comp/sketch.

I think one of them may have been a design minor or something, but still just because you take a design class or two doesn't mean you're a designer =/

But I ended up taking what was discussed in class because I thought we were doing this together and no one liked my version (lol). Honestly... sure we all have opinions but we needed to work together and that's what was not happening.

So this is what I came up with.

Pics from Baltimore

2011-11-28T02:34:00.001-05:00

A couple of pics from baltimore :)

Revisiting Reading

2011-11-21T23:03:00.001-05:00

I apologize for not being interesting or posting a lot lately. The semester is winding down and pretty much coming to a close, which means art finals are coming up soon as well as regular finals. I've had no motivation to do anything and it seems as if the semester is catching up to me.

Since I didn't get my internship, I need to figure out my schedule. I also had a couple of days last week where I did not feel like doing much at all, and simply did not, so now I am behind in my work.

Yesterday I went to Baltimore with the art department and spent about 10 hours of walking around the city on no sleep. Never again! I was so tired, I slept whenever we were on the bus. It was bad...

Anyway, one of the things I do usually at the beginning and end of the semester is do a reading comparisons seeing and reviewing the semester to see if the reading I did at the beginning of it came true.

Reading Analysis:
   Seven of Coins, indicated the card of crossroads. Boy was this card true! This card I believe spoke to my internship. I was definitely at cross roads in october, waiting nervously and patiently to hear from disney. I also came across some scheduling problems where I found myself to be 1.25 units short from graduating early. Since one of my summer classes didn't transfer over. I didn't know where and what to do for next semester and didn't know for a long time until just this past week.
   Four of Swords, indicated the card of rest. So true! After last year, I guess this card is/was referring to all the drama that happened last year. Also I am taking some time off of some of my duties that I have during the school year to really focus on my school work and to make sure I have a kick-ass portfolio by graduation.
   Ten of Coins, indicated the Card of Permanence. This happened to be true as well. I had a lot of good business progression regarding design projects. I had quite a lot of them too. Occupy Bethlehem, Manuscript Poster, a website and I know I'm forgetting one... so yes I've been getting paid for them too and that's nice. :)

You can find the reading for this semester, here.

Light, Form and Vibration archive

2011-11-18T21:37:00.001-05:00

In order to help preserve my research and organize my findings, I created an archive specifically for my research findings. Its called, "Light, Form and Vibration and its interaction with reality."

http://lightformvibration.blogspot.com/

My personality astrologically

2011-11-17T19:36:00.001-05:00

Pluto in Scorpio:(1983-84 to 1995) it's all or nothing -period.

Mars in Sagittarius: active faith, traveler, adventurer.

Uranus in Capricorn:(1988 to 1995-96) These people find new ways to govern or organize.

Mercury in Capricorn: practical, factual mind, organized.

Neptune in Capricorn:(1984 to 1998) These people are addicted to control and order.

Moon in Capricorn: needs to achieve or progress on a daily basis. Very ambitious.

Saturn in Capricorn: security through one's status or career.

Venus in Capricorn: frugal, reliable, faithful, and serious .

Sun in Aquarius Happy when different, unique, or controversial. Influential friend, reformer, humanitarian.

Jupiter in Cancer: good buisness sense, nurturing, overemotional.

Midheaven in Virgo: analytical ego, career in office work, clothing, food, and services.

http://www.librarising.com/astrology/fwa/pints.htm

No Internship

2011-11-14T16:07:00.001-05:00

So i didn't get the disney internship.

I wished they'd let me know sooner.

I was SO positive that I had gotten it.

"No news was good news" casting said.

No internship and no early graduation.

Now I gotta go figure out what I should do for next semester.

I need 1.25 units. But I'm done with everything assuming I pass sociology.

I'm so tired of being rejected all the time. I just want something to go right for once.

EDIT: Oh yeah and the main site of my blog got hacked so now I have to swipe it clean and start over.

#greatweeksofar

Piano Ballads

2011-11-12T20:22:00.001-05:00

1. Untitled: http://www.kglyphics.com/music/song1.mp3

Recorded one of the 5 songs I've composed. I am rediscovering how good the voice recorder is on my Nikon.

Let me know what you think.

Finalized Logo

2011-11-09T01:21:00.000-05:00

So I added one last change to this logo and I think I got it. Those that had a problem with it said it was too blocky/structured and I think the change above fixes that! Yay!

Also there are lady bugs mysteriously in my suite. My dorm is very secure as it is new and I thought it was weird that there but I took it as a good sign. So I did a Rune reading and the two runes that I grabbed from the bag together was the Wunjo, which in the futhark script is written as a "P" and Isa, which is written as a "I" and so it spells, "PI" or as I read it, "Professional Internship", this was a question regarding my disney internship. Synchronistic much? Between the lady bugs and the rune reading, I'll be very surprised if I DON'T get the internship.

I mean if they really didn't want me, they'd probably tell me pretty early, right?

Trying to stay neutral, but so many positive "signs" that its hard not to.

You can probably tell I'm dying from anxiety right? So anxious to hear from them! :)

Wunjo: (W or V: Joy.) Joy, comfort, pleasure. Fellowship, harmony, prosperity. Ecstasy, glory, spiritual reward, but also the possibility of going "over the top". If restrained, the meaning is general success and recognition of worth. Wunjo Reversed or Merkstave: Stultification, sorrow, strife, alienation. Delirium, intoxication, possession by higher forces, impractical enthusiasm. Raging frenzy, berzerker.

Isa: (I: Ice.) A challenge or frustration. Psychological blocks to thought or activity, including grievances. Standstill, or a time to turn inward and wait for what is to come, or to seek clarity. This rune reinforces runes around it. Isa Merkstave (Isa cannot be reversed, but may lie in opposition): Ego-mania, dullness, blindness, dissipation. Treachery, illusion, deceit, betrayal, guile, stealth, ambush, plots.

Augmented Reality

2011-11-07T20:04:00.001-05:00

Obsessing over something new lately. Ever heard of Augmented Reality? Its a cool little piece of computer science that allows you to embed 3d models and animations into a Real Time video feed. The most practical use I've seen it used is for business cards. Information is stored in a symbol and when shown to a webcam the graphics show up.

You don't need different symbols, just a square box and then you can design the square box.

Take a look:

I want my business cards to eventually look like this. Gotta find some time to learn AR.

Here's more information about it: http://www.augmentedbusinesscard.net/howdoesitwork.php

Occupy Bethlehem

2011-11-05T01:14:00.003-04:00

Poster I did for a professor who was participating in the Occupy Movement in my town.
Still waiting to hear from Disney....sigh. This probably won't go into my portfolio as its definitely not a reflection of my style :)

Package Design Project

2011-11-03T20:39:00.002-04:00

This is my package design project for my portfolio class.
The concept was to develop a package for a product that is a reflection of the company we created this semester. Since my 'company' I'm using is my k glyphics graphic design business I went with the whole "speaking to the past" stigma that most of my designs I have created this semester have.

The idea for this herb/spice line is a gift to a client that would have spent a lot of money on our services. Its like a hand out.

The line is a herb/spice/pigment line containing a herb/spice/pigment from an ancient culture that we're (I'm) inspired from. The reasons behind choosing each of the herb/spice/pigment is symbolic and has connections to mysticism and mythology.

I chose "Lucifer" as the name of the line. The name derives from the Latin term lucem ferre, bringer, or bearer, of light.

In mysticism, Adam from the Biblical “Adam and Eve”, refers to the atom form, and Eve refers to the light emanating from that form. Eve is the dawning of creation, the coming of the light. Eve is likewise, the evening, the end of the light. This symbolizes the beginning and the end, the alpha and the omega, of the bringer of light. Adam and Eve together, are symbolic names for the electrically charged atom symbol, which in turn symbolize the light bringer, the bright morning and evening stars. Together they represent the creator of light, the creator god called lucifer, …who is the light bringer.

The herb/spice/pigments are:

Egyptian Blue "irtiu, sbedj" / Saffron of India "Kesar, Zafran" / chocolate of mexico "xocolatl"

Third Eye Opening

2011-11-01T18:45:00.002-04:00

At the risk of sounding nuts-o I've been meaning to post about this throbbing sensation I have been feeling frequently since the summer of 09' after my spiritual awakening. Yesterday I decided to do some research, some people believe the throbbing or pulsating sensation is the third eye sending waves of energy out and is beginning to slowly awaken.

I have suspected it has been the third eye. I actually hear this pulsating noise. Its like a heart beat but inside your head, so I'm hoping you can see why I am afraid to speak about this to anyone, cause they would definitely look at me weirdly.

Since then I've come completely out of my shell so-to-speak. I'm interested in subjects I never saw myself getting into in high school. My clairvoyance has been spiking. The end products to projects have been coming at me at the speed of light, faster than I can write down the ideas. I design based on an end product that I see in my 'third-eye area' and use that as a concept and apply it to my project.

Sleep is difficult. Especially near the full moon as I've mentioned before. The moon's energy seems to affect my hyperactivity/creativity. Philosophical and mystical ideas flow out right before I go to sleep to the point where I've started writing a journal to get these ideas down.

I have feel like I've been free from a lot of the things in my past and was able to just shed them away. Some ghosts are still there, but most of it I can put behind me.

I'm more aware/careful of what I put into my mouth and hardly overdose on any kind of drug; Tylenol, etc. My time of month has been extremely light to pretty much non-existent.

I'm excited to see where this will take me. I hope it continues to open.

Vintage Writing Poster Design

2011-10-31T02:28:00.002-04:00

So I had a poster job to do for Tuesday among all the craziness that happened this weekend. Its for the literary magazine at school called the Manuscript and when I heard Manuscript vintage/romantic writing came to mind and this is my version of it. I tried to have it inspired by a postcard as it is a 'call' for submissions kind of poster I thought it was appropriate. Didn't want it to make it too much like a postcard though, just inspired by it.

So my college decides to evacuate everyone off the art/music campus because they were worried about cold temperatures and our safety since that building is really dark with the lights off. Was not too pleased.

I usually went up to the main campus to recharge my comp so I could use it for later when I was back in my room. I was up there today when I realized I had a big conference poster I needed to print out for a client. So I sent my adviser an email asking what I should do, then remembered that she may not have power and decided to call her. Funny that she had just gotten my message when I called her :) but then she tells me, "You have to evacuate from the dorm." And I'm like what? So I read the campus-wide email and thought, "fuck".

I live six hours away from this school so the school gave us some options:

A) Go home

B) Stay with someone on North (main campus)

C) Stay with someone who lives in the area

D) Have office of housing find you a place on north in an unfilled dorm

So since staying with a friend would be more fun, I frantically thought of who lived in the area and then my friend Amy took me in.

So yay, hopefully the power will be back and I will be able to get into my dorm. The whole problem with this though is that they gave us less than 40 minutes to evacuate and that wasn't fair especially since the bus schedule from the art/music campus to the main campus ran on a half-hour schedule on the weekends.

They're intentions were good, but poorly executed.

Basically we were left to figure it out for ourselves.

Snow is a life ruiner.

2011-10-29T16:52:00.002-04:00

This weekend. OMG

Last night some dumb drunk college students (probably) released the fire extinguishers on three floors and set off the fire alarm. It took about an hour and a half for the situation to resolve. The fire alarm in my dorm is ear piercing loud and I cannot stand loud noises and I usually get into a bad mood whenever there is a fire alarm. I have to muffle my one decent ear as I don't want to go as deaf in that ear as I am in my left. Not fun at all.

Then I was up until like 4 am because of the fire alarm waking me up and going out in the chilly out side. I slept late today and about 1 pm the power in the dorm went out because it was SNOWING outside. Two days before Halloween it SNOWED. I have never experienced snow this early, in New England the first snow usually happened around Thanksgiving.

But no power meant no elevator (I live on the fifth floor) and no food service in the hill. So I had to lug my stuff up to the main campus because the student union had food service and power and I need to get work done today. I was definitely not happy waking up today. BLAH.

Oh and I think my fridge is slowly dying. It froze my water.

Longchamp

2011-10-28T19:51:00.001-04:00

Ahh. So this lovely bag arrived at my mail box this week from lovely mother! I have been wanting one of these bags since high school as they appeared to have become a staple for carrying all our textbooks, notebooks, binders and survival kits. Considering I grew up in a wealthy/upper middle class town and the majority of the students could afford to spend around $120 (what it was then) on a bag they'd use every day. Though since my parents didn't see the purpose of spending money to show that you had it they wouldn't agree to spend $120 on a bag that appears to be extremely high quality.

I abuse my bags, as I carry a lot in them. Sometimes even my laptop gets thrown in there when I'm on the run. Otherwise it goes into the computer bag.

But I found a few chinese sellers on ebay that drew me in because they were selling these at $32! Flat. So I did some research and found out that there was a group of makers in china who made these bags, not Longchamp themselves. They USED to make them, but when they found out that they could make them for cheap in china they did and then jacked the price up to $140. Yeah, not about to spend that much on a bag either. It took a lot of trust because sometimes people sell knock offs... and I didn't want to get something that looked like the real deal but was actually crap in quality since I was looking for quality and not necessarily aesthestic.

I also wanted something a bit more sturdy and professional looking for my future job and/or internship.

So I hope that this bag will not let me down. I've gone through so many bags and the one that has lasted the longest for me was a flowery canvas bag from kohls but the handle was so short I've resorted to using weekend bag now.

So a legit Longchamp Les Pliages for $32. Not too shabby.

The Concept of Images

2011-10-25T00:03:00.002-04:00

So I shouldn't be writing because I have a mild form of tendonitis in my left wrist. The pain isn't excruciating it is more of a painful throb. It even made me feel a bit nauseous at one point (weird I know). I currently have it wrapped up in ice.

I haven't even been doing a lot of wrist work... but I use my wrists a lot in my every day and weekly activities... piano, harp, laptop... plus my joints/wrists are weak in general.

Anyway, I was contemplating about Images and their purpose in our society, through the views of a mystic I find them to be extremely fascinating.

The entrapment of the Rubidium 85 atom is the result of a three-year research project funded by the Foundation for Research, Science and Technology, and has already prompted world-wide interest in the new science which will flow from the breakthrough. The researchers then proved they could reliably and consistently produce individual trapped atoms - a major step towards using the atoms to build next-generation, ultra-fast quantum-logic computers, which harness the potency of atoms to perform complex information-processing tasks. Source: http://www.physorg.com/news205161948.html

In mysticism, the concept of an image is used to described our physical world. The scientists' 21st model of the Universe is a holographic universe. This just means our physical reality is essentially a grainy picture. Above this paragraph is a photograph of a rubidium 85 atom trapped. This is the first time anyone has seen any kind of atom. If you look at the picture, it just contains particles of light. According to scientists we are made up of a bunch of atoms similar to this.

I began thinking about the parallels in science and spirituality, and the concept of images really brings that link closer. ‎I was reading a Practical Kabbalistic guide this weekend and ran across this:

The Analogous Identity of the Divine Plane and the Material Universe, the second being created "in the image" of the first and remaining its reflection, inferior and imperfect;And enduring rapport between the two, a rapport flowing from the analogous identity, being able to be expressed at the same time as it is established, by a secondary science, called Symbolism. - Practical Kabbalah - R. Ambelain (19XX). trans. Piers A. Vaughan.

When I am meditating on the 'As above and so below' I am always reminded of this passage in the Book of Genesis from the Bible:

Genesis 1²⁶ Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals,^[a] and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”

I am also reminded that many things can be reversed, that's just how things are in this world. You can neither be on the 'black' side of the spectrum or the 'white' side of the spectrum.
Putting the "reverse" concept into practice I like taking this passage from the Book of Genesis :

^{Genesis 13} And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.

And rewrite it as, "And Light said, "Let there be God," and there was God.

The above rewritten statement is very kabbalistic and is essentially how this world was formed. The atoms are living entities, who think. According to Byran Kamilla of the It’s All In Our Mind – The LIGHT BRINGERS – Eliminating The Illuminators:

The screen in front of you is empty …

Now imagine the empty screen is the totality of everything that is …even though there’s no shape … no colour … and no sound.

As you look at the screen in front of you … what do you see?You see nothing.As you look at the screen in front of you … what do you know?

You know a lot.Even though you don’t see anything on the screen, you still know … and have locked up inside you, a vast storehouse of knowing.

At this point in time, and in this scenario we’re contemplating, what you know may be correct, or it may be incorrect. It makes no difference.

You still have an incredible amount of information recorded somewhere within you, even though you can’t see anything.Imagine again, that all that knowing you possess, has within it, the power and strength to exist forever.

There’s no beginning and no end. You have the power and wisdom to be eternal. Imagine that you’re filled with this knowing and completely possessed with this eternal power and strength. This is about as powerful as anyone could hope to be.

Let’s imagine that this knowing not only exists in you, but it exists in every person on the planet. It’s not something you have to go out and find, it’s just there, in you and in everyone that ever walked on the face of the earth.

Now imagine that someone, or a group of individuals, with that same eternal power, also wanted to have your power, and my power. Imagine that this group wanted to take possession of all that is ours.

However, they can’t take it from us by force, because it’s locked inside us, and it is who we are. Still, they desire to at least control it.

This group wished for our power to work in unison with their power, and the enormity of that combined strength of power and knowing would make them greater than the greatest … the most massive force in existence…they would appear to be GOD…

Diffraction pattern of an icosahedral quasicrystal

Inspired by the growing numbers and varieties of quasiperiodic crystals, the International Union of Crystallography has redefined the term crystal to mean ``any solid having an essentially discrete diffraction diagram'', thereby shifting the essential attribute of crystallinity from position space to Fourier space. Within the family of crystals one distinguishes between periodic crystals, which are periodic on the atomic scale, and aperiodic crystals which are not. This broader definition reflects our current understanding that microscopic periodicity is a sufficient but not a necessary condition for crystallinity. In our research we deal with questions concerning the symmetry of crystals. We classify crystals according to their symmetry using an approach in Fourier space which treats periodic and quasiperiodic crystals on an equal footing. Source: http://www.lassp.cornell.edu/lifshitz/quasicrystals.html

The above photo is a diffraction pattern of a quasicrystal.

When writing this post, I remembered how the first image that was ever created was using the 'as above and so below' concept. This discovery was originally made by Aristotle:

Here is the kabbalistic image of the concept of "as above and so below":

And the battle continues...

2011-10-23T17:40:00.002-04:00

This has been a pretty shitty week.
Monday I got slammed twice from the academic committee about getting my grade from my summer french class appealed and seeing if I can get my on campus job (studiosouth) be an internship to get credit. Nothing was accepted. The internship was mostly a GPA problem. But the GPA problem is rooted in my language disability.

No one has told me to go study for a test in the way that is most appropriate for me.
They all tell me to study for a test as if I don't have a disability and just give me extra time.
But how am I supposed to use this extra time to my advantage with what I have?

Its fucking ridiculous that I have to take language classes when I have a documented language disability. But apparently my high school and college both see it as not serious enough to accept it as a legitimate disability and so I have to take the language classes, which are hell for me.

So now I have to plan my life next semester based on two scenarios.
One, if I get my disney world internship.
And two, if all else fails.

I absolutely freaking hate talking about future plans, or what I'm planning to do. Its my life, I'd like to keep it to my self! Also being a mystic, I've had experiences in the past where I talk about something that's going to happen so much that it ends up not happening even if it had a lot of potential of happening.

I'm just so fed up with trying to make this work its driving me crazy.

So this is the scenario if all else fails and I have to come back next semester:

What I would be taking:
Silkscreen Printing TR 9:00 AM-11:30 AM;
Interactive Design II MW MW 6:30 PM-9:00 PM;
Photography I TR 6:30 PM-9:00 PM
and my french class online.

If I DO get my internship this is what would happen:

I would take the "Internship class" to get credit for the internship which will fulfill the lame .25 units I'm short.
And I would take the french class online to meet the french requirement (1 units).

Next step would be to meet with the Foreign Language department chair to see if the french class I have found online would be acceptable and as well as meeting with the deans for possible scenarios and get some questions answered.

Facebook Redesign

2011-10-21T10:08:00.002-04:00

I haven't been doing any design to just to do it for fun. So I took a couple of hours off last week one day and did a basic redesign of facebook. Redesigning websites like facebook are great projects because the site focuses on user interfacing more often than not. This was just for fun.

Alternative Energy Concept Car

2011-10-20T17:04:00.000-04:00

So last night when I was supposed to be doing an assignment for my sociology class I got hit with some inspiration and an idea/concept for alternative energy car.

I like to think about things like this, and while I don't have the engineering background, I definitely have the design background as well as the ideas...

SO like most people this past week, I saw this video

and it got me thinking.

First question that came to my mind... how can we take this idea and use the technique to create a piece of practical technology from it?

Second question that came to my mind... how can we easily obtain liquid nitrogen?

While LN may be cheap, its not that easily obtainable and you have to be certified to handle it.
So I go on google and search for a 'kitchen' or 'hobby' science substitute. I find this substitute:

Its' not liquid nitrogen. But you can make a cryo-fluid having -110F temperature. (Liquid nitrogen is more like -320F.) A -110F liquid can perform most of the Liquid Nitrogen demonstrations.

Poor man's "Liquid Nitrogen" is made out of dry ice and 99% rubbing alchohol.

Do you know what dry ice is made out of? It's a condensed solid form of CO2. That's right, the gas that's in our air and what is said to cause global warming and pollution. And from my research as it melts it turns into gas again, but its not the same kind of CO2 that is from the air, its as delicate as what is used to make carbonated drinks.

Do you see where I'm going with this?

Levitation created by LN which can be substituted with a cryo-fluid having -110F temperature which is said to reproduce the same kind of LN demonstrations. But the question then is, can it reproduce the same kind of superconductor effects?

Since we're using dry ice, as product of a green-house gas, we're taking our problem and turning it into a solution.

Completed Wayfinding

2011-10-18T12:57:00.000-04:00

My wayfinding project is almost done. God, was that a lot of work. I just have to do the outside entrance sign and parking garage signage and I'll be done.

It's due tomorrow so I have tonight to work on them. This was definitely a project I struggled with only because it was completely out of my element (print/infographics) but at the same time it was in my element. It also dealt with typography which I'm not necessarily a fan of. I also applied the signs to different views from a 3d model of a building I sketched in Google Sketchup. Which I'll post later.

I just am really pleased with the overall feeling of this. I took the layout of the information on an element from the periodic table and used the idea of grouping text like that. Taking the element abbreviation as an icon and kind of went from there.

The Universe is Flat

2011-10-16T01:18:00.000-04:00

This post is in response to an old post on symbology in Tibetan art for a holographic reality.
For aeons philosophers and scientists have debated what the physical shape of the universe is. Just recently on Universetoday a journalist reported that researchers and scientists have finally declared that the Universe is flat. Say what?

Various universe evolution scenarios. A universe with too much density collapses in on itself, a critical density universe stays static, while a universe with not enough density keeps expanding at a steady (coasting) rate. However, today's cosmology puts emphasis upon the cosmological constant, which gives an accelerating expansion. Does this mean that density is irrelevant? Credit: NASA.

Tibetan mandala depicting "Mount Meru" the object that in Tibetan mythology said to have created the universe.

"A remarkable finding of the early 21st century, that kind of sits alongside the Nobel prize winning discovery of the universe’s accelerating expansion, is the finding that the universe is geometrically flat. This is a remarkable and unexpected feature of a universe that is expanding – let alone one that is expanding at an accelerated rate – and like the accelerating expansion, it is a key feature of our current standard model of the universe.

It may be that the flatness is just a consequence of the accelerating expansion – but to date this cannot be stated conclusively."

Source: http://www.universetoday.com/89912/astronomy-without-a-telescope-flat-universe/

Metaphysics teaches us that all things that contain an electromagnetic field or magnetic field will be torodial in shape. This applies to the human, the earth and they teach also the universe...

So if the universe is flat, that must mean its obviously not torodial, and obviously not electromagnetic/mechanical as the physicists have always thought it must be. But... how can 3 dimensional objects exist in a geometrically flat universe?

The above image is taken from The Scientific Indian blog. The author, Selva, posted how he was questioned about the connectedness of this world through synchronicity. He connected how the Belousov-Zhabontinsky reaction looked like a CMB picture of the universe. Explain that! BZ reactions are typically known for their formations of archimedes spirals which are said to be waves of information rather than mechanical.

Do we live in a universe that communicates more through information transmissions/transactions than through mechanical motions?

Environmental Signage Project

2011-10-15T02:58:00.001-04:00

So I have this wayfinding/environmental signage project due wednesday. Almost done with it and definitely one I struggled with. Funny because its what got me into graphic design in the first place. I wanted to base the wayfinding in my 'pretend' building off my logo's personality. Something that was playful but has a bit of seriousness to it.

I'm not really sure with this... definitely not my strongest piece yet this semester. "Elevator/office" may be hard to read... and it doesn't have Public Domain symbols which may be a problem for those who can't read too well... I guess with signage you can't assume most of your employees can read... anyway. I have it applied to most of the views in the 3d model of the building. I think I'll just leave it for now and see what the class says.

Animation from High School

2011-10-14T23:59:00.000-04:00

Here is the animation I did in my high school animation class. I still love it. Unfortunately it doesn't want play all the way, I don't know why, but you'll get to listen to some of the soundtrack I composed and recorded for this. The video won't get to the awesomely animated bar scene =/ oh well. If I find the original file, I'll upload load it.

White Crow Papermill and art processes

2011-10-14T22:58:00.001-04:00

We went to the White Crow Papermill in Fleetwood, Pa today with some of the people in my department. Making paper has always interested me. It was definitely refreshing to see some of the alternative ways that they made paper. One of the professors in the art department owns this place so that's why we visited them. Sometimes in art, there are specific processes that are needed to be done in order to get the right outcome and until you've mastered the original process, only then you can start experimenting. But paper making isn't that rigid. I mean, you have a basic process, but you don't necessarily have to use the same tools to recreate the end product.

He did these really cool artworks where he embedded different pieces of paper and then 'casted' them so the pieces blended into the surface so its' smooth.

Camp Chronicles Series

58" x 40" handcast and mixed media paper

The Beginning of the End

2011-10-12T13:04:00.000-04:00

Last night, I got an hour of sleep. Mostly because my mind wouldn't shut up and I blame it on the full moon. More often than not, the full moon makes me hyper active and makes me think of far-fetched ideas and my creativity skyrockets. I either sleep a lot, or sleep a little.

Last night I was hit with a revelation. Something I never thought of before and it relates to 2012.

Its quite simple, actually.
Throughout our ancient past there are a group of beings that are often described as snake-like. The East calls them the Nagas.

They are described as being highly intelligent and having direct contact with the human races on earth. The Eastern documents describes specific places where they may have underground civilizations. In reverse speech (the phenomena that when speech is reversed it becomes a language of the Universal Mind) it describes a snake-like race that has complete control over humanity. As God is the epitome of Good, this snake-like race is the epitome of Evil. Unfortunately for humanity, the Nagas are inter-dimensional beings. Humans can neither see, hear, feel, taste or smell them... "See no evil, hear no evil and speak no evil, etc". Man's greatest enemy is one he cannot detect with his own senses. Just because the human cannot detect something doesn't mean it isn't there.

These Nagas have been found in all of the cultures of the world, from Quetzalcoatl to the ancient chinese. All cultures worship an evil that is usually described as snake-like.

Genesis 3

1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?”

2 The woman said to the serpent, “We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden,

3 but God did say, ‘You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.’”

4 “You will not certainly die,” the serpent said to the woman. 5 “For God knows that when you eat from it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”

However the truth about these beings have been kept from humanity for all these years. The serpent beings are in fact the ones who have jump started our modern society, they are the ones who have helped the Ancient Mayans and the Ancient Chinese. Our modern society ARE those ancient cultures, but instead of being in the same spot, in the ruins, we are where the cities are today. I bet you, that all our world leaders were chosen carefully because of ancestral linage.

The revelation was, since the Nagas helped all our ancient cultures, they foresaw their socities' end and that end is next year. There is no coincidence that all major calendars are ending; mayan, hebrew, hindu... all those cultures were influenced by the Nagas. Our society was built to be destroyed... why? To keep hidden simple facts from humanity... who we really are, why are we here... who created us?

The above is the correct, qabbalistic comparison of our gregorian calendar and the hebrew calendar. As you notice, the column that indicates dates that have been translated from the Hebrew calendar into the Gregorian calendar (without Gregory's changes) indicates that year 2011 is 1999 and that next year, 2012 - 2,000 correlates to the Y2k phenomena.

Our crappy society was built to keep the human mind pre-occupied and busy so that the individual does not have time to sit around and think. That is why there is so much confusion, so much emotional strain, so much stress...

And as 2012 approaches we will begin the beginning of the end, the end of an era. The end of the Naga world domination.

Reading for Early Graduation

2011-10-12T03:30:00.003-04:00

With so many obstacles and bumps in the road for my early graduation approval, I decided to do a tarot reading to gain insight/guidance about what is to come and what I may have to overcome.

(I really shouldn't be blogging right now since its way past my bed time, but I had the urge to do the reading now, and when that happens, its usually the right time for such things)

Q: Will I graduate early? (I realize this question may be kind of vague for this kind of spread but I wanted to see my results first and then do a more in depth spread if I have to)

1. Six of Swords

According to Psychic Revelation

Generally the 6 shows at least a slight reduction in stress and strain. Things may not be perfect, but they are going to be better than they may have been in the recent past. Take this time to get your head above water and decide where you're going from here. Even a short break or change of scenery will be helpful. This doesn't have to cost money.

2. King of Wands reversed

According to Psychic Revelation

In general the King of Wands reversed is a positive card. People around you are likely to be kind, tolerant, and understanding. You should have more than enough energy to get what you need to do accomplished. Again, a light haired, older man may play an important and helpful role in your life.

3. King of Coins

According to Psychic Revelation

The King of Pentacles speaks of authority, tradition, and success in money matters. When he appears in a reading, it's a sign that now is not a time to be a maverick, now is a time to follow the establish way of doing things. When he stands in for a literal man in your life, it generally refers to a very masculine fellow with hair and eyes on the darker end of the spectrum.

Then I did a "finishing card". Usually when I do a "finishing card" its because the spread doesn't feel complete and something important needs to be shown and this is usually done intuitively.

4. Finishing Card: The Lover's Reversed

According to Psychic Revelation

When this card appears in reverse, it’s very likely that you are feeling ambivalent about a relationship or situation in your life. You must pay attention to what your gut is telling you and to try to analyze and get clear about what this is and why. Your feelings and emotions are there for a reason. Don’t ignore them.

Even when reversed The Lovers is a powerfully positive omen, particularly of course for romantic relationships, but in truth, for all relationships in your life. The card is associated with the astrological sign of Gemini, "The Twins".

At first glance I think the end result will be good. I will probably graduate on time and will get something done early. However, the King of Pentacles doesn't make sense but at the same time he does. I don't like the, "Now is a time to follow the established way of doing things" because that means I will have to may not graduate early. But at the same time, that card may be telling me to follow the necessary steps that are required to get my grade appealed and work around my problems with graduating early.

King of Wands made me laugh, its' obviously talking about one of the deans :) and the energy of this card is great too, it should mean that people will be willing to work with me and make sure I get this fight done and over with. The King of Wands could also be speaking about my Learning Services councilor... which would make more sense I guess since he's writing a letter to get my grade appealed, etc. and playing an important role.

First card, Six of Wands, is easy. Perhaps this may indicate when I'll find out if it'll be appealed. The only time I'll be traveling anytime soon will be Thanksgiving.

We'll see what happens!

Shadow Divides

2011-10-07T12:20:00.000-04:00

One of the twitter accounts I follow called, "Spacefuture" posts tweets about space and everything about it. They posted today this: http://robertlorayn.computersclub.org/universe.html it is a computer generated model of a cyclic universe. Using the idea of the big bang and the ever expanding vastness of the vacuum.

It got me thinking, it really did.

The page begins as a white screen. Think of this white screen as light, and all the things of this world are united within this glowing, white light.

Then suddenly shadow appears. Shadow is the dagger. It cuts and divides objects making them the 3-Dimensional things we know of today. When the shadow begins and slowly expands, as seen in the model. Stars start to appear. Again this is because shadow divides.

Someone had commented on an earlier post about crop circles and they mentioned that they wondered why everything in this universe was constructed by a sphere. They are not spheres, but balls. Everything is a ball. There is a difference. Spheres are constructed by lines and points. Balls are constructed by the shadows that are created by light.

When you draw a 'sphere' or ball on a piece of paper, you don't start drawing it with lines and points but with shadow and light.

Just like how in the cyclic universe model, when the shadow begins to expand, it shows stars and stars are balls of light with shadow attached.

And then just as how shadow expanded, at a certain time when the shadow has completely taken over, the cycle begins again and the shadow begins to retract and dissolve. Then what is left is a shadowless light in which everything and anything is connected to.

iSad

2011-10-06T00:48:00.000-04:00

Moments after news broke about Steve Jobs' death, a rainbow popped out of the Pixar campus (taken with my iPhone 4). Rest in peace, Steve, and thank you. SOURCE

Steve Jobs bought a small studio, "The Graphics Group" in 1986 and later renamed is "Pixar".

iSad. We Sad. World Sad.

"Apple has lost a visionary and creative genius, and the world has lost an amazing human being. Those of us who have been fortunate enough to know and work with Steve have lost a dear friend and an inspiring mentor. Steve leaves behind a company that only he could have built, and his spirit will forever be the foundation of Apple." - Apple.com/stevejobs

As some of the readers of the blog may know, I am one who does not believe in coincidences. I honestly believe the rainbow above Pixar is a mystical occurrence, photographic evidence of someone achieving the Rainbow Body of Light taught in Buddhism. The timing of the rainbow is impeccable and instantly awakens the questioning mind. Interestingly an article was published today by CNN journaling Jobs' philosophy and spirituality:

The name of Jobs' company is said to be inspired by the Beatles' Apple Corps, which repeatedly sued the electronics maker for trademark infringement until signing an exclusive digital distribution deal with iTunes. Like the Beatles, Jobs took a spiritual retreat to India and regularly walked around his neighborhood and the office barefoot.

Traversing India sparked Jobs' conversion to Buddhism. Kobun Chino, a monk, presided over his wedding to Laurene Powell, a Stanford University MBA. SOURCE

Even Job's said himself that he doesn't believe in coincidences:

"I believe life is an intelligent thing, that things aren't random," Jobs said in a 1997 interview with Time, providing a glimpse into his complicated belief system that extends well beyond the Buddhist teachings. SOURCE

According to an article published by The Red Dragon Shop,

The ultimate Great Completion culmination is the Rainbow or Body of Light attainment. This is widely recognized as a sign of extreme sanctity in Tibetan Buddhism and among the Bönpo. [..] The Rainbow Body – The Body of Light is light without shadow; it is awareness without obscurations; it is omniscience; it is pure space. [...] The Body of Light represents a complete and total and radical transformation of one’s status of being, a rediscovery of what was primordially present, and this condition is permanent. It is Awareness itself and is dependent on nothing else.

Sogyal Rinpoche wrote,

In 1952 there was a famous instance of the rainbow body in the East of Tibet, witnessed by many people. The man who attained it, Sonam Namgyal, was the father of my tutor at the beginning of this book.He was a very simple, humble person, who made his way as an itinerant stone carver, carving mantras and sacred texts. Some say he had been a hunter in his youth, and had received a teaching from a great master. No one really knew he was a practitioner; he was truly called a "hidden yogin.". . . he then fell ill, or seemed to, but became strangely, increasingly happy. When he illness got worse, his family called in masters and doctors.

His son told him he should remember, 'Everything is illusion, but I am confident that all is well.'Just before his death at seventy-nine, he said "All I ask is that when I die, don't move my body for a week." When he died his family wrapped his body and invited Lamas and monks to come and practice for him. They placed the body in a small room in the house, and they could not help noticing that although he had been a tall person, they had no trouble getting it in, as if he were becoming smaller. At the same time, an extraodinary display of rainbow-coloured light was seen all around the house. When they looked into the room on the sixth day, they saw that the body was getting smaller and smaller. On the eight day after his death, the morning in which the funeral had been arranged, the undertakers arrived to collect the body. When they undid its coverings, they found nothing inside but his nails and hair.

Those who have mastered the trek-chod phase of Dzogchen in which pure and total presence is stabilized, are able to do to-gal. This is the final Dzogchen practice which enables the yogi at the time of death to dissolve his or her physical body into the essence of the elements.

The above photo was taken (on my cell phone so sorry for the quality) when I was traveling to Cancun, Mexico, which turned out to be one of the most mystical experiences I've had, in the most sublime way (everything ended up being related to the Orion constellation, I wrote about it here).

While I was riding in the air plane, I kept noticing this rainbow bubble (mid picture to the right) that was following the direction of the plane. It only appeared when we were over a cloudy area. The sun was low on the other side of the airplane so it couldn't have been a reflection or light shining on a reflective spot on the plane. I have completely forgotten about it until now because it reminds me of the rainbow bodies of light illustrated in this picture!:

It just occurred to me that the old apple logo was a rainbow:

Semiotics: the study of Signs

2011-10-03T00:55:00.001-04:00

This is probably a premature decision. But I'm currently inspired and moved to go to University of Tartu in Estonia to get a Master's degree in Semiotics...the study of signs and sign processes (semiosis), indication, designation, likeness, analogy, metaphor, symbolism, signification, and communication.

Its basically a combination of philosophy, linguistics and communication. I figured it might really help me with graphic design career. Why Estonia? It's under 10k for a two year master program probably half the cost of a US Master's program... and I can probably afford it and its' abroad! I never studied abroad. And really still want to at some point, or work abroad... either or. Also the University of Tartu is the center for Semiotics.. so they're really into the subject which is pretty new and blossoming.

Here's the program from the University of Tartu's semiotics department website fora 2-year master program taught in English:

General module History of Semiotics: Basic Concepts and Classical Works Tartu-Moscow Semiotic School Readings of J. v. Uexküll and J. Lotman Methodology for Semiotic Analysis	Culture module Cultural Semiotics and Theories of Culture Semiotics of Art Semiotics of Translation Semiotic Analysis of Performance and Multimediality
Nature module Biosemiotics Ecosemiotics: Cultural Interpretations of Nature Zoosemiotics: Umwelt and Animal Communication Landscape Semiotics	Society module Sociosemiotics and Societal Theories Ideology and the Concept of Identity Models of Communication and Mass Media Semiotic Analysis of Subcultures
Optional courses	Master thesis

We'll see though...

First I graduate.... and get an internship and then work some.... or for awhile.

Santorini / Semeion Apothecary Package Design

2011-10-01T23:54:00.001-04:00

So this is just a concept mockup that I have going on with the semeion apothecary package design. Not sure how I like it... I'm going to be making my own jar this friday out of a homemade clay that has the look and feel of porcelain and kind of like the adobe used in greece such as the above image. Something like below but more what I'm going for:

Apothecary style logo

2011-10-01T00:57:00.001-04:00

We've got a package design project coming up. I love package design and being the nerd I am, I've started on it early cause I had an idea and I wanted to get a comp done.

I spent a good portion of this evening working on client projects. I've got two going on right now for music orientated clients. One wants a sign and other print materials and the other wants a website makeover. Both are going pretty well.

Had sometime before I head off to bed. I recently did a poster for a made-up apothecary advertising its' herbs and other medicinal things... and I called it "The Semeion Apothecary". Semeion means sign, or mark in greek and comes from the subject, Semiotics; the study of signs. I thought it might be cool to do a package design concept based off this idea.

Just testing out some ideas based off the poster I did. We had to do two self-initiated projects before the 28th of september and I did a brochure and this poster.

I wasn't too happy with it because I did it in a day since I had no motivation for it and had no direction, ideas, concepts, etc. I think it turned out pretty good for doing it in less than 24 hours.

There are definitely things I could change though.

Here is my brochure:

I like how this brochure turned out and yes, I know "Sirius in Popular Culture" should be capitalized.

Disney Institute

2011-09-30T02:34:00.002-04:00

So this past month I got my application together to apply for the Graphic Design Communications internship at the Disney Institute at Lake Buena Vista in Florida.

This week I got an email from them to schedule a phone interview for next friday! Basically to talk about my interests, skills and experience. Very excited.

Let's hope it goes well.
They said I was a strong candidate so I thought that was cool.

'pologies for the lack of posts. Not been feeling great/been busy with school. My digestive system decided to go last weekend and its been messed up since. Had the worst cramps for the first time in three years and today I suffered from a miniature migraine. I took Tylenol which didn't do anything and then napped for three hours and felt gross and groggy when I woke up. But the piercing headache is gone. It may just be stress... sometimes my body reacts to stress even though I don't feel stress or pressure.

I had to miss gym on Wednesday night because since I was sick over the weekend I fell behind in my homework and projects. Way behind and stayed up late monday and tuesday but I still forgot to do one thing for Tuesday which I did yesterday for today. I was told by my instructor that I couldn't miss any gym... and would have to get the excuse approved... sigh! but I took a gym class last year and was told I could miss two classes... I need this gym class for credit to graduate. It will probably be no big deal and will be approved but I'm getting more stressed with every road block that I cross for me to graduate early!

First I have to get a letter written for the dean to appeal a grade I got over the summer for a class I took for credit because it wasn't high enough. Second Jan (the secretary from the art department) and I realized that I'm a quarter credit short! URGH. So we decided to make studiosouth an internship for me for the second half of the semester so I can get the quarter credit... I still have to get the paper work for it... but yeah...

and now this gym class miscommunication pffft! The world doesn't want me to graduate early...

and if I get that internship (really really hoping I do) I really -do- need to graduate early!

SIGH

5 Book Covers

2011-09-25T18:11:00.002-04:00

Haven't gotten a grade for this yet... this is one of my 5 book covers I had to do in a week and then do corrections for. Sorry for the quality of the images, I've taken them with my cell phone, I'll take better ones for my portfolio later. I'm just really pleased with this cover.

Although when I was trimming these, I accidentally somehow had sliced a little onto the cover itself and had to fix it with tape... so professional I know. lol at some point I'll reprint it.

Anyway, a couple of the others have to be reprinted too (sigh) because some how some of the images got pixelated and one was completely not the right size.

I'll post them all once they are all completed!

For a teaser here are the spines of most of the others:

Logo Colors

2011-09-23T21:09:00.001-04:00

I got an A- on this logo. :) But I still can't figure out the colors for it. Not sure what to go for. The one below is what I'm currently using. I do like the thinner lines of the logo, but it doesn't work so well now with the green/gold colors. I like green, but I feel like I'd get tired of it fast. Same with the blue... this is funny because I am all about color usually. The one below is what I turned in. I like it because its colors that I love and its also CMYK (the black would be the text) but most people in the critique said it would be too much going on. I don't think so though...

I like the above colors as my business card but it didn't really go well with the rest of the package.

Then the green/gold colors went well with everything else but not the business cards.... =/

So as of now I'm using the green/gold. The green/gold version looks really nice in black and white.

I may end up just keeping it black and white.

I saw the below this morning ... its a brand identity for La Sal Gallery. The name was chosen with help of numerology and the whole idea was to combine two distinct subjects: salt and jewelry into one strong idea. So the designers went with an alchemical theme. They kept it very sleek/corporate looking to keep the scientific feel of it... But I just found it cool that the logo they came up with looked like it could be apart of mine! (source).

Mediterranean Pizza with Farmer's Market Veggies

2011-09-17T17:52:00.002-04:00

So on tuesday was the opening day of the Steelstacks farmer's market in Bethlehem Pa. I went with my friend Jeni as we both loved farmer's markets. Through IMPACT (on campus activities group) Moravian agreed to have FREE trips to this farmer's market right in Bethlehem. This news made my week. I love farmer's markets and I've been trying to eat healthier too with the market option I may just be able too... anyway so Jeni and I went at 4:30pm.

Since it was the opening day, unfortunately there wasn't a lot of people there but this market has a lot of potential. They have a great variety of farmers' goods from; eggs to beef (!!!) A couple of vegetable stands, apple stands (with cider!!) breads (with country bread), cheese (!!) and late summer + early harvest veggies.

I had a lot of mediterranean pizza over the summer and was craving some so I went to the market with the pizza in mind. I had a great success finding the veggies I needed. I actually had looked up the pizza I had at the restaurants' website and they vaguely listed what was in it. The only two things I couldn't get at the market were the olives and feta (which I got at the school snack market...).

Then today I went to the closest convenance store and bought baking supplies to make a no-yeast pizza dough. I used this recipe: http://www.food.com/recipe/pizza-dough-with-no-yeast-84987 and it was brilliant! Since there was no yeast, the crust is more like a hard crust rather than a soft crust. Which ended up fine because if there was a soft crust, I think the topping would've fallen off.

I chopped up the veggies and did a quick stir fry in vegetable oil and oregano. Once I had put the dough on the pan, I oiled the top (probs unnecessary) and grated oregano cheese I had gotten at the market. I did a simple stir fry of oregano and vegetable oil with the basil, tomato, cucumber and red onion. I then put the cooked veggies on the pizza and put the feta and olives on top and grated more cheese on top. I then put it in the oven at 425 degrees for 20-25 mins (or until the feta turned a little brown on top). So delicious! Although, next time I think I might add a spice, not sure what spice to use.

Cooking makes me nervous cause I always seem to mess up the simplest steps, but I just winged this using a no-yeast pizza dough and a stir fry I found on line.

(Uncooked)

(cooked)

Logo

2011-09-16T13:39:00.002-04:00

This is where my personal logo is headed. Before there were a lot of comments on making it less blocky... one idea was to make one "K" more distinct but with this particular design that idea ended up breaking up the unity this one has. Also it does not matter if you cannot tell that it was made out of a 'k' that's the element of surprise, or mystery that I'd rather keep.

I used the bevel and emboss filters for this and I think it works. My prof liked this one a lot better and I do too. So I think I'm gonna scrap the CMYK idea. CMYK colors are hard to work with because there are four of them. There's basically only two colors here; the sage green and the gold color.

Brain Coherence

2011-09-16T00:33:00.000-04:00

So while I was researching for next project; creating 5 book covers due next wednesday. I'm doing a book cover based on Design Aesthetic Philosophy (or design philosophy, basically what I write about). I came across a philosopher whom I haven't heard of; Prof. Arnold Keyserling. He was all about brain coherence and the grammar of the brain. To me, Graphic Design is thinking made visual... that's the definition I go by (while I realize GD has many definitions this is one I found that is most appropriate). I found his use of the enneagram; the nine-pointed star very interesting.

Keyserling discovered that the structure of our brain molds our speech, and our speech in turn shapes our mind. He found that the basic patterns of our mind and coherence are tied to language, and all are tied to the Enneagram and The Wheel. The essential criteria of our mind can be reduced to the three space-like realms of language combined with the four time-like functions. These are the basic components of The Wheel. (source)

Logo

2011-09-12T01:11:00.001-04:00

The "philosophy of a lightbeam" concept logo turned out to be not everyone's favorites. There was too much going on. I also realized its not as 'original' as the first logo concept I had.

Here is the modified one in black and white:

I really like how the positive and negative space interacts with one another in the logo and how it still has a great sense of unity. There are also other similar elements from the "philosophy of a lightbeam" concept in this one too. But still having issues where to put "kglyphics". Hmm.

Fundamental Thinking; Reality as a Design

2011-09-10T00:15:00.001-04:00

While I take a break from my logo that is apparently due next wednesday not a week from next wednesday (ugh) I'm going to write some reflections based on my thoughts about the whole 2012 fiasco.

I'm not going to go into 'conspiracy theory' all too much but I am going to interpret this significant date according to what I have studied based on design theory and philosophy. Yes.

Its going to be so simple it'll blow your mind away...

All of these thoughts have been cooped up in my head since the release of the 2009 movie, 2012 (which I never saw). In my opinion all these theoretical physicists that talk about 2012 are only getting half of it right and most of it is just BS.

And so we begin ---

In my mind, this reality is a design. And to understand design we must define it. The definition of Design means to intensify an already existing message. If reality is a design, reality must have a message. Design, all types of design, contain a set group of principles that can be applied to -all- design disciplines. Principles such as; unity, contrast, balance, movement, proportion, emphasis, and finally space. But how can the designer apply these principles to Nature (the physical and spiritual)? Very Simply.

The designer must understand the timeless commandment, "And so above and so below and so below, as above." When this is completely accepted and understood it can be transformative. In order to understand the Universe, which I define as One Song (Uni = one, verse = song), we need to understand what it means to be ONE; to be unified, to be unified does not mean to be civilized. In order to be one, we must be divided, and in order to be divided we must be one.

"But that's contradictory," you say.

Exactly. The second principle of the universe (or design) is contrast, otherwise known as dualism. Like I said earlier; in order to be one, we must be divided, and in order to be divided we must be one. 1 cannot exist without 2 since 2 contains opposing (but sometimes attracting) polarities. These opposing polarities when attracted to each other they become a part of the whole. For example, in a work of art, there is often positive space and negative space that make up the whole composition and make it unified.

After reading about how there are only two emotions inexistence: fear and love and reading about how energy is consistent andessentially all energy is the same, I had conjured up this equation:

[A+ B-] / [b- a+]

Where [A+ B-] refers to everything in the macro universe and[b- a+]refers to everything in the micro universe. The midsection indicated as ‘ / ’ is where everything commingles. This equation can be applied to prettymuch everything and thus got its name, “The Equation of Life”.

[A+ B-] / [b- a+]

can also be written as:

space-time [A+] time-space [B-] / time-space[b-] space-time [a+]

Dark [A+] Light [B-] / light[b-] dark [a+]

Space-time has these characteristics: positive, balls(particles), illusions, dark physicality

Time-space has these characteristics: negative, waves, lightand consciousness (infinity).

The dark side [space-time]is visible, charming and appealing, just showing the beauty of the visibleuniverse, only 4% of the universal mass.

The light side [time-space] isharmony. It conducts the nuclear dance of both visible and invisible universes;it is the only force that links them all. It is provoking an invisible alchemy.

So physical reality, the explosive world, would be characterized as [A+ B-]

The spiritual reality, the implosive world, would be characterized as [b- a+]

So let's consider this equation, that was written to help us visualize this world, and apply it to the end of the world scenario.

First, before we continue, lets discuss movement as that is the next principle of design. The artistic definition of movement is; the arrangement of parts that draws the eye through the composition.

However, to better understand movement as a design principle lets put an addendum; Movementor motion creates the illusion of time and therefore change. The Law ofMotion changes not, but all things change in motion. For motion is the force that holds events separate,each in its own proper place.

To put it simply; if we stop time... we end motion, which creates the illusion of time and thus we will propel ourselves into infinity and beyond...

British philosopher, Aleister Crowley stated clearly, “Man will no longer worship God as an external factor, as in Paganism, or as an internal state of consciousness, as in Christianity, but will realize his identity with God.” Thusly, the end of the world scenario is the end of the dualistic approach to life. The end of the human frontier... because once we become ONE with 'God' we will be unified.

You exist, but at the same time you do not.
You're awake, but at the same time you are not.
God is man. While at the same time Man is God.

So what's the end of duality? The beginning of infinity, of unity, or a complete composition. Instead of a reality containing of harmonic proportions created by duality we will have a monochord, one vibration that will vibrate within all of us.

(to be continued)

Brand Identity Research

2011-09-05T15:46:00.001-04:00

So I've been doing quite a bit of research on brands and identities and found a lot of great examples on Designspiration.net and Deviantart.com... I even have a comp going.. and now am looking for ways to incorporate the text while keeping the unity and balance it currently has.

I'm basing it off the 'philosophical geometry of a light beam'.

But instead of making it a rainbow I'm making it CMYK and leaving a few things out...

I'm now looking at "Seal Logos" to see how I can better incorporate the text; "K Glyphics".

The logo now has a great sense of unity and balance and I want to preserve that.

Not sure how ancient this will look at the end, but I like the direction that it is going in.

Logos I found that are similar to mine...

The following brand identity has been a big inspiration for mine. Its Pentagram's NYU Abu Dhabi brand identity.

Here's what the current comp may look like on a business card:

Bad drama is bad

2011-09-04T22:55:00.000-04:00

(for those who aren't aware of EVP and RS this may seem confusing and this post is in general for my purposes only)

I'm gonna stop research for awhile.
I was in a really bad internet drama over the weekend and its made me rethink some things.
I was officially banned from the EVP and RS forum because of posting a prediction of the future done by Aleister Crowley and mentioning Aleister Crowley. WHO is a philosopher by the way and not a satanist. The church declared him one... he may have dabbled in black arts, but he was more of a philosopher than anything else.

I posted the following:

“In the Aeon of Horus the dualistic approach to religion will be transcended through the abolition of the present notion of a God external to oneself. The two will be united. “Man will no longer worship God as an external factor, as in Paganism, or as an internal state of consciousness, as in Christianity, but will realize his identity with God.” The new Aeon of Horus, based on the union of the male and female polarities, will involve the magical use of semen and ecstasy, culminating in an apotheosis of matter – “in the realization of the old Gnostic notion that matter is not dual but one with the Spirit” — symbolized by the androgynous Baphomet of the Templars and the Illuminati.”

Basically with RS and EVP they claim that they know what's happening behind the veil (yes in the spirit world). So they believe they are basically speaking to spirits, and such who give them information based on the current situation on earth, and why we are here, etc. and that this information comes from the Universal Mind/God. They basically would take a current event, reverse it and analyze it. I have done a fair share of RSing and do respect its ideals and how its used. And its also been scientifically documented as a true phenomena as well (they don't say that its from the Universal Mind/God but they do state that RS is a legitimate phenomena of speech, that when we reversed recorded speech there will be phrases and recognizable things that we do not hear in forward speech).

And they claim that the apocalypse will be an apotheosis which will reunite man with god as one entity, making man apart of god.

However, the way the forum was administered pissed me off.

First, I'd post lots of work regarding my reversals, mixing some mysticism, and my own interpretations in them. And then I wouldn't get any responses for days on end on my posts from the community and the community would get upset because I just wanted a little feedback/acknowledgement for the work I did, otherwise the way I saw it, why bother doing it if no one is appreciating it??

Secondly, I don't care whether something appears good or evil as I don't personally believe that good and evil exist. I upset a lot of members when I said the Reptillians, the ones who've been causing much of the war and pain here on earth, I said that the Reptillians weren't evil.. because I don't believe in good and evil because in order to be "united" you need Dualism... yes I did just contradict myself, but that's Dualism in action... Its just my way of accepting similarities and differences. Most of the members disagreed with me... they said they were the Epitome of Evil. That they should express hate towards them. I said that in order to heal and move on we should accept the Reptillians for what they've done and forgive them. Sure they've tortured us and done everything they could possibly think of to make our lives terrible and a nightmare to live in. But... producing hate, and expressing it towards any entity doesn't do anything or anyone good. It won't help us heal at all.

That was the first time I think I really affected my reputation there...

In general the mod that banned me said that I was bringing up old drama and BS that they covered a long time ago... well I'm sorry, I don't have time to read the 500 page + archive. Please point me in the right direction where those Reversals are listed, I'll be happy to read them. They never did.

They also said that I appeared "lonely and unstable" in my posts and that my posts made a lot of the members uncomfortable. I apparently also brought stress and other unnecessary behind-the-scene drama that they apparently didn't want to deal with anymore.

I apparently offended the mod who banned me so much that she continued to make assumptions about how I spoke to her in emails.

I may have cussed twice at her because I was upset.
I may have not used proper grammar because I was upset.
And through this she assumed that I:
-Smoked (I don't, I have respiratory problems)
-Took medication (I dont)
and assumed a lot of other things that I obviously don't do just because I didn't use proper grammar and posted BS about our so-called ancient past and such and that I didn't seem to take a hint (well if I'm making a mistake perhaps you should tell me?).

I had only been there for three-four months and that's a relatively new member... to that forum at least

I don't have access to the messages anymore but the way she wrote and treated me in her messages was absolutely disgusting.

I had never been hurt so much by someone from the internet. I usually don't CARE if I get into internet drama. But if it gets personal like this one did, then it starts to hurt.

Because my research is relatively close to me and its something I enjoy doing when I have the time.

That's why I came to EVP and RS because it reflected my research really well.
Well, I guess this is an end of an era... a very short era. I probably won't be doing much RSing now, just because I don't have a community that will look at the work that I've done. But now I do have their insight about the physical world and our purpose here. That's something to take away, definitely.

In my opinion, I have done nothing wrong. The actions of the administrator was unjust and made me completely loose faith in RS and EVP (or at least the information that was being offered, not the phenomena itself).

It just saddens me that it had to end like this.

But its made me rethink my research a bit.
It seems lately, all I've been doing is offending people.
Which isn't getting anywhere with my mission in trying to enlighten people.
I understand that truth is often denied first before it is accepted. But this is getting ridiculous.

I'm pretty much over it now. But a lot of the hurt I think I've been experiencing is from shock.

2 More

2011-09-04T01:36:00.000-04:00

Thanks to jackster28 and "Jerome" for following me!

Note to visitors: in order to see my archive you need to be a member of Blogger and "follow" me. =)

O, to become a Star

2011-09-04T01:20:00.002-04:00

Every little girl (and boy) dreams of becoming a star. To be in the spotlight, to be famous and known for your talent(s) and to be recognized; to have fame and a huge fortune. This all sounds great, especially for life in the physical world. Has it occurred to anyone, however, that the famous are actually a 'top' secret club that is extremely sinister on the inside? Has it ever occurred to you that some of the humanitarian songs and activities that the celebrities do is just for show? To hide the REAL person? Duality is something that everyone should take seriously into consideration; you'll learn that when something SEEMS positive on the outside, may actually be extremely sinister on the inside. Its also called the concept of balance, the asymmetrical built of the Universe... and the best example of all of this is the Sirius constellation.

May 23, 2011 I wrote about the connection of the Sirius mystery to Human history. Which goes into detail about the symbolism regarding this star and its appearance in our society. The biggest piece of information to be learnt about this constellation is that it contains a companion star, Sirius Star A and Sirius Star B:

The triangle is a highly symbolic symbol in today's society and the Sirius Star located around it/in the middle may in fact be the origin of the "All-Seeing Eye" or the Eye of Horus:

On the US seal, the Eye is surrounded by the words Annuit Cœptis, meaning "He approves (or has approved) [our] undertakings", and Novus Ordo Seclorum, meaning "New Order of the Ages". The Eye is positioned above an unfinished pyramid with thirteen steps, representing the original thirteen states and the future growth of the country. The lowest level of the pyramid shows the year 1776 in Roman numerals. The combined implication is that the Eye, or God, favors the prosperity of the United States. Novus Ordo Seclorum is actually from a prophecy.

"Novus Ordo Seclorum is a quotation from the 4th Ecolque and was borrowed in turn by Virgil from the mystic Sibylline records." - Charles A.L. Totten‎

"A mighty order of ages is born anew. Both the prophetic Virgin and Saturnian kingdoms now return. Now a new progeny is let down from the lofty heavens... The Boy soon to be born in whom the iron age shall come to an end, and the golden one shall arise again in the whole earth."‎

"Whatso tracks remain of our old wickedness, once done away, shall free the earth from never-ceasing fear. He shall receive the life of gods, and see heroes with gods commingling, and himself be seen of them."

"And with his father's worth reign o'er a world at peace."

The Age of Horus was predicted by Aleister Crowley, an occult practitioner, who had been extremely influential to the music industry:

the Aeon of Horus the dualistic approach to religion will be transcended through the abolition of the present notion of a God external to oneself. The two will be united. “Man will no longer worship God as an external factor, as in Paganism, or as an internal state of consciousness, as in Christianity, but will realize his identity with God.” The new Aeon of Horus, based on the union of the male and female polarities, will involve the magical use of semen and ecstasy, culminating in an apotheosis of matter – “in the realization of the old Gnostic notion that matter is not dual but one with the Spirit” — symbolized by the androgynous Baphomet of the Templars and the Illuminati.

My thoughts of the Illuminati and BS that's been going around: I understand why everything about them seems mysterious, wrong, and sinister. Just plain evil, etc. But how can we assume that they are? What if they created that image of themselves just to deceive us even more? You can't be certain that this group is evil... just because they are doing things out of the norm they aren't evil. What if they are preparing us for the BIG event that will happen in the future? What if they will become our teachers?

Just because the Illuminati make themselves appear evil because they are breaking down our society as we know it to form a One World Government... doesn't mean they are. We are used to the current world and anyone going against it is deemed "evil"...

No one is certain that they are evil, and yes sometimes the imagery and symbolism may be evil, but like all Duality, whatever appears EVIL may actually be GOOD and whatever APPEARS to be GOOD may actually be EVIL.

Duality is huge in my life, my clairvoyance is based off of it... like whatever appears in my mind as the total and final outcome of something... it ends up as the complete opposite even if my gut and intuition says so...

Like for example, over the summer I was trying to take out the air conditioner at my summer house and it fell out of the window. I got injured pretty badly, and didn't even notice until I was outside. I was balling my eyes out and all I could think of was the air conditioner on the ground in pieces... but as soon as I turned around the corner, it wasn't. It was lying a on pile of dead leaves, protected.

Just because something goes through your mind and that you are absolutely sure of it, doesn't mean that it is true. Just because the symbolisms that we see in society may be evil, their Ultimate meanings may actually not be what we think they are.

“Had! The manifestation of Nuit.

The unveiling of the company of heaven.

Every man and woman is a star.

Every number is infinite; there is no difference.

Help me, o warrior lord of Thebes, in my unveiling before the Children of men!”

- The opening lines of the Book of the Law

I do beLIEve that evil exists but at the same time (a big surprise here) I don't. Because of the concept of Duality.... in order to be ONE you need TWO.

Jesus said in the Gospel of Thomas; "On the day when you were one, you became two. But when you become two, what will you do?"

smh

School Begins

2011-09-03T15:59:00.000-04:00

First party of the year last night. Went really well... my first 'party' that I hosted too.People came and went and then some stayed. There wasn't a whole lot, but there was definitely a crowd of people. We definitely had enough to last the entire night. Was a long night for me though. At 5:30 pm I went up to the North campus and had dinner with some people and then a few of us left to get the booze and juices. And the night ended at 2:30 am... and probably went to bed around 4 am. Its okay though I slept late that day. Ended up with two cases of lion's head and a handle of Rum. Also bought a medium sized bottle of Raspberry smirnoff for my room. Why am I obsessed with Raspberry flavor?!It was a good turn out for a last minute party I think. Wish I could have figured out music somehow. But the last time I let people share my stuff it was stolen, so I'm not letting anyone share anything anymore.I definitely saw most the people I wanted to see that I hadn't seen in a long time. This first week went well too. Still can't really get over that my two design profs that know me really well, suddenly decided to leave campus my senior year. So the one that they replaced doesn't know me or my work at all.Kind of important that your design profs that you've had all the time and would have had senior year know you...Its just hard to get over cause I liked them both a lot and it was for certain that they'd both be teaching at registration until the summer and it all changed... =/Shit happens I guess.The current song I'm obsessing over is "Gucci Gucci" by Kreayshawn. I usually don't listen to a lot of rap. But I like the sound of this song.

Things Fall Apart

2011-08-31T23:48:00.001-04:00

Story of my life right now..

Its hard to remember this, especially when nothing in your life seems to stay together.

Facebook Page

2011-08-30T22:59:00.003-04:00

If you support me, my philosophy and artwork you should check out my facebook page!

http://www.facebook.com/pages/K-Glyphics/219427194737258

I post things relating to the Philosophy of (Graphic) Design and how it relates to nature.

Living A Simple Life

2011-08-28T23:57:00.003-04:00

So, I realized I am someone who plans ahead in their head a lot. Sometimes its beneficial to me, sometimes -mostly- its not. A majority of this 'planning' is dreaming.

However, I hope to live a simple life. I know how complicated life can get. But for me, I see that it does not take much to live a simple, elegant life.

I am also frustrated because I can't do much now. Since I'm about to graduate college (in four months) I've been at my parents house, and they'll question my every move. I know that they are trying to show that they care and are interested in me... but questioning my every move does not coincide with my personality. I like to plan in secret and not really share a lot of my ideas. If I think the idea would be beneficial to someone I'll share it.

So proposing this Vardo living situation is going to be interesting. I have to explain, and give my reasons as to why I want to live this way.

I may even just save up secretly and purchase the trolley secretly until I'm ready to do some serious work on it.
We'll see. I just don't like having my motives questioned. Because I feel like I'm not on my own when my motives are questioned. I feel like I have to report to a manager whenever I want to do something with my life, and that's NOT how I want to live...

Back at College

2011-08-27T21:33:00.003-04:00

Amazing to think I am back a school.

I finished move in around 2, and spent around a half hour getting food.
Parents left, and then I spent around 2 and a half hours organizing and unpacking.
After, I relaxed had a smirnoff and then took a four hour nap.

Most of the suitemates so far seem to be okay. There is a social group however that already exists so I think it might be hard to get to know them, but one of them (who is in the group but not in the suite) knows me.... so maybe it won't be so bad. But when we were in the kitchen I felt kinda ignored =/ oh well.... I don't really care if they are mean to me or open to me or not because I won't be here all year... I'm hoping to graduate in the winter.

I woke up from my nap not feeling too hot. I feel like I have a head cold coming down and I'm kinda sick to my stomach... but I'm going to go to bed soon and hopefully in the morning I'll be better. After all before my nap (around 6) I had been up SINCE 6 am.

I think I was just exhausted and heat exhausted.

Anyway, here is my reading for this semester:

Tarot

1. Seven of Coins

Card of Crossroads.

assessing
evaluating the status
reflecting on progress to date
reviewing what's been done
pausing to check results
making sure you're on course
finding out where you stand
taking stock
reaping a reward
finally seeing some results
enjoying the first fruits
getting returns on investments
receiving payoffs
being able to let up a bit
reaching a milestone
considering a direction change
weighing a different approach
pondering alternatives
thinking about change
opening to a new strategy
questioning your choices
standing at a crossroads

2. Four of Swords

Card of Rest

resting
taking a break
giving your body time to heal
avoiding overexertion
finding peace and quiet
relaxing body and soul
taking life easy
contemplating
gaining a better perspective
listening for your Inner Voice
taking time alone to think
standing back from the situation
examining your motivations
reviewing where you are
quietly preparing
consolidating inner resources
making sure your base is secure
getting ready for the future
coming to terms with what is
tieing up loose ends
stabilizing

3. Ten of Coins

Card of Permanence

enjoying affluence
having material abundance
being free from money problems
enjoying business success
feeling financially secure
seeing your ventures flourish
having a run of good fortune
seeking permanence
looking for a solution that will last
creating a lasting foundation
feeling secure as things are
being concerned with the long-term
having an orderly family life
moving beyond makeshift arrangements
nailing down the plan
following convention
staying within established guidelines
proceeding according to the rules
taking part in traditions
becoming part of the Establishment
being conservative
trusting in the tried-and-true
continuing in known patterns

Runes

Uruz: (U: Auroch, a wild ox.) Physical strength and speed, untamed potential. A time of great energy and health. Freedom, energy, action, courage, strength, tenacity, understanding, wisdom. Sudden or unexpected changes (usually for the better). Sexual desire, masculine potency. The shaping of power and pattern, formulation of the self.

Sowilo: (S: The sun.) Success, goals achieved, honor. The life-force, health. A time when power will be available to you for positive changes in your life, victory, health, and success. Contact between the higher self and the unconscious. Wholeness, power, elemental force, sword of flame, cleansing fire.

Ansuz: (A: The As, ancestral god, i.e. Odin.) A revealing message or insight, communication. Signals, inspiration, enthusiasm, speech, true vision, power of words and naming. Blessings, the taking of advice. Good health, harmony, truth, wisdom.

Music Videos as a Cover for Magick Rituals

2011-08-27T00:06:00.003-04:00

Ever since my search for lost scientific meanings behind ancient symbolism (from all sides) I was led to this site: Vigilantcitizen.com. It focuses on decoding today's pop cultural symbols to reveal an astonishing reality.

Many music records, such as Columbian Records, appear to be apart of a secret society that uses black magick to gain success, fame and fortune by sacrificing the entertainer's soul (yes). Studying symbolism has also taught me about balance... the universe is built asymmetrically and there cannot be one side to something. Good and Evil do not exist, it depends on how YOU intentionally use it. Good and Evil are the EFFECT and not the cause, the cause is you and how your actions create the EFFECT.

You are the CAUSER to the EFFECT which can be Good or Evil.

Whatever APPEARS to be of Good intention (no matter how your gut feels that its Good intention) it may in fact be BAD.

Its said that symbolism is the first veil. The initiate or student of mysteries begins his path with this most important tool. With an understanding of this symbolism the old wisdom is revealed. - Magical Egypt - The Invisible Science.

Symbolism is the language of Magic - Egyptian Mystery Schools.

A majority of the celebrities today focus on giving to charity, doing volunteer work, giving back to the public, etc. Have you ever thought that all of this is just for show? They -are- entertainers after all...

So of all places where would the BEST place to hide a secret dark magick ritual?

Out in the public in form of entertainment.

By including the necessary symbols from the ritual handbooks into the music video, I'm sure it'll be the same thing. What religious ritual has NOT included music?

By putting it into entertainment and the public isn't educated in the real meaning of the symbols, as said by Adam Weishaupt,

"...the public is accustomed to it, expects little from it, and therefore takes little notice of it. "

A perfect formula for the public. The logical thinking that came from the so-called "Enlightenment" era was created as a cover; Dorinda Outram, a historian, provides an intellectual definition of the Enlightenment,

Enlightenment was a desire for human affairs to be guided by rationality rather than by faith, superstition, or revelation; a belief in the power of human reason to change society and liberate the individual from the restraints of custom or arbitrary authority; all backed up by a world view increasingly validated by science rather than by religion or tradition.

Back to school list

2011-08-26T14:01:00.004-04:00

Stuff I have to do as soon as I get back.

Print out Daffodil Day Sign

~~Email Kelly~~
Pick P.E Classes

~~Email contact from Music Department about logo and map~~

Studio South Meeting

Organize Studio South Day

Organize Portfolio Chat

Summer list check off

2011-08-26T11:58:00.006-04:00

Since its the end of summer I thought I'd go back to the list I made at the beginning of the summer...

~~Take french classes so I can graduate this winter~~

Find a Job

If no job, take a class in motion graphics

Get a significant head start on my book.

~~Spend time at the new Cape house~~

Use up a significant amount of my Jewelry supplies

Possibly sell what I make at Wellfleet Flea Market (down at the Cape close to the Cape house)

~~Take a lot of photos~~ (could definitely take more though)

~~Try and define a new exercise routine~~

Be motivated enough to craft, and produce some ideas I have in my head regarding projects

I did exercise a lot more than I used to and I haven't been to the gym in three weeks because of vacation and packing for school. But at school I plan on continuing to exercise.

Find a Job

If no job, take a class in motion graphics

Get a significant head start on my book.

Use up a significant amount of my Jewelry supplies

Possibly sell what I make at Wellfleet Flea Market (down at the Cape close to the Cape house)

Be motivated enough to craft, and produce some ideas I have in my head regarding projects

Four out of 10 goals, not bad! Although a lot of it seemed to just naturally happen. =/

Time to make a list for fall...

Beggars

2011-08-26T01:55:00.006-04:00

Whelp. I am %95 packed. There are a few things around my room I need to look at, but everything else... all packed.

Can't believe summer is officially over. Phew. Didn't think I'll see the day... always say that.

Anyway today was interesting.
I had lunch with a good friend of mine from high school who went to Caltech and just finished. She's starting Graduate school at MIT this fall. We met a California Pizza Kitchen. I had a chicken sandwich with herb and onion bread, lettuce, avocado and bacon. Delicious.

I then left for dick blicks and I got there okay. I found what I needed okay. Mounting board was on sale!! Buy 2 get one free... so I bought 4 and got 2 free. I also got copper etching solution since I have a project in mind and the solution is hard to get, and paper binding compound to make my own pads of paper.

I used up a gift card I had from my birthday. I also didn't have to pay for parking!! Awesome.

I had an interesting experience today though. I am completely aware of the number of homeless people and the beggars out in between the streets holding a signs, etc. but I never had anyone come up to me and INTENTIONALLY beg... I was walking back to my car an african american woman came up to me, less than five inches from my face looked directly in my eyes and told me that she appreciated how nice I was to her and told me a sob story and begged for money. I told her that I was an unemployed art student who doesn't earn much. Then she proceeded to ask if I could buy her a cup of coffee, and I told her -again- that I was an unemployed art student who didn't have much to give, I only had enough money left to finish my errands for the rest of the day.

Ironically enough all what was going on through my mind was the CBS series about Hunger in America, and synchronistically that same series was on again tonight.

I decided to RS this because I took it as a "sign" something to make me pay attention.

Below is the content from the reversal. F is Forward and R is reverse. Everything in parentheses was not in the original recording but the people on the other side intercepted and changed. Sound goes through many materials, and here it can pick up sounds on the other side of the veil or mind. We are getting information from the Universal Mind, the part of our brains that we've been shut off that we can't use. This mysticism is based on the fact that reality is indeed a mirror, a hologram.

F: (come here... working.) (Mouth) There's a woman today (big net) Um (this is it) that begged for money (it begged for monies). um and, it got me thinking, because it has never happened to me and I kinda wished that I could help her but I didn't (hide) personally have any money left. (seen bigger) uh was there anything about this that's trying to teach me? because if so.... (odd). (He'll be great)(you forgot a mug) that moment in time. (it was trying to get me to see). And (follows also interesting) that um, they're continuing the "hunger in america" series tonight on TV. So, (she's living in the ghetto, hunger) and, um synchronistically too. (Wish, out backwards, wait) (so many beggars) this never really been apart of my life. Um, so yah.
Sound file: http://www.kglyphics.com/music/reversals/forwardbeggar.wav

R: Hi wuss. Monies, whatever. Eric's nephilim. The One's sick. Sees that ghost. Give to that black sheep. Goust/Ghost, nervous. So nervous, Ma. Derma, Mary Louise. Whose the wuss. He's lost to Ma. Fan of Seers. Dad's scaring my mother, give them a hug. Whose Niddle. Month. Have the instruments, has arrived. Knife. Yes. Urbian hut. Her net is too calm. Mars, eaten Mom. Dad, they're bargin. Worst defeat. They're evil. Wha... Wars Sphinx. They're keep/lucky. Who just lost. Pfft its certain. Darkness/Darkening, the earth's tilt. Mop. Air bubbles clogging around Nib. Right in the blizzard, Pria. You missed, the owl. Dells', Darpa/Derpa. The couch. Hopeful eyes, piss me off. Snake. Needs me, pack my meds. Circuit. Circle. His nephew, Husband's good. Mexico, its the Nemesis.
Sound file: http://www.kglyphics.com/music/reversals/reversebeggar.wav

I'm not sure what the RS community has to say about this, but I find the reversals intriguing.

Cable Car Concepts

2011-08-24T15:03:00.003-04:00

So I've been emailing Cable Car Concepts to see what it would take to 'gut' and transform a used vehicle to what I have in mind. A brand new vehicle would be $100,000 which would be as much as a small house ... so they also suggested that I'd buy a used vehicle for $34,000 and then their deal would be to drop the price to $25,000 and have it be under my budget $30,000. Which would leave $5,000 to put the electrical and water systems in. They would also 'gut' it for me and take out the benches. Also the used vehicle is stationed in NJ which isn't a very far from Boston or Pennsylvania.

Makes me wish I had $30,000 now.

Working for a year at a decent job (25 hrs a week, for 25/hr) I would be ready in a year (260 days x $625 = 162,500). BUT if I was working 25 hrs a week at $15 (260 x $375 = $975,000) so I would still be ready in a year if I was working entry level as a graphic designer living at home. I plan to live at home for a year, unless I find someone to room with.

Linkage 01

2011-08-24T03:34:00.003-04:00

So I thought it would be fun to post the websites who have linked me. I think its fun to see who sources me or links back to me. I've been getting a lot of traffic recently and wondered where it was coming from:

- Goldenmean.info (site alone gets like 2,000,000 mil views)
- LittleGuyInTheEye sourced me
- directorblue
- on the comment "Further"
- Before its news!!

Thanks to all who've been linking my site! :)

Portfolio Gallery

2011-08-24T02:44:00.004-04:00

PHEW!

I finally uploaded ALL my work from college and client to my new portfolio gallery. I am using Zenphoto and I LOVE it! I totally recommend using it for a gallery managing system. It was relatively easy to set up and it makes it a lot easier to upload images without having to deal with code! Amazing. It utilizes MYSQL database and PHP so make sure your domain can support that. You can also upload .zips and .mov, .mp3 and .mp4. Yippie.

Its totally customizable too. I just figured out the PHP structure of the site and figured out the basic structure of the layout theme and CSS and just put my own CSS into the style.css file and assigned the right labels to the right divs, etc and done!

Def recommend it.

East Coast Earthquake: Mineral, Virgina

2011-08-23T17:07:00.004-04:00

Above image is a google earth earthquake radar.

Ever since May, 25, 2011 when I wrote about the New Madrid Line being affected which could possibly produce aftershocks all the way to the east coast if affected badly, I've been half expecting an earthquake on the east coast. While this earthquake wasn't on the New Madrid line, a HAARP ring WAS detected there. The earthquake happened on an old unseductive cratonic ( craton is the stable portion of a continent) plate. AND we thought earthquakes only happened on tectonic plates...

"The key to geophysical warfare is the identification of environmental instabilities to which the addition of a small amount of energy would release vastly greater amounts of energy." - Professor Gordon J.F. MacDonald.

Notice in the image above, the Low points showcase severe thunderstorms and bad weather and the high points have relatively nice weather. On the east coast especially, where the earthquake happened. There is absolutely no evidence of rain.

The weather instability was in the North-midwest where we see in the HAARP ring video. We see it over Bismarck, Rapid City, Sioux Falls, etc. All HAARP needs to do it put a small amount of energy into the instability and then in effect it creates a large amount of energy which in effect would cause the earthquake out in Colorado and that is why we also see the HAARP there.

Global Air Circulation and Air Pressure At the Surface

equatorial areas receive more insolation than higher latitudes
excess heat transported toward poles
air rises (adiabatically) at the equator (leaving a low pressure system at the surface); adiabatically rising air cools; can hold less moisture, water vapor condenses and eventually rains down -> rain forest
air sinks (adiabatically) near the poles (creating a high pressure system at the surface); adiabatically sinking air warms; can hold more moisture -> extremely dry climate (Antarctica is driest place on Earth)
Earth's spin deflects moving air (see Lecture 15). This leads to additional low- and high-pressure belts at the surface:
high pressure at 30o latitude: air sinks and heats adiabatically; captures moisture, therefore it rains more rarely -> deserts
low pressure near 60o adiabatically rising air cools; can hold less moisture, water vapor condenses and eventually rains down

Source: http://quakeinfo.ucsd.edu/~gabi/sio15/Lecture15.html

Numerical values according to the date of today:

8/23/11

8 - Qabbalistic number for total control
23 - 2012 = 20+1+2= 23. 2+3 =5

5... lots of meanings for 5; first of all 5 is the pentagram.

Note: Note trying to prove anything, just writing down some notes of what I've seen and heard.

LiveLeak.com - Cloud falls out of sky onto ground in UAE

2011-08-21T01:45:00.001-04:00

LiveLeak.com - Cloud falls out of sky onto ground in UAE

I also had to post this.

This is absolutely real and not fake.

It brought me tears.

Why?

What makes man animated?

His consciousness!!!

That cloud had consciousness!!

Nature will be more like this as we slowly transition into the long awaited Golden Age!

DIY Cotton Candy Machine

2011-08-21T01:12:00.004-04:00

So using the process above one can make their very own cotton candy machine.

I then thought perhaps a dollar store handheld fan would be a perfect motor:

Take off the blades of the fan and then take an aluminum can and poke holes into it using an awl, or a drill if its something thicker. It doesn't need to be thicker.

Find a plastic bowl that you can use as a container to catch the spun sugar. Most manufactured machines come with a heater, but for DIY machines you don't have to have a heater, just have the apparatus by a stove and melt your sugar in a bowl on the stove and then pour it into the holey container.

Attach the fan holder to a piece of cardboard and test your apparatus!

Oh what glorious centrifugal force brings us! :D

PS: If you buy tonic water and add a little bit of it to the melted sugary mess you might be able to get glowing cotton candy. Tonic water has quinine in it which glows under a black light.

(I hope my mom has her black light bulb still)

When Free Stuff Becomes an Addiction

2011-08-20T13:07:00.003-04:00

I love my mom, and while we don't get along often on emotional, spiritual and personal values, we often agree and like certain physical and material values. However, the one thing I am concerned with is her ever-growing addiction with Free Stuff.

I grew up in a wealthy town and in our town we have a recycling center and a place where you can drop off stuff that is in fairly good condition but isn't quite trash. It's called "Take it or leave it". You don't have to bring something to replace what you take, so you can take as much or as few items you want. I usually look for things that I can reuse and repurpose or use in my artwork and my mom usually looks for ... things. Being in a wealthy town people here throw away designer items that they don't want anymore. There is a lot of furniture and other items in really good condition so I can see why it may be addicting to pick up free stuff.

But she has taken to saying, "I love the price." Free.

That bothers me... especially when she said that she loved the price of the vegetables from my Dad's garden - Free. My Dad, rightly so, said, "They aren't free, I bust my ass at the garden."

We were just at the Brewster farmers' market and it was small and overpriced. But I'm sure it was over priced because you get what you pay for. She's used to cheaper, less fresh vegetables from the supermarket and "free" vegetables from my dad.

It just bothers me when she says, "I love the price." It is distortion to the max. She loves discounted places like Building 19 where you can get left over stock from department stores at a discounted price. Sometimes this is a good deal, but a lot of it is just JUNK. Worthless, poorly made JUNK.

I never liked "Take it or Leave it" because it made me feel poorer than I actually was and my family and I are not poor, but we are not extremely wealthy either, just a little above average.

I don't want to assume anything, but I think I saw my mom shoplift a couple of times. One time we were at this touristy shell shop in Provincetown a couple of years ago and she liked this shell ring I had been wearing. I urged her to buy one herself, and then she decided no and I thought she put it back. Then a week or so later at home, I see it sitting on our stereo system.

The other time, it was winter and we were at AC Moore and as I was in the front seat of the car and looked back to see what was taking my mom so long to get into the drivers' seat, I saw her empty a dozen or so refrigerator photo magnets from UNDER her winter coat. I was too shocked to say anything. I have never brought this up or confronted her. I have never seen anymore incidents at all... but I'm worried that her free stuff addiction might lead into more shoplifting as she gets older.

Knowledge Files

2011-08-20T00:38:00.003-04:00

Ever wanted to know what is truly going on in this world? Why the war, hate, occult, mysticism and apparent mind control?

Go to Knowledge Files.com for all the latest books on these subjects. Full books available for free.

Be Knowledgeable, Be vigilant and don't be a sheep.

"The difference between stupidity and ignorance is that you can teach an ignorant person." - Alias Grace, by Margaret Atwood

I have no affiliation with this website.

Budding Project: Portfolio Chat

2011-08-19T23:07:00.003-04:00

So I contacted RYAN McGOVERN from Design Chat to see if I could do a partnership with them for a Portfolio Chat. I suggested awhile ago that they do that, but I figured since it'll be easier if I just hosted it myself, I said what the heck!

It's just in the mere planning stages. I don't even know when I'll be hosting this, but it would be like Design Chat if you ever been there but portfolio based. People will submit portfolios to be critiqued and we'll have a designer/firm to be invited to do a critique.

Should be a hit I think. And hour to an hour and a half I think.

If you'd like to be notified about this, please leave your email in the comments :D

Once correspondence happens, I'll let you know when things have settled of course!

Perfect Day

2011-08-19T20:22:00.002-04:00

Today was perfect.
I need to blog more when these days happen.

Woke up at 11, finished breakfast at noon.
Went to the beach until 3:30 pm. The water was so warm it was lukewarm, bath water temp.
It was wavy too, so fun.
Had lunch and then got an orange creamiscle from the Ice Cream Man.

Came home, took a shower chillaxed and enjoyed our deck.
Had dinner late of muscles, steamer clams, pesto spaghetti, garlic bread, home grown summer squash and tomatoes. After dinner, we heard two owls on a property. Never heard them before now and we've been coming here since the end of June.

Perfect. MMmmm.

Myths and Storytelling

2011-08-18T18:10:00.004-04:00

I was reading my book,

Sacred Sounds

by Ted Andrews, today on the beach when I came across a chapter that talks about myths, mystical teachings and storytelling. My head was going, YES YES YES!!! all excitedly, because that's what a huge part of my research is, rediscovering the art of symbology and how it connected to the esotericism in myths and folklore.

Someone else published what I thought I had only seen. Apparently a mystic storyteller was a bard, who was able to carry on the mystical teachings and put them into story format that the public was able to accept. If they didn't know they were mystical teachings, then the wisdom would be kept but the mystique might be lost.

Which brings me to conclude how I believe Science-fiction, fantasy and other 'otherwordly' stories of our time, may in fact be very real. That the author was taping into the Universal Mind and pulled its teachings forward to create the story. So before chucking a story away that may appear to be far fetched, study it and analyze its contents. What teaching may be contained within it or a moral or something that is supposed to enlighten the public.

I'd like to take this practice further and see how I can incorporate a story format into my design work as well as my life in general. i think that would be cool.

Naive Compassion

2011-08-17T20:18:00.002-04:00

This is a post that may sound whiney, and uncompassionate and really negative, but this is my blog and I need to post this.

You cannot understand this world without diving into the negativity. If you go about your daily basis, believing in a God who will answer every prayer, give you all you want, and if you serve HIM and show unconditional love, you will not get far in helping people. Serving at homeless shelters, and other volunteer places, will not get you anywhere either. Don't do it out of "faith", because the world needs it, do it because deep down, you feel you OUGHT to.

Before anyone says I'm a naysayer towards monotheism, I believe in One God, but I see HIM as a Universal Mind. I see us also as Gods and Goddesses. So yes, everything is absolutely the same.

However, I don't believe in a "Christian God" or "Allah" or "Krishna" or "Yahwah" or "The Great Architect of the Universe" any other name that any other religion uses for the Universal Mind. I use "Father", "Mother" to describe the Universal Mind.

People ask why does there have to be so much negativity, so much poverty, so much homelessness...

The answer is: it brings awareness. It improves the spirit. The spirit cannot function on a Paradise state. It will not grow. This universe is an asymmetrical composition, its' meant to have similarities and differences.

If you cannot learn to accept and see the other side to things, your one-sided spirit will not grow and evolve. It will stay the same, opinionated self. You will not be able to see and use others' opinions to grow and formulate your own opinions.

If you read a lot of poorly written mainstream media articles that are one sided or that fail to give an opinion, you won't learn to think for yourself.

I do not consider myself to be a conspiracy theorist, but I do read into a lot of them. I read what I feel is right. I believe to have been blessed with the ability to see through lies whether they are unintentionally fed to us or not.

I just freaking KNOW! I know that's not enough for some people to deal with. But I don't know how else to describe it.

There -are- reasons for the numerous wars, and famine, and bounteous of natural disasters and the biggest piece of wisdom I have ever learned, was from this RS session.

F: I know a lot about the physical dimension.
R: To know is a lie.

Just because you read everything about something, just because you study what's in front of you and what you study physically before you with your own eyes, it doesn't mean you KNOW. TRULY and UNTHINKABLY just KNOW.

You can't be all loving and compassionate towards those who are struggling, if you don't UNDERSTAND the Law of Duality. If you don't UNDERSTAND the reality we are currently in and being IMPRISONED in.

You won't be able to understand the world, you just won't.

Photos from today: Sunken Meadow, Eastham Ma

2011-08-16T21:38:00.005-04:00

Click to enlarge:

What my Vardo would have, if I had one now.

2011-08-16T17:34:00.003-04:00

Inspiration

So I thought it would be fun to do a round up on the things I've found that I would probably have in my Trolley Vardo if I had one now.

So at some point in the distant future, I'm going to gut an American Trolley and turn it into a mobile "gypsy" home.
I wanted a vardo that included the driver like in the olden days. Usually modern vardos are pulled by cars with a hitch, but mine I want to have the driver included as well. Plus it already looks like a modern vardo. They are usually around $30,000 which is as much as a new car. The cost of fuel adds up to cheap rent if I rented an apartment in a cheap area. If gas was $4.00 and it was 90 gallons, then the fuel would be $360. Plus whatever it costs to park at a trailer park...

In the end I may spend up to $100,000 making it self sufficient. I want it to be solar powered and have a grey water system.

Painting

A painting technique I'll probably do:

Lighting

Loving This style of Lamp
"Edison Lamps"

Lights made from old decanters/bottles. A way to show my bottle collection.

Colors

Color possibilities.

Definitely considering color blocking for it though. I just love white with dots of color.

Furniture

Furniture I'll save up for.

Curtain rods as a room divider.

I love this book case but in no way in hell will I spend $1,298.00 on it. It doesn't look like its worth $1,298.00, but that's Anthropologie for you.

A rain barrel is a must...

Choice of shower head...

Office Space

A reminder that offices don't have to be big

Misc.

Need to find me some of these...

For the outside

Def. need one of these attached to it =)

Catch my planning here: "For the Future Vardo" on Pinterest. Cable Car Concepts is custom trolley company. I requested a quote for one that I had in mind.

New Layout

2011-08-16T02:32:00.003-04:00

Hello! So I redesigned my site, once again. I was getting tired of the teal and orange. The layout is similar but a bit different, I'm currently in the middle of updating the gallery. I'm gonna add something to it that will make project-viewing better.

Well this is refreshing. I know some designers change their website often and some don't. I think I'll be those who change time to time. It keeps things fresh.

And let's all welcome my newest follower, Cameron Myles! Enjoy your stay =3

Dream about 2012

2011-08-11T20:07:00.003-04:00

So today during my nap I had a dream about 2012. It was more of a survival type dream than anything else. It felt very hollywood which is something in itself.

I had people I knew in this dream and will only use the first letter of their name.

----dreamscape----

I was transported to an area of the world that I felt was North Carolina however it was different. The air was cleaner and everything had a slightly bit more ethereal feel. The world looked a lot like it did presently. There were still trees, manicured lawns, houses made out of wood, etc. Post Modern.

I found myself to be standing on a small manicured hill outside a very futuristic looking building. The only description I could give is the Santorini houses in Santorini Greece, the white adobe and organic feel of the buildings. I managed to find myself inside the building and then I was lead to this room that was sealed shut. It actually had a toxic gas coming out of it and I coughed and covered my mouth and backed away.

Then a patron of the place came up to me and asked me if I would like to go in there. The patron said the gas was just for security reasons. The female patron told me that there was an electromagnetically charged vehicle in there in test mode. It was supposed to be able to go into the future and past. I perked up at that, but I had a hard time trusting this patron.

I told her this and the female patron understood. She released the air-tight door that sealed the machine and the door fell to the ground. As soon as she released the door the toxic gas stopped spitting out. The vehicle without warning came quickly toward me. I yelped and jumped out of the way and the patron stood there chuckling. The vehicle slowed to a stop and it was hovering! It looked more like a mobile pad than anything. There was no sealed covering and exposed like a convertible. There was a steal railing all around and only a small box of controls at what appeared to be the front. There was no sign of an exhaust pipe or anything that determined it ran on electromagnetism. The vehicle itself had a metal bottom but was as white as the building it was housed in.

The female patron asked me again if I wanted to test it out. I said yes slowly. She asked me where I would like to go. I noticed now that the female patron was wearing all black, had blond highlights and had a very classic look about her. She neither looked political or looked like a business woman.

I answered her that before I was transported here, there was much talk about the year 2012. She nodded and smiled. However she never said anything about which year it was currently. Then, it never occurred to me to ask her. I said to her I would like to see what will/what happened during that most anticipated year of human history.

The female agreed. She turned off the vehicle and the vehicle slowly descended to the ground. She instructed me to climb in. I did so and she told me to start the vehicle again. The vehicle slowly ascended and started to hover again. I felt a strange sensation through out my body. The female explained that it was the strong electromagnetic pulsing and since I came before the year 2012, my bodies' genetics weren't used to electromagnetism. The female set the time piece to the year 2012 and hit enter.

Suddenly I found myself in a very different world. It was still earth, but it wasn't the clean, pristine world I had came from. I hovered around a bit and I noticed the number of debris that littered the ground. Scorched trees and broken machines could be seen. It looked like I had found myself in the middle of a war. However, everything was destroyed. I saw no people, only flattened houses and scorched trees. There was nothing for miles wide.

I flew around some more and after some time I found a small forest. I headed over and found some survivors. I also saw a ufo that had mounted and huge robots kind of like you would see in the movie Transformers. I lowered the vehicle to the ground and entered the forest. The war was still going on and I could hear laser beams.

I followed the laser beams and saw a group of grey aliens huddled together. Suddenly I heard my name and I turned around. There I saw Jay, one of my friends (In real life). I stopped the vehicle and descended to the ground.

"Kristi?" Jay said.
"Jay?!" I said.
"it's me! I.. what's going on?" I said and ran to him. I embraced him.
"You have no idea how glad I am to see you, everything gone terribly wrong. They made some bad moves and..."
"And what?" I asked.
"We're it," he said.
"The last?"
"yes, they made some bad moves, and the greys completely took over without warning. Some huge object came and wiped out a lot. Sarah Michelle Gellar is still alive and the president - not obama. Some white guy."
"Oh jay, I'm so sorry." I embraced him harder and cried.

"But listen," he said. "You can save us with that machine. I know its from the future."
"How?"
"We must go back to your time before you were transported and convince the President to not make those bad moves."
"Okay, but first we must gather the survivors and convince the greys too."
Jay nodded. By this time, I noticed I was dressed differently. I had an army green tank top on with cargo pants. My hair was curlier than usual and I carried a gun. Jay and I climbed into the vehicle and ascended once again to look for Sarah and the rest. We eventually found them and the greys again. By this time the vehicle was crowded with the survivors.

(the conversations in this next part is only a fraction of the real conversation, I couldn't remember the real conversation that much)

I swerved around around and faced the group of greys. They, simultaneously, looked up at me. I held up my hands in peace. I began to shout. Suddenly I heard one of them saying, "No need to shout. Just think."

I began to think what I wanted to say. I thought, Visitors from the grand cosmos, please hear me. I come from the past. I was transported ahead into the far future. I was disappointed that the world looked exactly like this current one, but only cleaner and more ethereal. Definitely not what I perceived the future to be. We were still in our old ways just improved. I know your race and its' agenda, I know why you are here. I beg you to surrender.

After a few minutes of circling them, I heard one of them think, Alright. We'll surrender. When you said the far future is like this present one, that means our race hasn't changed, and that we're still the slaves of the Reptillians. This war, would otherwise be pointless. Go back to your time, and convince your governments what has happened and hopefully that will change. Be wary that your governments will be pre-metamorphosis. I would highly recommend waiting until post-metamorphosis.

By then, it seemed like magic, that the vehicle automatically transported itself back to the far future, with the survivors and before when my pre-metamorphosis self found the vehicle. I jumped out and the others followed. The female patron was no where to be found.

I turned to Jay and said, "Did we do it?"

"I.. I have no idea" Jay said.
I looked around at the others and they seemed to have no idea either.

We all climbed into the vehicle again. I entered in 2011 and found myself and the vehicle at my beach house where I am now. I began to fly the vehicle towards washington dc.

The scene cut to the vehicle being in front of tall french windows of the white house. I was looking in the room and saw President Obama and Michelle Obama talking with a few people. I knocked on the windows. They all turned and stared at me. I broke the window by turning the vehicle on its side and crashing into the glass.

The security of the white house came into the room and before they could begin shooting, the generals in the vehicle turned and shot them.

I steadied the vehicle and told the President my message.

Needless to say they were all stunned, and took it seriously.
Once the meeting was over. The vehicle mysteriously transported back to 2012. I was sitting next to Sarah Michelle Gellar and Jay was driving the vehicle. As he moved to the forest were we began, I saw giants. I had remembered that I read that Humans were the race of tiny people and the giants that existed once on earth were a mixture of pledians and sirians. They stood tall above the forest dominating everything on the ground. The robotic transformers appeared miniature to these giants. Jay moved the vehicle up to the giants.

"I'm so happy to see you," I said to one of them.
"And we're happy to see you, you saved us from the worst possible outcome," a male giant said. "we were able to keep the greys away when comet elenin came. "
"Fantastic, I said. Does that mean, humans are free?"
"What's left of them," he said. "Which appears to be you lot."

I nodded grimly. I said, "let me do something first."

I transported everyone to the far future. We found ourselves in the same exact building the dream began in. Except everything was slightly different. The female patron was no where to be found, but there were scientists in the room as it had turned into a lab instead of a parlor.

They all dropped what they were doing and stared at us.
I flew through the window breaking the glass before they could do anything. As soon as I saw the outside, I knew it was different than before. I was high up in the atmosphere instead of looking down on a manicured lawn. And everything was full of light, light was every where. I could see it all, it was blinding at first.

The other survivors cheered. We swerved the vehicle to the closest platform and climbed out. I turned to Jay and hugged him hard. I whispered to him and he kissed me.

We all agreed to do something to celebrate and found the local bar. In this world, you could buy alcoholic drinks in beer bottle like containers. I picked a Strawberry Daiquiri and Sarah and I had fun chugging them down. In this world, no one had to know what we did, in this world, there were no secrets, there were no corrupt governments. In this world we were as free as we could be.

----end dreamscape----

Class Schedule

2011-08-09T21:58:00.003-04:00

Schedule for this fall

Monday:

Morning:N/A
Afternoon: 1:10 PM - 2:20 - His Modern & Design
Evening: N/A

Tuesday:

Morning: 8:30 - 11:30 AM - Artists' as activits
Afternoon: 2:35 PM - 3:45 - Intro to Sociology
Evening N/A (TR 4:00 PM-4:45 PM; PHED 124 B)

Wednesday:

Morning: 9:00 - 12:00 - Portfolio Seminar
Afternoon: N/A
Evening: N/A (W 7:00 PM-8:15 PM; PHED 142 B)

Thursday:

Morning: N/A
Afternoon: 2:35 PM - 3:45 - Intro to Sociology
Evening: N/A (TR 4:00 PM-4:45 PM; PHED 124 B)

So early this summer I learned that my adviser is going abroad to be researching, fine, but now i also learned the other professors that I had who I also thought would be teaching my classes have changed. I will have hardly any professors I have had before. This makes things a bit of a challenge. I do not know them at all, and it will be very hard to predict how difficult they'll be or easy and a waste of time they'll be. What a semester I thought I'd enjoy, has turned into a semester that I may actually be dreading. I am SO unhappy about this.

Society of Cape Cod Craftsmen

2011-08-09T16:27:00.004-04:00

Today my mom and I went to Brewster Cape Cod which is about 15 minutes from Eastham and we went to the annual crafts fair conducted by the Society of Cape Cod Craftsmen. Its' been a dream of mine to find a craft I really enjoy doing and sell it at events like this, I already have a concept in mind...

Anyway, this crafts fair was unique, and well done. All the crafts people had to be juried in order to become a member of the Society. They had a lot of great crafts people (although my mom and I thought there was too much pottery and handmade Cookware and Bakeware. But I guess that's just not my taste. I love pottery, but I just think it looks all the same...)

We fell in love with two artisans who did really unique things. First a beader who had really unique designs. I can't really describe it but I guess you could call it sculptural. She made unique flower designs out of seed beads and not just your typical strung beads on tigertail. She actually used fishing line, something a bit different and they way the beads reacted when strung onto fishing line was really unique!

The second artist that we fell in love, did crocheting, shell collecting, paper making, and embroidery. She combined everything using shells into works of art that resulted in really intricate picturesque collages.

My mom loves the same thing she did and she had done a little embroidery and shell collecting herself. But unfortunately a lot of the pieces that would fit in our color scheme in our house the prices were a little out of our budget.

The entire show was a little out of our budget, but it was fun talking to the artisans and having them tell their story.

The artist, who made the piece of sea glass I found at one of the near by beaches into a pendant, was there.

I really want to get into making cosmetics this winter. That industry has always been a passion of mine and working with colors will be fun. I also thought about making my own pigments from natural materials from the Northeast to make it specific.

Like for example purple might be able to be taken from a purple hydrangea or a purple quohog clam. That would be fun. The concept of taking natural materials and make them into pigments is a medieval concept that the fresco painters did often, and thus the company would be, "Fresco Cosmetics". Most make up artists see the face as a canvas and I think this would be cool to get into. Yes yes yes

Oh our neighbor behind us has also given us fresh clams, potatoes and garlic. So we're in the middle of cooking up some fresh cape cod cowder.

Mystical Life: Sausages and Finance Investors

2011-08-05T17:53:00.004-04:00

So I have been having really weird synchronicity and 'coincidences' lately.

This summer has been pretty hard on me for finding work.. being rejected twice for internships, losing two clients, etc.

I know I shouldn't be too hard on myself, but as I was talking with two people on facebook my career is really what keeps me going unfortunately. I feed off success like a vampire or mosquito feeds off blood.

I live on success, and if I don't see myself as successful, it depresses me, extremely. I want to get ahead and I want to please everyone around me. Which means, I will jump on any business opportunity that presents itself.

My parents don't necessarily care about my career, they only want me to make money and support myself. They aren't creative or very artistic, and its hard to propose projects when they can't even share my visions.

I get that... but I do need some support of what I do in order to move on, I can't completely rely on myself, otherwise in my head I go, "IF people around me don't like what I do, why continue to do it?"

This conversation came at an interesting time.
I got an email in my junk folder from someone who claims to be a 'Prince in the Kingdom of Saudi Arabia' who owns an arabian cement company. Emails from my contact form on my website goes into my junk folder so that's why I picked up on this. His approach to me appeared to be pretty legit. He wanted to be a foreign business partner and financial investor to a profitable business. The investments he wanted to make was pretty grand. I sent him an email back saying I was interested and then offered me some more information. I had researched his name and nothing came up regarding scams or frauds. In my second email to him, I asked for identification because I have heard people buying titles and using them to promote themselves. He may be a Prince, but how much royalty does he actually have in his genes...

I got his first email last night before I went to bed.

THAT night I had a dream. In the dream I was talking to my friend Kyle and he was showing me something on his phone. When he gave me the phone the phone turned into a half sausage that was slice vertically. The half sausage wiggled like a fish and attacked me. I woke up when it attacked me and realized my mom was shaking me, the shaking I think had incorporated itself into my dream.

The sausage looked just as the zucchini does in the picture above.
Weird dreams are weird...

I thought nothing of it until this morning I got the response from Le Prince.

After I replied to him I did a tarot reading regarding the partnership. I got the King of Pentacles, the Star and Five of Wands.

I identified Le Prince as the King of Pentacles
and the Star as myself and the FIve of Wands as struggles.

King of Pentacles:

The King of Pentacles is an excellent card to receive with regard to financial questions. Your finances are very likely to be on the upswing, largely due to your own efforts and/or wise investments. This is not a time to speculate wildly. Take calculated risks, perhaps, but don't get carried away. Share your wealth when and where you feel moved to do so. Remember that money is just money; you can't take it with you.

Star

Again, this is a very powerful positive omen. You will do better financially than you imagined. This is a great time to take risks (only those you can afford,) to ask for more money at your job, and to sell things. You'll have everything that you need, more than likely, and then some. Enjoy it.

If this is yourself, you are intuitively heading towards the direction of where you should be on your own personal path in life. You are also about to have much abundance enter your life through many and varied ways. If you have been looking for a certain job, more than likely you will achieve it and this will reflect what is going on inside you, which is finding your true niche in life. You are also able to express yourself more truthfully without hindrances from your past or your upbringing. Your intuition is extremely heightened at this time and can bring on flashes of insight to guide you through the many decisions you are going to be facing. Trust in your future and show great faith against the odds and you will succeed. Something to do with the country, or near a river or ocean may figure strongly in an event which will occur within about one month.

Five of Wands:

Some associations are - career, creativity, energy, desire, action, intuition, sex, movement, victory, enthusiasm, confidence, competition, magic and excellence.

The number five represents disrupted stability, struggle, uncertainty, upset, change, disruption, adversity, conflict, loss, disappointment, challenge and difficulties.

According to Paul Foster Case the number 5 represents FEAR. We sometimes fear our own actions and must remain aware of how they affect our decisions.

Then after the reading, I remembered the dream and looked up the Symbolism of sausages:

One interpretation said, "You are likely to be happily surprised by a sudden turn of luck concerning business or financial matters"

another said, "Cutting meat in a dream indicates a coming increase in material wealth"

Just did another reading regarding the Five of Wands being the struggles, not too bright:

The Hangedman

* Yield
* Suspend
* Surrender
* Sacrifice
* Non-Action
* Submission
* In-Between

Eight of Swords

* Fear
* Illusion
* Limitation
* Exclusion
* Constriction
* Toxification
* Paralyzation
* Misperception

Nine of Swords

* Agony
* Denial
* Confusion
* Avoidance
* Inflexibility
* Suppression
* Misdirection
* Self-delusion
* Consumption
* Contradiction
* Disillusionment
* Misunderstanding

This is interesting.
It looks like the struggles and conflicts that we will encounter will cause a suspension, fear and confusion... we'll see what happens.

Loreena and the Forgotten War

2011-08-01T00:45:00.005-04:00

Part 1

It was a partly cloudy night in the Northern Italian province of Biella. Loreena once again found herself wondering the streets in search for food. She dug through trash cans in hope of finding something tangible to eat. She searched many hours through the cold cloudy night. Finally she reached the end of the street and saw a brown cloth bag sitting on the cobble stone street. She walked quickly to it and looked through it. She was astonished to find a half baguette and a half slice of cheese left and with a knife! Looking to her left and right to see if anyone was near by she snatched the bag and ran off.

Loreena was an average framed girl but with having little to eat she was malnourished. She wore a brown scratchy blanket over her dirty torn white flowered dress. Her leather boots are worn and had holes above the toes. Her long wavy copper hair was matted and clung to her face. Her hazel eyes were bright and wide with a hint of fear. She sprinted down the street she came and found a hiding spot for the night. Taking the baguette and cheese out she cut her self slices and savored the moment. Fresh bread and cheese was almost impossible to find, especially in that condition, Loreena thought to herself. I wonder if someone left this for me?

After a full stomach for the first time since her family got separated Loreena fell asleep.

"Hey you!" said a voice, startling Loreena.

"Who me?" Loreena said groggily.
"Yes you, you stole my bag last night I saw you."

Loreena jolted up right and looked up at where the voice came from. She was astonished to find a boy about her age standing in front of her. His clothes were no better than hers except he was wearing a beret.

"Monsieur, I.. I'm so very sorry. You see-"
"Unbelievable! A street rat was brave enough to steal my food!"
"Don't turn me in please!" Squealed Loreena. "I'll do anything you wish! Just don't throw me in Jail!"
"Anything?" the boy taunted.
"Anything!"

The boy stood there staring at her thinking.

"What's your story?" the boy asked.
"My story?" Loreena asked stupidly.
"Your story! Why are you on the street? It might help me decide whether or not to make you my servant."
"Oh! My family got separated after the Thirty Year's War and when the French took the Italian throne. I'm desperate to find them because its the only way my family can reclaim its rightful place."
"Ahh I see..." the boy said. "A difficult decision: a pure blood italian desperate to overthrow the French-Italian Monarchy.. what should I do?"
"QUINTUS!"
"Coming, ma!"
"You got lucky, you can have the bread," scoffed the boy.
"QUINTUS!! Where have you gone, you taunting to street rats again?" screamed a woman that appeared to be the boy's mother.
"Yes, ma, as always. This, 'ere, girl is quite fascinating though, ma."
"Oh?" perked up his mother.
"Ya, she tryin' to over throw the French-Italian Monarchy, she thinks she's royalty or something."

The boy's mother burst out laughing and the boy joined in. As they walked away their laughter stabbed Loreena's heart. I will find my family! and I WILL be back in that palace! Loreena promised herself. Loreena got to her feet and picked up the cloth bag. She suddenly noticed a piece of paper inside. She opened it and the scratchy handwriting read:

Meet me at the Magnano Clock Tower at 8 pm tonight. If I'm not there stay there.

Loreena quickly put the note back in the bag and wondered who her mysterious messenger is. She walked down the street and eagerly awaited 8 pm.

She spent her day lounging around the streets of Magnano and when 8 pm came, she found herself by the Magnano Clock Tower. She seated herself by a tree and waited, curious to see what will come her way. Suddenly she heard voices and horses hooves on the cobble stones. She braced herself as she saw two town sherifs on horses that pulled a carriage, the carriage was barricaded with iron bars. Inside she could barely see someone sitting. As the carriage pulled up the street she saw that it stopped by the clock tower. The two sherifs dismounted from the horses and took the body out of the carriage. Loreena sees now that the body is a young male and she instantly notices that his hair is copper like hers! A bit of hope pinged her heart.

She slowly began to crawl closer to the scene to get a better view. The sherifs force the copper haired male onto his feet and forced him to walk up the steep slope to the tower. After what seemed like hours of anxiously waiting, the sound of a musket stabbed the quiet, still atmosphere of Magnano. Loreena glanced quickly up at the top of the tower and sees a body falling. Loreena ran to the tower and positioned herself to catch the body. The body fell into her arms and she staggered and fell. She noticed that the copper haired male was shot in the chest, however he was barely alive.

"Loreena" he spoke softly.
"How do you know my name?" she said, tears streaming down her face.
"You've forgotten, haven't you?" the male said.
"I...I.."
"it's okay, I almost did until I saw you last night. You remember me don't you?" the male whispered as he saw the realization struck across Loreena's face.
"Guido! Oh Guido!" Loreena screamed and buried her head.
"Sshh, they'll hear you. I got in trouble for stealing my work from the Royal Library."
"Oh Guido!"
"Loreena, listen here! That knowledge is important, my work that I had done. It can help fix everything."
"How? You're the last heir!" hollered Loreena.
"Yes. Listen and promise to me Loreena. They've got my knowledge again, you MUST steal it and find an Apothecarist. He should be able to build..."
"Build what?" Loreena asked.
Guido's eyes began to close.
"Guido! build what?"
"It." was all Guido could muster. Loreena felt him become limp. She fell to her knees and mourned for him. Wailing and crying in hysterics. It wasn't long before Loreena could hear the sherifs coming.
She didn't care. She wanted jail now, there's no hope left for her and her family. They killed the last heir, and it doesn't matter if she's a female. By law the heir must be male to return the power to the throne.

The sherifs were suddenly surrounding Loreena. The stout italian man forced Loreena to her feet and the tall french man handcuffed her and threw her into the iron bar carriage and blacked out.

Loreena:

Corteo lyrics

2011-07-31T18:26:00.003-04:00

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ritornare

Brinda, brinda, brinda alla vita
Alla tua vita che valore ha
Brinda, brinda, brinda alla vita
Alla tua vita che valore ha
Vivi, vivi, vivi la vita
Questa mia vita che se ne va

Il vivere è un lungo ritornare
Brinda alla vita, brinda alla vita
Il vivere è un lungo ritornare
Brinda, brinda alla vita

Brinda alla vita, vivi, vivi, vivi la vita

Brindo alla vita
È un lungo ritornare
Brindo alla vita
È un lungo ritornare

-----------------------

Toast, toast, toast to life
To your life that has value
Toast, toast, toast to life
To your life that has value
Live, live, live the life
My life goes

The living is a long back
Toast to life, toast to life
The living is a long back
Toast, toast to life

Toast to life, live, live, live the life

Toast to life
It's a long back
Toast to life
It's a long back

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Nos Dejo

ya se fue, nos dejó
chi non c'è, più non c'è
e se c'è già non c'è amor
ya durmió, nos dejó
chi non c'è, più non c'è
e se c'è già non c'è amor

muerte es una cita que se puede atrasar
si te quedas nunca más te volveré a engañar
pero por primero, mi amor

más antes de partir
no te vayas a olvidar
un beso, un abrazo, un tierno y dulce chao
más antes de partir
no te vayas a olvidar
un beso, un abrazo, hasta el carnaval

-----------------------

is gone, let
those who are not there, there's more
And there's already no love
and sleep, let
those who are not there, there's more
And there's already no love

Death is an appointment that may delay
if you stay you'll never fool
but first, my love

more before departure
do not go to forget
a kiss, a hug, a tender and sweet bye
more before departure
do not go to forget
a kiss, a hug, until Carnival

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Klezmer Movement

si ça te fais du bien
si ça te fais du bien
de te sentir un peu plus mal

sens-toi bien mal
sens-toi bien mal
pour te sentir un peu mieux

Sans te sentir mal
Te fait du bien sens-toi
bien mal
pour te sentir un peu mieux

si ça te fais du bien
si ça te fais du bien
de te sentir un peu plus mal

sens-toi bien mal
sens-toi bien mal
pour te sentir un peu mieux
sens-toi bien mal
sens-toi bien mal
pour te sentir un peu mieux

si ça te fais du bien
si ça te fais du bien
de te sentir un peu plus mal
sens-toi bien mal
sens-toi bien mal
pour te sentir un peu mieux
sens-toi bien mal
sens-toi bien mal

-----------------------

if it'll do good
if it'll do good
of you feel a little worse

Feel very bad
Feel very bad
to make you feel a little better

Without feeling bad
Makes you feel good yourself
badly
to make you feel a little better

if it'll do good
if it'll do good
of you feel a little worse

Feel very bad
Feel very bad
to make you feel a little better
Feel very bad
Feel very bad
to make you feel a little better

if it'll do good
if it'll do good
of you feel a little worse
Feel very bad
Feel very bad
to make you feel a little better
Feel very bad
Feel very bad

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Prendersi per Mano

bambina, mi prendevi per mano
giardino, era un mondo selvaggio
cercavi i modi per restar sempre nascosta
forme per creder che il mondo avremmo potuto fermar
che bello il tempo libero

parole disegnate nell'aria
parole inventate per non scappar
vivrai, vivrò
tutto resterà così

vivrai, vivrò
tutto resterà così

parole disegnate nell'aria
parole inventate per non scappar

vivrai, vivrò
tutto resterà così

parole disegnate nell'aria
parole inventate per non scappar
vivrai, vivrò
tutto resterà così

-----------------------

Join hands

girl, took my hand
garden was a wild world
Always looking for ways to remain hidden
forms to believe that the world would have stopped
I just got free time

words drawn in the air
invented words not to run away
live, I live
All will be well

live, I live
All will be well

words drawn in the air
invented words not to run away

live, I live
All will be well

words drawn in the air
invented words not to run away
live, I live
All will be well

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

El Cielo Sabrá

porque, solo el cielo sabrá
porque, el no regresa siempre al mar
porque, como un niño preguntare
con mi voz, con mis palabras
te miro y te quiero, tu sonrisa sin mi cielos

busco después me pierdo
pregunto y ya me duermo
busco después me quedo
pregunto y ya despierto
sabrás, tu lo sabrás porque porque porque el porque porque porque

porque, solo el viento sabrá
porque, las nubes no se pueden parar
porque, como un niño preguntare
con mi voz, con mis palabras
te miro y te quiero, tu sueñas sin dormir la noche

busco después me pierdo
pregunto y ya despierto
sabrás, tu lo sabrás porque porque porque
solo libertad

-----------------------

because, heaven only knows
because the returns are not always the sea
because as a child shall ask
with my voice, my words
I look and I love you, your smile without my heaven

I miss looking after
I fall asleep and you wonder
I'm looking after
already awake and wonder
you know, you will know because because because because because because

because only the wind knows
because the clouds can not be stopped
because as a child shall ask
with my voice, my words
I look and I love you, your sleepless night dream

I miss looking after
already awake and wonder
you know, you will know because because because
just freedom

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Vovo Volando

forse allora mi ricorderai
un sorriso sulla faccia mia
ubriaco di nostalgia
s'alzerà nel vento polvere
poi sarò vicino a te
poi sarò un ricordo per te

hanno detto che ricorderai
ogni gesto la bella follia
impazzito di nostalgia
saprò come farti ridere
poi sarò un ricordo per te

dimmi allora ti ricorderai
quella gioia e quella pazzia
canteremo con nostalgia
tutto il nostro resistere
poi sarò un ricordo per te

forse allora ti ricorderai
ogni bacio le calze mie
scoprirai la nostalgia
poi sarò un ricordo per te

volo, volo, volando, volo e volerò
volo, volo, volando, volo e volerò

volo, volo, volando, volo e volerò

ogni sera ci ricorderai
quella pace, quell'allegria
amerai la nostalgia
poi sarò un ricordo per te

forse allora mi ricorderai
un sorriso sulla faccia mia
ubriaco di nostalgia
s'alzerà nel vento polvere
poi sarò un ricordo per te

-----------------------

Flying Vovo

maybe then I remember
a smile on my face
drunk with nostalgia
s'alzerà dust in the wind
I'll be near you
I'll be a memory for you

said they will remember
every gesture the beautiful madness
mad with longing
I know how to make you laugh
I'll be a memory for you

Then tell me you'll remember
that joy and madness
sing with nostalgia
all of our resist
I'll be a memory for you

maybe then you'll remember
every kiss my socks
find out the nostalgia
I'll be a memory for you

flight, flight, flying, fly and fly
flight, flight, flying, fly and fly

flight, flight, flying, fly and fly

every night we will remember
that peace, gaiety
love the nostalgia
I'll be a memory for you

maybe then I remember
a smile on my face
drunk with nostalgia
s'alzerà dust in the wind
I'll be a memory for you

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Garda Lassu
un día muy triste volveré
ese día no te pude detener
el vino de las copas se acabó
pero antes de partir
no te vayas a olvidar
un beso, un abrazo, un tierno y dulce chao
un beso, un abrazo, hasta sólo un chao

-----------------------

Garda Lassu
again a very sad day
that day I will not stop
wine cups are finished
but before leaving
do not go to forget
a kiss, a hug, a tender and sweet bye
a kiss, a hug, until only one bye

Loreena and the Forgotten War

2011-07-31T17:08:00.003-04:00

I have been listening to Corteo by Cirque Du Soleil since junior year of high school. During the car ride home from the Cape I have thought up an awesome story line that goes with the music as well as being an animated film.

(this is mostly completely made up)

My story takes place in 16th/17th century Italy. Italy was overthrown by the french monarchy after the Thirty Year's War. The Royal Italian family was banished to the streets leaving its heritage to die. One by one the heirs of the family died from poverty. The youngest Princess, Loreena was left to fend for herself. Her family had separated and she was determined to find who was still alive. Eventually she finds a street rat by the name of Guido who is in trouble with the French-Italian monarchy for stealing his work in Apothecarism and Western Alchemy from the Royal Library. Loreena finds out that Guido is her brother and a heir to the throne. Guido is eventually caught and is given the death penalty. The French-Italian monarchy wanted to work with the Vatican and burn all ancient wisdom teachings from human consciousness since they aimed to revolutionize the Western World with a world view that is validated by science rather than by religion or tradition. In order for Italy to survive, the Royal Italian family must gain back their claim to the throne. Loreena finds out that Guido is dead and steals the knowledge again from the Royal Library, she eventually escapes from the Monarchy and is determined to find an Apothecarist to help her save the Royal Italian Family. She eventually finds herself in 17th century Moravia and is kidnapped by a middle-eastern man named Abdur-Rahman. Loreena tells Rahman her story and asks he she could help her. After a few days of studying the knowledge Loreena carried with her to Moravia, Rahman learns that there's enough knowledge to build a time machine that will transport Loreena back a few months before Guido convinces himself to steal the knowledge. Loreena must be convincing so Guido will believe her that he is the heir to the Royal Italian Family throne. However, Gold is expensive, but the ingredients from the alchemical transmutation process from are not but rare. Being poor herself, Loreena almost gives up but Abdur-Rahman offers Loreena an unthinkable idea. For payment, Loreena will give Rahman, her first born to be his own personal heir of Abdur-Rahman's work and family lineage. Not only her first born, but her virginity as well. Loreena eventually agrees. Years later Rahman successfully builds the time machine and during this time the French-Italian Monarchy has ordered a pure italian blood genocide. The night the genocide was called, Rahman and Loreena have sex. The next day, Rahman and Loreena have sex again, and that night Loreena leaves. She successfully is transported back to the night Guido convinces himself to steal his knowledge from the Royal Library. She saves Guido from death and tells him that he must gather an army and take back the Royal Italian throne. Loreena returns to the night of the ordered genocide and instead of being a genocide it is a war to take back the italian throne, lead by Guido himself. By changing history, she found that she had never stolen the knowledge and travelled to Moravia and she never had made that deal with Abdur-Rahman. Somehow Rahman, found her and he remembered the deal. Angry, with her and her clever plan, he kidnapped her again and raped her to make sure she got pregnant. Guido, now a general, found Abdur-Rahman and sentenced him to death. Italy won the war and became its' own nation once again.

A Tour of a little Northeast Paradise

2011-07-31T11:40:00.014-04:00

I have been spending my summer weekends at my family's new summer house. I am absolutely in love with this place. It's so inspiring to be on Cape Cod (my heart and soul lives here) and to have a place here opens up so many possibilities (like a Marketing business my mom and I are trying to get off the ground for the grassroots artists and crafters here...). We officially obtained the house June 28th (I believe) and have been down here every weekend since. I finally gotten around to taking pictures of the place last weekend and now am just posting it.

I have often been referring to Cape Cod as the Northeast Hawaii. The Cape Cod peninsula isn't connected to the 'main land' of the Massachusetts state, you have to cross a bridge over a canal to get there and then there are islands.. Martha's Vineyard and Nantucket. It also has a native flower, the Hydrangea, that everyone loves like Hawaii's plumeria.

The living room isn't pictured because we didn't have furniture in it yet when I took the pictures and it became the "everything room" since it's the room you enter through the side door. We got the furniture last week, so I'll take the picture next weekend. Nothing too special though.

Front of the House

Side door

Front of the back yard.

So nice sitting out here with a drink or with your computer, or simply taking a nap after the beach.

Large backyard, its so nice having a backyard. The house I grew up in had a little backyard, so not used to having so much free space.

Family Room

The bedroom I sleep in.

Sage Green Master Bedroom

Upstairs Bathroom

Upstairs Bathroom

Guest room. If your the only guest over here you'd be in this room.

I also don't have the 'guest' bathroom pictured. Although it has the same royal blue/white design as the bedspread.

Bay Window behind the dinning room table.

Backyard patio

Patio Table

In the kitchen facing the dining room.

Feline Love

2011-07-23T01:19:00.001-04:00

Feline Love by kaffe on Polyvore.com

Hermit Crabs

2011-07-18T01:04:00.001-04:00

Photos taken at "First Encounter" beach in Eastham, Cape Cod, MA

Romany Vardo - Gypsy Wagon/Caravan

2011-07-14T21:37:00.002-04:00

Lately, I have been obsessing (I even had a dream about it) about gypsy caravans, especially like the one in the picture above. Yes, the prairie covered wagons were probably derived from a gypsy caravan. Generally they are $12,000 but the thought of creating your own vehicle is enlightening. I had a dream about being in a covered wagon out in the Amish country in Pennsylvania, and if you know me, I don't remember my dreams often. I woke up so pleased and happy from that dream. I think its' a calling.

Gypsy Caravans seem perfect for my personality... just finding a builder in the USA may be tough (since Gypsy Caravans originally came from England).

A cute little room with a bed and a small kitchen is all really I need. I am also thinking about adding solar panels for electricity to modernize it. Love love love

Interior Design around a photography mural

2011-07-10T22:48:00.013-04:00

Magic Tea by kaffe on Polyvore.com

LOVE. I just love Polyvore! It is another similar collage website like pinterest, but polyvore is just that. A collage site. You can put together items from the internet to create a collage. Usually for putting together outfits and/or room decor planning. I found this image , "Magic Tea" by Faiiiry on deviantart on pinterest and put it on to my aesthetics board. I thought it'd be cool to design a room around it or something else. The above is what I came up with. The antique and pastels create a very romantic feeling, with a splash of country.

Captain, my captain by kaffe featuring straw handbags

Dew Drop by kaffe featuring rhinestone bracelets

Colorful Balloons by kaffe on Polyvore.com

Repurpose vintage bottles with Bottle Pour Spouts

2011-07-09T01:44:00.003-04:00

I need to get me some bottle pour spouts. To repurpose vintage bottles use bottle pour spouts. You can use them as water bottles or for any other liquid.

Alive

2011-07-06T01:40:00.005-04:00

Heyyyyy I'm alive. :) Just been semi-busy... but doing boring stuff that's not worthy to blog about. I've started my second session of french classes this summer. Not sure how well I did last session yet. Family finally got the cape house under our belts, so I've been busy going to the cape during the weekends. So. Much. Fun.

We went last weekend. Went to a couple of the local beaches and I found a piece of genuine (haha) sea glass! Sea glass is rare b/c people are becoming more environmentally aware so they aren't throwing it into the ocean.. kinda sad for jewelers and crafters who use it and now have to use the fake stuff.

After the beach, my mom and I went to the Artists' Guild Craft faire on the Eastham common. Eastham as well as Orleans is known for their old fashioned windmills and I went up Eastham's never been in a wooden windmill before :P. But we met a jeweler at the craft faire and we're having the sea glass I found made into a pendant with a star fish. So excited to see it. I can't believe I had that piece in my bag! I usually keep things I really like that I find on the beach with me instead of tossing it into the bucket and having it get mixed with all the shells we've collected over the years.

I've also spending my time on Pinterest which is an awesome addicting website that allows you to pin whatever you find on the internet onto "boards" and different categories. I have lots of boards already around 35 I think. Right now I was working on a "Food Shopping List" board when Pinterest decided to go down =(. Its kinda helping me keep organized. Since I can see everything I've ever wished for or visually thought of all in one place. I guess since its' down I should go to bed =D

Mom and dad in front of the cape house

We're going back this weekend so I'll take lots of pictures since we're a little more settled now. =) Two more days of class and then back to the cape! Love this.